My email seems to be workin okay now. I think it was having too many things open at once that made it suck. Anyway, On Wednesday, I went to the mall with my friend, Jason, as I said before, and, no offense to Jason, it kinda sucked. All I could think was how much I missed Josh, and I wished he was there instead of Jason, and how much of an ass I am. I shouldn't have gone. It created too many complications between me and Josh when I told him and now I don't feel quite as close to him as I did before. Now, don't get me wrong, I WAS only going out with a friend, BUT I used to have a crush on that friend, so that's why Josh wasn't very joyful at hearing the news of the previous day's events (I told him last night). Plus, Josh isn't aware of his greatness, so he's not too keen on me going to see a previous crush. Although I would never leave him for Jason (no offense, again). I don't have that bond with anyone BUT Josh, and no one could replace that. So, I feel like an ass for not thinking about it and just going. And, last night sucked because of it. I won't really have much time to be alone with him until tomorrow night, after work. That sucks. Real bad. =(

Shit, someone im'd me and told me that Jen never got my message. I haven't called for about 2 weeks, but maybe we can still get together. I hope. Well, anyway, I think I'll go now. Bub bye!! =)

I'm havin problems with my email again. I think I should just get another address and stop messing with this one crappy one I have now. I just talked to my one bud, Jason, and we're gonna get together today and he's droppin off some applications at different places, so I'm goin with. It'll be fun to catch up, I guess. Josh might get mad, though. Eh, I care, but then, I have friends and I'd like to talk to them, and so far, this is the one I've been able to get in touch with and actually plan to do something with. I just hope Josh doesn't get too mad. I don't want him to get upset or anything. He already got mad at me when I caught rides home with Jason from school last year. Oh well, there's no way I could even talk to Josh now about it. I won't even talk to him til tomorrow night. Well, whatever. I'll deal with it later.

Hmm...what else to report. Nothing really. The book I wrote about the other day is getting more interesting, but I don't wanna ruin it for anyone, so I'm not gonna say anything about it. Other than that, there's not much to write about. I have no life. =( Well, I do, I just have too bad a memory to write anything about. I can't remember anything that happens. Oh well. I think I should go now. I have to call my sis and tell her that I won't be here later; that I'm leaving. Alrighty, bub bye!!

I'm gonna cry. I can't get into my email!! Damn thing was workin fine, until I tried to actually enter the mailbox and now it's not workin at all. AND Chuckie is already up and jumping around. It's only 4 pm; usually he's not awake from his nap til 5:30 pm. Luckily I don't have to deal with him alone. Anyway, my weekend was really good. I didn't have to work, so it was really good in that respect. I was at Josh's house and he took me to the library (of course I couldn't find what I was lookin for) and to the bank. Then, we just hung out at his house for the rest of the afternoon. And, on Sunday, we went to his mom's house for dinner, so that was fun, too.

I read this really good book, called Stardust by Neil Gaiman. I read it in 1 night, and I thought it was real good. Some people might say it's a corny book, but I like those kinds of fantasy books, so it was right up my alley. Now I'm reading a book called, The Vision of Emma Blau by Ursula Hegi. She wrote Stones From the River and that was a decent book too. I'm almost halfway through it now. I stay up too late to read each night and I really shouldn't. At least I'm stayin up late for a good reason, and not just to be up late.

I'm really wiped out from this email business. I just want the damn thing to work, and I can't, and it sucks. I'm giving up for a few hours, at least, and then I'll be online tryin again. After I'm done typin this, I'm getting offline to read or something.

Me and Josh have been dating for 2 years and 9 months as of last Wednesday. I forgot to write that the last time. That's quite a long time! And my birthday is in 1 1/2 weeks. Yay!!!! It's on the 23rd. It's also a weekend I don't have to work, so that's great too!

Oh yeah, Josh found the song he was lookin for. It was "Your Love" by The Outfield. I was lookin for the wrong name, too. He looked under "I don't wanna lose your love tonight" and I just missed the word love in my search, otherwise, I'd have found it. Oh well.

