"Me? I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what I saw. I'm scared of what I did, of who I am. And most of all...I'm scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life, the way I feel when I'm with you." -Baby, Dirty Dancing

Heya!! I didn't get over to my sis's yesterday, so I couldn't update the blog. Sorry! Anyway, I had my appt with Crystal yesterday. She did buy stuff, so that's great! I just have a problem. I can't order anything today because its the end of the month. Well, I couldn't order anything yesterday, since I wasn't over here to use the comp. And, I don't know if I'll get to order it tomorrow, either, since I might not see my Joshie this weekend. He's got a really bad cold, and he felt like crap last night, so I didn't even really see him for that long last night. I dunno about tonight (I hope he's feelin better!) so that really sucks. And if I don't see him tomorrow, then I won't even be near a comp, and I definately can't order her stuff then. Eh....I dunno what to do. Guess I gotta wait and see. Hopefully, tho, I can get rush delivery or something so I can deliver her stuff to her without much of a delay.

Anyway, I'm having fun here printing out papers I need. Although, for some reason, on the website with al of the Mry Kay info on it, they don't have one of the really important papers that I need copies of and I don't want to pay for photocopies right away. Damn that sucks. But you can see that my mind is focused on this Mary Kay business today. That's only bad, because I feel like that's all that's been happening today, and I think I need a break from it. Even here, when this blog is usually my break from Mary Kay, I'm writing about it. Eh well.

I will type my quote now and maybe I'll have more to report later.

"They may forget what you said, but the will never forget how you made them feel." -Carl W. Buechner

This was the quote I just typed for my screen saver today. Oh yeah, I customized a bunch of crap with aol. I was tryin to find a cool sound for when I sign on for the ppl who have me on their buddy list, but I gave up, since they had nothin good. I was gonna have a person whistling, but that sucked, so I just gave up.

Well, I must be going now. I will write later! Bub bye!! ;)

PS Crystal, I LOVE the pics on your blog!!! They're great! :)

Hello again! I forgot to publish this earlier. Damn this sucky memory. Anyway, I just found out from my mom that Grammy has Chrone's disease. Just like what Josh's friend has. That really sucks. Now that I know that it's in the family, I'm gonna be paranoid about my kids getting something like that. It's a very crappy thing to have, just from hearing Josh's friend talk about it, the little bit he does say about it. Damn! That sucks.

Anyway, I just thought I'd share that little tidbit of info with ya while it was fresh on my mind (and before I forget that too). Alrighty, bub bye!!! :)

Hello! I'm having a pretty good day today. I got ready this morning and had a little extra time, and for some reason, I decided to weigh myself, and I lost 5 pounds since I last checked!!!! Yay!! Of course, that was about 3 weeks ago that I remember, and I also started a different exercise program (yoga). I really didn't think that I woulda lost weight, since I've been eating more than usual this past weekend and I haven't been consistant with the schedule, but I guess I must be doing something right. Heh. Anyway, I have my appointment wiht Crystal Miller tomorrow morning, so I definately will have stuff to talk about tomorrow.

Damn, it's spossed to start snowing tonight. I hate snow. Bleh. Ummmm....what else to talk about. I know there was more, I just can't remember it now. Grrrr....that happens a lot, though. You'd think I'd be used to it by now, considering the amount of times a day that happens to me, but I'm not. Oh well. Errrr....uhhhhh....nope. Nothing. I really can't remember.

I guess that leaves me to the quote. I gotta go get that. Hold on a sec.....K, back.

"Wondering is more fun with two." -Pooh, A Pocketful of Pooh-isms

I'm gonna get sappy on ya here. If Josh reads this, it's for you hunny. ;)

"See there's this place in me where your fingertips still rest, your kisses still linger, and your whispers softly echo. It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me." -Gretchen Kemp

Eh, I gotta pee, but Chuck's in the bathroom. HURRY UP!!!! Well, I know he won't here that, but I'm gettin impatient. Yeah well, I'm gonna get goin now. I'll talk to ya all later! Have a happy day! Bub bye!!! :)

Wow, this is pissing me off. I keep reloading this damn page and the publish button won't show up, so I'm hoping after I finish typing this, it will show up. If not, you probably won't even read this until tomorrow. Alrighty, I hope this works! Bub bye (for the third time)!

"If I wasn't so small, I'd be a lot taller!" -Piglet, A Pocketful of Pooh-isms

I almost forgot that, too. Hehe. Okay, Bub bye!!! :)

Sorry I didn't write again yesterday. I kinda forgot. Anyway, I went to my first unit meeting last night. It was really fun. One of the ladies had sold so much and did sooooo much in the past 2 weeks. It was really inspiring. I got my Mary Kay pin, which for some godawful reason I gotta wear iot upside down until I get my first customer. Eh, I might have 1 or 2 by the end of the week. :D Yay!! Hehe. Anyway, I don't really have much else to say about it. I really can't remember much of anything specific. We sat around the platform and Judi and the other Sales Director talked about stuff regarding Mary Kay and then gave us time to ask any questions we could think of. I really didn't have any, but I did get quite a lot of useful info, though. Ummmm......I can't really think of anything else to write about. Well, Josh might stop by to see me tonight, but that's about it.

Alright, I'll go now. Bub bye!! :)

Hello everyone!! I'm so happy! I made my first real appointment today! Yay!! :) Hehe. Anyway, I hope to make it to the meeting tonight. In fact, I gotta call Judi to get directions, so I will go now and post another message later, just so I don't forget to call again. Okay bub bye for now! :)

Exotic

You take pleasure in experimenting with your look. You're always trying out new styles, fragrances, and beauty treatments. Sometimes you're trying to enhance what you've got. At other times your appearance is something you're creative with. Experimenting with a totally new haircut or the latest foaming face scrub is your way of exploring the world around you through different skins.

You are well aware that sheer makeup looks better on soft, well-cared for skin, so you try to keep your pores free from blemishes and oil. You don't have a signature scent because you're too busy trying them all to pick a favorite. At times you may risk hiding your true self behind all this glamorous self-indulgence, but hopefully you're just expressing your flamboyant, creative personality through lipstick, scents, and other fancy stuff.

Melissa, your career personality type is INFJ

That means that based on the standard measure of personality traits, you have strong communication skills and interact well with people. Your warm personality helps create an encouraging work atmosphere that allows you to forge deep personal connections with others. You dislike office politics and try not to get involved in the murk. Instead, you rise above it all with your understanding nature.

You have a sense of maturity that others respect and strive to emulate. Although you can work well alone, you are happiest balancing independent work with team interaction. You are well organized and are a strong multi-tasker.

The reason employers and recruiters might be on the lookout for you is that only about 2-3% of the U.S. population shares the unique characteristics of your personality type. Research shows that businesses succeed when employers create a good balance of personality types in the office. And since only 2-3% of the U.S. population shares your type, that means employers are looking for you.

Hiya!!! I'm so happy! My sis finally got the computer off of layaway, so I can finally stop using Bob's computer. I always felt like he was mad whenever I was online on his comp. becuz I always seemed to be on it whenever he's walk by. Anyway, I'm also happy about it cuz I can print out the few things from my Mary Kay webpage, and save things on this computer that I couldn't before. Most of the stuff I needed to print or save has to do with Mary Kay, so it's kinda important for me to have it saved or whatever. And this keyboard is soooo much nicer than Bob's old one. Enough about the computer.

I have to get a quote. Hold on.....Okay, this one's pretty funny.
"I believe that sex is one of the most beautiful, natural, wholesome things that money can buy." -Steve Martin

Anyway, I didn't write yesterday since I really didn't have any time to. I hardly had any time to do anything for myself. I had to babysit for a few hours extra, then I had to drive a few places, and I had to meet someone at their work. So, it was a full day of crap I didn't really wanna do. Well, except for meeting my friend, but that was not that long. Ummm....I met Jackie at Mickey D's on Wednesday night and that was fun. We talked for about an hour. There really wasn't anything to write about, except that I felt like a bum sompared to her. Her nails were really nice (artificial, of course), and I just didn't feel up to my usual self compared to what I used to be. Eh, I dunno. I guess I really don't know what I'm talking about. Heh. Anyway, there really isn't anything else to write about, so I'll go now. Bub bye!! :)

Marilyn Monroe!