Eh, I think I'll go now. Alrighty, bub bye!!! =)

I can't find a song that Josh wanted to know about. I looked and looked, but I couldn't find it. I'm not even sure of the name, but it's something like, "I don't wanna lose you, tonight." I don't know who sings it, either. Oh well. I tried. Well, today, I had to get up early to babysit the runts since my brother-in-la's mom wasn't home yet, or something stupid like that. So I am very tired and I don't expect my sis to get home at a reasonable time, since she didn't go into work til 9 am, so I'll probably be stuck babysitting even longer. I'm not really having that bad of a day, tho. I'm in a decently good mood, and I hope it stays that way. I've been online ALL afternoon. And I mean, ALL afternoon. Ever since Chuck got home, this has been my life. Just lookin for the song. Which I can't find. Grrr....

Yesterday, I got my package of incense, so I was burnin incense all day. I can't think of anything else interesting to write about yesterday, other than Josh stopping by last night. I guess that's why I'm in a good mood. =) Damn, I'm really hungry all of a sudden. Heh, no it's not because I thought of Josh, I had stopped for a few seconds to look at the tv and my stomach growled real loud. Anyway, I think I'll go now. Alright, bub bye!! =)

Hey! I forgot what I was gonna write. Eh, I'm sure I'll remember sometime. Probably tonight at about 8:30 when I'm spossed to call my hunny. Oh well. Today is proving to be one of those weird days when I can't seem to get myself motivated to do ANYTHING what-so-ever. Of course, today was the new moon, so that could explain it, or it could just be as stupid as PMS (which I know is happening too, so that is definately clouding up my week). My dad wants to parallel park tomorrow, so I am getting even closer to my license! Yay!! But we also have to go to the post office to pick up my incense that I ordered. Apparently, I have to sign for this package. I haven't had to for any of my other packages, but for incense, I have to. Well, I usually stay home on Tuesdays, so I can burn incense all day tomorrow, so, it's good I'm goin to get it tomorrow. Anyway, I'm excited about it, since I'm getting the incense I couldn't find for a long time. The store I got it at discontinued selling it, so I was looking online for it and out of the entire internet, I finally found it on ONE, I repeat, one website, from Great Britain. So, I've only been waiting for about a week and a half.

Well, it's 6 pm now, and no Betty. Ah, well, what a freakin surprise! Well, I think I'm gonna go. I'm really tired and I can't think of anything to write. Alright, bub bye!! =)

Well, hello. I have to admit that even though I had to work this weekend, it was pretty freakin good! I just saw that my one message DID publish and now I have the picture thingy up here twice. Oh well. Anyway, I just wanted to post a quick message, just in case I forgot to later today. I want to get off the computer for a little bit and do other things. (yes, there are other things to do besides be online) So, I will write later. Bub bye!!

Hello again! I'm in a better mood, although no one's home yet. Grrrr.....Anyway, I just wanted to write a more positive message, even if it wasn't too long. So, I'm better now. Okay, talk to ya all later!! =)

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I took this quiz earlier. I also had something written about 5 minutes ago, but my fucking computer froze up on me as I was publishing it and I just about broke the damn thing. Then, while the comp. is startin up again, my mom calls and says that'll be a little late, but they aren't picking up the kids and she doesn't know how close they are to being done. That means I'll probably be here for the next 2-3 hours. You should've heard me swearing up a storm, all in front of the kids, no less. Oh no, not on the phone with my mom, but right after I hung up, I almost threw the phone across the room. I already have to get up a 5 am tomorrow, but now, I get cheated out of time that I could be spending with my boyfriend and NOT with these damn kids. I've told Betty before I don't like babysitting, but apparently no one seems to care about my feelings about this shit. I'm sorry I'm not in a good mood, but this week has been hell for me. I guess I expect too much from anyone.

Hey all! I am trying new stuff on here. I've spent most of the afternoon trying to find stuff to put on here and I think I'm doin okay, but I still don't have it all done yet. Did u see? I'm a star!! hehe Anyway, I don't have much to report about today. The gas was turned back on today, so there's heat!! Yay!! And my ass hurts from sitting in front of this computer for, like, 3-4 hrs. And most of the time, I've been working on stuff for this blog! I don't know why I'm wasting so much time here; maybe it's because I like my individuality and like things to look nice, with pictures and stuff. Stuff must be my word of the day or something. I've used it 4 times, not including the one in this sentence. Yeah well, I better get back to my STUFF before I spend too much time typing here. Bub bye and have a nice weekend!! =)