Sexy? You wanna talk sexy? Marilyn Monroe had the ability to reduce any man to a quivering mound of Jell-O. Like your sex symbol sister, you too know how to work a breathy whisper and a knowing glance. Not one to blindly follow the latest beauty trends, you stick with the classics: A scandalously full red lip, a sleekly lined eye and strategically placed perfume are all the tools you need to turn heads. When it comes to fashion, you aren't one to bare it all. Believing it's better to leave a little to the imagination, you pass on the micromini and tube top, opting instead for an off-the-shoulder cocktail dress or a snugly fitted sweater. It must be difficult to be such a timeless temptress, what with all those guys stumbling over themselves to open your door. Just remember to leave a few standing for the rest of us!

Sporty Scents

You have a high-octane, enigmatic personality. Your passion for natural beauty is almost religious, much like Jennifer Lopez and Lucy Liu. As such, "natural beauty" means sporting a style as fresh and feminine and direct as you are.
Sporty scents, comprised of citrus fruits, light flowers like lily of the valley or freesia, herbs and green tea fit your energetic and adventurous personality. Crisp, vibrant fragrances match your penchant for healthy food, vigorous workouts and bright colors. You love the great outdoors and even the wicked chills of winter won't keep you housebound.

Sheer Shimmer!

Cyndi Lauper must have been talking to you when she sang, "Girls just want to have fun!" Never one to take style too seriously, you love the glitzy glamour of pop icons like Gwen Stefani and Janet Jackson. The sexy sparkle of Hard Candy Super Shine Lip Gloss in Oxy will satisfy all of your glam-rock desires. This luscious lip lacquer contains a spectrum of sparkle in a clear gloss for an out-of-this-world smile.

Earth Angel

Your beautyliciousness, like Susan Sarandon's, is all about earthy sensuality. Your natural beauty, glowing skin and warm nature send a soulful message to the objects of your desire: Only authentic hearts need apply! You love clothing in natural fabrics that make you feel good. You often have a sense that you're in tune -- with your friends, with your surroundings. You've always taken great care with your appearance -- because you never feel more right than when you reveal your best self to the world. Your beautyliciousness is like a roaring fire, drawing men to you who seek warmth, comfort -- and heat!

You’re Smashin’ Passion Fruit!

You've got it and you're definitely not afraid to flaunt it! The tropical and tempting flavor of passion fruit lip gloss is the perfect match for your straightforward, sexy style. Your love of slinky clothes in sensual fabrics and deep, dramatic makeup guarantees that you'll always make an entrance -- and leave a lasting impression! And whether you’ve already found your Mr. Right or are still out there searching, he'll be helpless to the powers of your passion-fruit pucker!

"A dog recently saved his owner's life, because he had been trained to dial 911. Unfortunately, operators had trouble finding the address, 'Woof, woof.' "-Norm McDonald

Heya! Don't have much to say today. I'm goin to McDonald's tonight. Yes, again. Jackie wrote the time down this time, so we shouldn't have too many problems meeting this time. Other than that, tho, I have nuttin to say. Maybe tomorrow I'll have something interesting to say. I think I'll go find some quizzes to complete. ;) Bub bye!!! :)

Heya!! I know I haven't been online for a few days, but o well. No one really missed me, I'm sure. Well, I just scheduled my open house on my Mary Kay website! If anyone who hasn't already been invited wants to have a look see, just go to Mel's Mary Kay website! on March 6! I'm offering a free lip gloss for any order over $45! So, that'll be real kewl if anyone shows up! :) Oh yeah, if you got an email from me last week, you'll be getting one about this event, too. And, the damn web service kept telling me I was sending duplicate copies of that email, even tho I deleted the first one, so don't let that one surprise you, either. I screwed up with that, so I don't really know how it'll end up. So, sorry I sent ya get 2 copies!

Anyway, I talked to some of my buds yesterday! I'm so excited! I'm getting a social life again!!! Yay!!! :) Oh, and Jason im'ed me earlier and wastelling me that he started drinking, and how it's so cool and stuff. I don't really care if that's what he chooses to do, but that's all he talked about!! He wouldn't shut up about it! I dunno why it's his new obsession, but whatever.

Also, I hate snow!!! I was shoveling yesterday and it sucked. I have to finish the driveway tonight. Ick. Ummmmm...what else important do I have to comment on? O, Crystal, the pic on your blog is very cute.

Oh yeah, I'm adding a new feature to my somewhat daily posts. I'll be adding a quote each day I post to this blog. I know, it's not very original, but I have 4 notebooks, soon to be 5, full of quotes, and I figured that I should do something interesting with them. So, here's today's:

"When a man goes on a date, he wonders if he'll get lucky. A woman already knows." -Frederick Ryder

Well, there ya go. I'll update tomorrow!! Bub bye!! :)

Ah. Hello. I had an interesting morning. I got up early to go to work and picked up my check. I stopped by Karen's office and we talked for about a half an hour, and then I went to the housekeeping office and got my check. I went to the bank and, by this time, it's about noon. I'm like, Crap! It's late! So, I head over to Walmart with the intention of spending 30 minutes at the most there. I picked up a pair of nice boots, Josh's Valentine's Day present, and a few little things I needed. Then I went to the clothing section looking for dressy pants, and I knew I didn't have enough money for the pants, but I looked anyway. Then I looked at my watch, and it was 1:00, and I swore to myself, and got to the checkout and got out to the car and left. Well, I got home really late, and I think that my dad might have been late to work, but anyway, I stayed at home until Chuck picked me up and now I'm here. Now, I'm trying to read magazines and get through them quickly, but the kids are being pains in the asses. Anyway, I gotta go, Bree's crying. So, have a happy day!! Bub bye!!! :)

Heya!! I am sooooooooo sore! I don't quite know the exact reason, but it could be a number of things that I did yesterday that I normally don't do. Anyway, I might see Josh tonight I'm not sure. Oh yeah, last night, I was supposed to meet Jackie at McDonald's, like I had mentioned before, but I got there at 7, a little late, and sat in my car for just under 15 minutes, and I had to pee really bad by then, so I went inside to go pee, and wen I was done, I came back out and checked to see if she got there yet. Well, she hadn't, so I went in and ordered, and then I say by the one door closest to the drive-thru so I could see her pull in if she showed up. I didn't see her, and I finished eating and it was about 7:30 by then, so I went outside, and stalled a little bit, in case she was just late. Well, I was pulling out and someone in a blue car came around back, and I got the feeling it was her, but I couldn't see if it was. And, I was pulling away from the parking spots, so I had to get going. Anyway, I called her when I got home, but she wasn't there, so I'm gonna call her this afternoon, just to mke sure she didn't get into an accident again or something. You know, just to make sure there was just a misunderstanding, and not something serious.

Well, I have to call Josh's mom, Karen, a work to make sure she knows that I'll be picking my check up tomorrow morning, so she doesn't have to deliver it. So, I better go now. Maybe I'll get on later and write. I dunno. Have a happy day, in case I don't write again!!! Bub bye!! :)

I've got another quiz result!! This one Crystal made up, and I think she did a great job (even tho I don't watch Buffy anymore)!! So, here it is!

You're Cordelia! You truly are a ho. Ever-changing, you skip from boy to boy, and don'tcare if he dated one of your ex-friends. Youalso don't mind boinking the undead, or his son,for that matter. Very confusing and self-righteous, the powers that be spit you back toLA with a new "blonde phase."
Which Buffy Ho Are You? brought to you by Quizilla

Well, there ya go! I don't really have anything to say today, nor do I really feel like rambling along about nothing today, so I'll go now. Have a great day!!!
Bub Bye!!! :)

Heya!! I didn't get to my meeting last night because time wouldn't allow it. So, I still have yet to get to one of them. Next week is a "guest event" so I guess I could invite someone to go with me. I'm a bit uncomfortable with that idea, since I really don't know where the place is, and I still get a bit uncomfortable with other ppl in the car with me. I think I'd be okay if i knew where I was going, but anyway, I'll survive. I called my bud, Jackie, last night. We're goin to meet at McDonald's tomorrow night and hang out for a bit. I don't like McDonald's too much, but it's okay. She had gotten into an accident a few days after X-mas, so I don't think she really wants to dive very far anymore.I don't blame her. The accident really sounded bad. Anyway, so I have plans tomorrow night, even if it IS only to Mickey D's.

Anyway, I realized I really need to go to TJMax or somewhere cheap and get some nice dress pants. I only have a few skirts and 1 pair of pants that aren't jeans (other than scrubs, that is). So, I think I'll be making a trip there on Friday, after picking up my check and depositing it. Oh well. Anyway, I don't have anything else to write about. I'm trying to get pics of makeup looks and I'm making a binder full of them to show to my customers, but that's it. That's what I need to go work on now. Okay, I will go now. Bub bye!!! :)

Well, hello. Man am I tired. I almost can't keep my eyes open. They feel all swollen, like I was crying or something (I wasn't), and I hate that feeling. It makes me feel even more tired,especially when I 've got a million things yet to read. Anyway, my weekend was alright. I had to work :( But it wasn't bad, so it's alright. I went to Josh's house after work, so I was really happy about that. And, my dad fixed the pipes for the sower, so I gotto take a shower at my house for the first time in about 2 weeks. YAY!!! :D Sorry. You don't realize how much you take something for granted like that, until you've got to go without it for awhile. It was just more of a pain in the ass to have to run over to someone else's place, lugging your bag of shower materials, just to go out somewhere else. But now I don't have to worry about that. :) Anyway, nothing much happened at his house, or at work, for that matter. I worked with Al (one of the janitors) on Sunday, and he's always fun to work with. He likes to be a pin in the ass too, so he was teasing me. It made the day go a bit faster. Although, I coulda been mean and not told him about his keys that he almost left in the door of the closet and hid them. :) No, I'm not THAT mean. He did that once before, and one of my buds, Carol, who is also a maid, decided to play a joke on him and take his keys for a little bit, and he was freakin out, since he keeps his car keys and whatnot on the keychain with the work keys. We gave them back to him, and he asn't mad then, but it WAS kinda mean. Anyway, I coulda done that again to him, but I decided not to. I shoulda done someting else more creative, though. Just to be a pain in the ass myself, which, as some of you know, I can be very skilled at. :) Anyway, that's mostly all I can remember that was interesting at work this weekend.

I might be going to a Mary Kay consultant meeting tonight, if my mom and sis get out of work on time. Hopefully, they will. I gotta get dressed up, though. I like dressing up, but I have a limited supply of nice pants and skirts that are professional looking for this business. So, I gotta save a lot of money to go shopping for dressy clothes, as well as for products and whatnot. This is gonna be a challenge, but I think I'm up to it. I have to read all of my information that I have. I kinda procrastinated about it, so I still have a lot to read, and listen to. So, I'm a bit unprepared for tonight, but it's okay. I was sick, so I can use that as my excuse. :P Hehe. No, seriously, I don't think they'll hold it against me. Anyway, I think I should go to read my stuff. I really don't have anything else to write about, so I think it's about time to wrap this up. Have a great day everyone!! Bub bye!!! :)

Armadillo
When in a jam, the slow-moving armadillo simply curls up inside her hard, protective shell. According to shamanistic wisdom, armadillo people know how to set boundaries for themselves and stand up for themselves tactfully, without picking a fight or an argument. Armadillo people are so thick-skinned that most things don't bother them. If someone is being truly unfair, armadillo people have no problem pointing that out in quiet, even tones or just shrugging it off and letting it go.

I took this quiz on Gurl.com and I thought it was interesting. They don't have html to post it on a website, so I just copied what the paragraph about it said. Ta-ta for now!

Okay, I think I'm done for today's round of quizzes. I can just hear all of you shouting "Thank God!!! I thought she'd never stop!" Hehehe, well, I've only just begun...... :)

Crystals have clear auras and are known as the"aura chameleons." Like chameleons,their auras will change colors to match thoseof the people they are connecting with at thetime. They then take on the characteristics,behavior patterns, emotions and thoughts ofthat color.
What Is Your True Aura Colour? brought to you by Quizilla

Your a happy go luck fairy, a fairy of the spring.bright and all
What kind of fairy are you? brought to you by Quizilla

You come from the Ocean. You've always been drawnto the sea, the sound of the waves, the crystalblue water, near the sea is where you belong.
Where Did Your Soul Originate? brought to you by Quizilla

Horse
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Ick. I hate snow. I need to live out in the desert. Then I think I'd be happy. I don't care how pretty it is, but it's only good for pictures. Past the pictures, the snow sucks. Crystal, you bum, you're lucky you don't have to be here now, even if it does seem to be melting quickly. Well, I'm kidding about the bum part. I don't really think you're a bum. Well, maybe not for that reason, anyway. :)

Anyway, me and Josh spent a little bit of time together last night. He picked me up from Betty's and took a different route to my house, and had a nice convo on the way. Well, more of me talking, him listening. Or pretending to listen. I didn't notice if he was actually listening, nor did I care. Anyway, (I tend to say that a lot on here don't I?) it was nice to just see him, especially when I wasn't sure if I would actually see him.

I actually am getting more and more accomplished lately. Especially with Mary Kay. I really think that's the reason why I'm getting anything done. :) Plus, I keep doing these quizzes, which make this blog more interesting than if I'd just ramble on incessantly about my immensely boring and uneventful life. Well, it was borin and uneventful, up until last week. But that wasn't a good eventful, either. Yeah well. Whatcha gonna do? Well, I think I'll go now to fill out more quizzes to post the results. Yay!! :D Hehe.
Anyway, have a happy day, everyone!!!
Bub bye!! :)

Okay, I will stop the quizzes for today. :P

Goddess of the Moon. Beauty, yet a sadness lurksabout you at times. But hey, pain is beauty,right?
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Devon Aoki
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Utena
Which Utena girl are you? brought to you by Quizilla

Here we go again!

Tomboy
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Hey!!! I just signed up for my Mary Kay website!! Here's the link:

My Mary Kay web site!

Have a great day!!! :D

Heya!!! Empire Records is on!!!! :D I'm soooo excited!!!! YAY!! Hehe. It's one of my fave movies, as some of you know. Ayway, I don't have much to report, other than I'm signing up for my Mary Kay web site today, I think. I'm still deciding. Anyway, if I don't post later, have a GREAT day today!!!
Damn the man! Save the Empire!
Bub bye!!!!! :)

Here's a few interesting blogs I found yesterday.

Glitteringenchantment.com

Destroy the mind

Freewill astrology

Happy Happy Joy Joy

Okay, okay, I will stop taking quizzes now. ;)

You are a goddess!
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cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to beclose to your special someone and feel warm,comfortable, and needed
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I stand corrected.

your bitch.
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Heya! I'm back. I wasn't really in a bad mood this morning, I just had to get all of that out of my system. I haven't been able to talk it out with anyone, so it feels good to have it out now. In fact, I just read my monthly horoscope, as well as part of Josh's, and there's stuff that's supposed to happen around the end of the month that's supposed to be real good for love (well, for Josh). So, I'm back to being my optimistic self again. I would like to apologize for my bitchiness I seem so good at conveying on this blog. I don't really try to complain about anything and everything, but I usually end up doing that when I talk about stuff that happened, cuz, well, most of the time, I am actually content, and not a lot upsets me often, but when something does, it sticks in my mind a lot longer than the contentedness does. I dunno if it's because I'm easily amused and what ight seem really cool to me, might sound real gay to someone else, or what it is, but regardless, that's my personality. I normally can have the initial depression after a bad event comes along, but then, after feeling the full extent of it's drearyness, I can be happy and optimistic again. That's why I consider myself to be really moody and some would call me high-maintenance. I also have a bad temper. If someone pisses me off royally, they sure as hell damn well know it. Or they will find out very soon. I'm done with trying to hold back on letting my anger loose if someone pisses me off and deserves a bitchin' to. I've done it way too many times and have made it worse most times. I gotta "unleash my fury" and get that over with, and then I'll feel better and be able to forgive the person (if they can forgive me for being a bitch to them :P) Well, most times. Sometimes, I do admit, grudges happen, but they fade over time. At least, I try to forgive and forget, but it is really hard to do, and it's one of those challenges ya gotta deal with in life. I'm really trying to be a better person, but it is extremely difficult. And I'm only trying to please myself now, at least, instead of others. Not having to deal with a bunch of ppl every day helps you to realize that's the only thing to make you happy. Then, it doesn't suck as much to be around all those ppl you don't like. Well, for me anyway.

Ah, well what else did I wanna write about? Oh yeah. I'm a bit bummed, cuz I don't know how tomorrow night will work out, and I have to work this weekend, so I won't get to see Josh too much becuz of that. I just don't know if Josh'll be up to seeing me. I really can't rely on my intuition anymore about it, since I don't know anything anymore about it, other than it'll end up alright. And I don't need any astrology article to tell me that, I just have a better mindset now that I've read what I had hoped about. I like to have things like that clarified.

Anyway, I don't think I have anything else to write about for the moment, so I'll go now. Whew! I'm tired from all this damn typing! My fingers are also really cold. I'll try to write tomorrow about stuff, but not much will happen tonight with me and Josh, as I don't converse with him on Wednesdays (usually), so I won't have much news there. Maybe something else will come up. Alrighty, bub bye!!! :)

Hello! Now, I'm not gonna screw this post up. If I do, I'll just give up writing about my weekend. Okay. Well, I guess I should start with Thursday night. It started out about average. Josh had gone to the doctor's at 4 pm, and found out he had tonsilitis. So he had to take some antibiotics for it, which he got free, cuz it was a 3 pill sample he got (and it worked), so he was kinda happy that he at least knew what was wrong. Okay, so after dinner, he called his mom and they talked for awhile. Nothing important really happened in that time. Then he wanted to leave kinda early cuz he's been having his "problem" again lately. We haven't really figured out why exactly, but I definately think it has something to do with me getting my license, and the fact that I got a flat tire that 1 Sunday, I think, triggered it. That's the night it started up again. So, I had no problem with leaving early. I was a little worried, but he'd been dealing with it for a while now, so I thought he'd be okay.

Well, then Friday comes along. I go out in the morning to pick up my check from work, go deposit it, and go to Judi's to pick up my right shade of foundation, and to sign up to start selling for Mary Kay. Well, I do that, and I'm feelin good about it, and so I go home and grab my stuff to leave for Betty's and have an interesting day. I didn't sign up for the Mary Kay web site tho, cuz it costs $50 a year to maintain it, so I decided to wait till next paycheck, cuz I also have other expenses coming out of this one. So, I don't have a website YET. I will soon, tho. :) Anyway, I had dressed up for no other reason than that I was out in the world and wanted to look nice for a change. Well, Bob and Chuck (at my sis's place) were teasing me that I was gonna play "nurse" for Josh since he was sick, if ya get what I mean. So, I was having an interesting day, like I said. I didn't have to babysit, Betty was there, since she had to take Chuckie to the doctor for his pinkeye. He ended up with it in both eyes, one worse than the other, and a slight ear infection. SO, he wasn't doin too well. His dad is allergic to penicillin, so he was having a sensitivity to the Amoxicillin they gave him, and my sis took the dose down to 2 times a day instead of 3. So, that's what happened at Betty's. Also, there was an extremely huge boat that was being transported to some place we never heard of (I don't remember where now), but the wide load took up both lanes of traffic, and was going down Swamp Pike. Bob and CHuck thought it was going to Rt. 100, but I had to go out later to Bause's since I called them earlier and was late to Judi's, so I didn't make it there in the morning. So, I went there about 10 minutes after the boat passed Betty's place, and when I got out of Bause's, it was comin all the way through Boyertown! So, I got a bit stuck in the traffic, but I took a short cut and got my way around it. So, that was another interesting part of the day. Then, Josh finally gets to Betty's a few hours later, and we go to his house, expecting the usual Friday night, but Matt didn't show up cuz he didn't want to catch what Josh had. So, at around 9 pm, Josh started having his "problem" again and took me home.

Then Saturday comes, and I take my shower at my Grandmother's house (my dad's fixing the pipes to our shower; they still have a bit of fixing needed), and I call up Josh, and he comes and gets me, and then we stop at Matt's house. We're there for a bit, eat lunch (I forgot to take my damn vitamin, too), and then we go to Richard's house to use his air compessor, cuz Josh's car's left front tire was a bit low. So, we're at Richard's for only a few minutes to do that, and we go to Josh's house. Everything seems to be fine. Well, around 7 that night, he starts saying that he wants to take me home early before he gets anxiety. So, I was a little upset, since I wanted to "be intimate" with him (I was deprived of it for about 2 weeks by then, so I was really bad at that time; in fact I never wrote about my weird dreams I had; I'll write about them later). Anyway, so we stay a bit longer after I mentioned that and everything was fine, except that he broke the button on my fave pair of jeans. Now, they were relatively cheap jeans, but nonetheless, my favorite pair, so, at that moment, I wasn't in the mood anymore. So, well, I won't go into details, but it didn't turn out to be all that great, and I was disappointed. So, right after, apparently, he had an anxiety attack and had to take me home.

Well, I was looking forward to Sunday, cuz I didn't think anything could get worse than it already was. Well, I took my shower and called Josh from my Grandmother's, and he wanted alone time that day. So, I had to stay home. Plus, I felt sick and I could tell I was getting a fever, and had a sore throat, so I wasn't really thrilled about that either. I just wanted to spend time with Josh since I was getting sick, but, nnnooooooo, I couldn't do that. So, I went to get a Sunday paper and was all depressed. I was spossed to call him when I got home which I did, and during our convo, Matt showed up at his house. Josh asked if he could call me back later and I said okay. I was already mad, and not really saying anything, so I figured it'd be best anyway. So, I took a nap, and he called me back at 4pm. We talked and had a little bit better convo, but not much better, and he said he'd call me on Monday night to find out if I was home from Betty's (which I didn't know if I was goin to her place or not), and maybe stop by. So I was a little happy about that, and I basically layed in bed watching tv since I was sick.

Now on Monday, I woke up with an even worse sore throat, and a worse fever, so I took some advil and felt a bit better, but stayed at home and wached tv and went online. That's when I had typed up my whole post and screwed it up. Well, I stopped at Betty's to take a shower and talked to her a little, and came home just at 7:30 (when he was supposed to call, which he did). Well, I talked to him and he said he wasn't coming over and I was really upset. I had been worried about him all this past weekend, and B.J. and her kids, my nephew who was sick, and me, now that I was getting sick, and how I don't have health insurance or any money to go to the doctor's, so everything had been gettin to me slowly, but enough to make me more and more depressed over the weekend, and now he was pissing me off again. Well, he was trying to cheer me up and, I admit we had a great convo, so I wasn't as upset by the end of it as I was before. So, on Monday night, I was okay.

On Tuesday, yesterday, I called the doctor, since I still had a fever and a sore throat, and I took some more advil. I called my mom and she said someone would be leaving work early so I could get there (we'll come back to this) and it was okay. I went to Betty's for a few hours (the kids were still at daycare; Chuckie's doin better) and took my shower, and Chuck gave me a ride home when he went to pick up the kids (it's a shorter distance from my house to the dr.'s office). I'm waitin, and waitin, (I also came home to find my Mary Kay training kit waiting for me on the porch :) Yay!) But anyway, I'm waiting and waiting and waiting, and finally I call the dr.'s office to tell them I'll be late. Of course they put me on hold for about 5 minutes, but I finally talked to someone and she said it'd be fine. So, my mom and my sister, Tina, finally get home at 5:25 (my appt. was for 5:20), and we speed over there. When I got there, I reported in and sat down. Then I waited for an hour before they decided to tell me they were running late. So, I finally got in, spent 5 minutes witht the Dr. and had my mom spend $50 for those 5 minutes (no health insurance). I have strep throat, and I needed to get Amoxicillin, and I gotta take that 3 times a freakin day for, like, a week, and maybe more, if I need it, with the refill, while Josh got his med. free and only had 3 pills to take. Grr.... Anyway, by the time we got home, I was happy. I called Josh, and, lo-and-behold, what's his problem? He's having another anxiety attack. This time I wasn't there for the beginning of it. But I told him about my day, and he said he felt a little better by the end, but we ended the convo and I went on examining my stuff from Mary Kay, and I went to bed. So that was my horrible weekend. I hafta go now, so I will write back later. Okay, Hope I don't lose this one!! Bub bye!!! :)

Shit. Double shit. I just typed up this hugely long post and I lost it somehow. I'm trying not to throw this freakin keyboard across the room now. I just hate webv and anything to do with it. It screws me up so bad. Now my fingers hurt from typing that loooonnnnggg post, so I can't even write it out again. I also have to go call my mom to see if they'll be home on time after work. Okay, I'll go now, but I just needed to let you know that I DID just spend about 30-40 minutes typing that post and putting my heart and soul into it and I freakin lost it. :( Grrr.......

Anyway, I'll go now before I ruin someone's mood. I'm sorry I seem so bitchy on this blog. I guess I just don't get along well with anything technological anymore. Oh well. I'll be back tomorrow to rewrite what I did have written here. Have a nice evening!!
Bub bye!!! :)

-Sensitive- You're Sensitive, and you'd like tostay that way. Sorry,listened to a bit too muchJewel there. You're sweet and very emotionallycharged. You definitely love the person you'rewith, and always want to know how they'refeeling so you can make sure they're happy.
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