"Hollywood is a place where they'll pay you a thousand dollars for a kiss, and fifty cents for your soul." -Marilyn Monroe

Heya!! I had a really good day yesterday, and a really weird and busy morning. I love waking up and actually having something to do, and my walks usually accomplish fulfilling this "need" for me, but today, I had to go pick up my paycheck :) and I WAS going to go to TJMaxx to look at cheap clothes. Well, I got up this morning and took my walk and when I got back, my sis calls me up from work and asks me to take a pack of diapers over to the daycare, since Bree ran out. Well, I said okay to that and I didn't mind whatsoever. Well, my other sis (the one who still lives at home), woke up and proceeded to tell me that the car needed gas. I only had $1 in my wallet. So I'm like, "Shit!" I ended up asking her for $10 to get by with. I get out to the car and see there's still 1/4 tank of gas left. I'm like, "Okay, I can make it to the Geriatric Center and back" (which I did make it, thank god!) So, I get my check and hang out in Karen's office for half an hour. So that was fun. I went back to B-town and got my check cashed and then I go to Turkey Hill to get gas (I really was tired of parking in parking spaces, so I went there so I wouldn't have to waste my time with that, since their pumps are parallel to the building). That was fine, but as I'm walkin in, I forget to look at the number on the pump. I had to walk back and check, so I looked very stupid, but I walked in and Amanda was there!! I was really surprised! We didn't really have much time to talk, and I forgot to ask if she was still living at home, but I think I'll try calling her house later. Oh yeah, and Jackie's boyfriend was in the Mercury today. On the front. It was just about his being on the one ship in the Navy.

Oh yeah, gotta tell ya about the weird guy this morning. It was really freaky. I was walking down the road, and I began approaching the intersection of my road and G. H. road and this car goes by. I walk up to the intersection and look down the road to make sure I won't get run over, and I see that car stopped on the edge of the road, a few feet further than the intersection. No 4-ways on or anything. He pulls away as I cross the street, and he must've turned around in someone's driveway, because he turned onto my road, on the side I was walking on, past the "goat farm." I was like "okaaaayyy...what the hell was that about?" So I just walk on, not too worried, since a lot of ppl get lost and messed up with directions. So, I get close to the cul-de-sac on the right side, right before the Churches place. I look down the road, and, who do i see? That car. He was not in park yet, he still was on the brakes, at the edge of the road (in the cul-de-sac, way down towards the end, far from me). I past the cul-de-sac and go down a bit on the dirt part of the road. Well, I noticed the time, so I turned around to go back home, and I go past the cul-de-sac and the car is still there. I'm not freakin or anything, just wondering what in the hell's goin on with this guy. So, I get to the intersection and who do u think passed me again? Yes, the guy. I looked in the car, and it looked like my cousin, Cory, who should be in school. I dunno if it was him or not, but he turned back onto G.H. road, so I just went on. If he woulda went down the way I was going, I woulda gone around the block or something, but it was okay. I didn't see him again. Just a freaky experience to write about.

I got free clothes last night! :) Johs's cousin, Christine, who is much skinnier than me, (or so I thought) had cleaned out the attic or her closet or something (I don't remember) and so there were two garbage bags full of clothes that Sharon (Josh's aunt, and Christine's mom) and Josh's grandmom thought I would like to look through it. Of course I did, who can resist free stuff? :) So, I went through it, and she buys preppy, American Eagle stuff, and Gap, and those kinds of clothes, and they were all in very good shape, and I picked out a bunch of stuff, and every single thing fit me (except for a sweatshirt hoodie; my head was too big to fit in the neckhole), so I was ecstatic!!! It made me feel good that I fit into everything (mind you, there was only pajama pants and 1 pair of "swishy" pants, so that's probably why I actually fit into all the clothes; I imagine she's definately skinnier than me on bottom) It made me feel as if my weight loss is actually showing. Karen said that you could tell when she saw me today. So, I'm a very happy little girl. :)

Well, I think I shall go now. Have a happy day!! Bub bye!! :)

"In the case of good books, the point is not to see how many of them you can get through, but how many can get through to you." - Mortimer Adler

"Baby! You are sex!" "I know."- Empire Records

Heya!! I am watching VH1 again and they have the 100 Greatest Love Songs on. I wanted to watch it when it was on the first time around, but I didn't feel like watching it on those nights. Anyway, I've been taking walks almost every day since it got warm outside. I love it! I love being outside and the birdies are all tweetin' and just being in the sunshine. I love nature. And, every time I walk down Hoffman Road, and go past me and Crystal's spot, and the rocks, I always remember all the fun times we had. Walks bring back memories for me. That's how a lot of my really good friendships happened and lasted. I don't think I could ever live in the city for that reason. And, I'm also exercising.So, it's all good. :) I just hate it when people drive by and they stare at you. I hate it so much, but I find myself doing it every time someone is walking on the side of the road. Oh well.

There are so many people online this afternoon. I'm not used to it. I'm also not even talking to them, no offense. I love my friends, but I don't think I'd be a great conversationalist today. Just like yesterday. I had a really good morning yesterday, and was really hyper, but, by the time I got to my sis's place, I was really tired and out of it. I think hormones were to blame for that. That's why I hate being a woman at times. I usually am very proud to be a woman (I am woman, hear me roar! :) sorry, just came to my mind), but today, I am fed up with the whole period business. I actually don't mind it most months, but I am not happy about it today. I think it's from the walk this morning. I had to stop earlier than I woulda liked and gone home, cuz I felt too crappy to go on. I usually don't get this way too often, but, I dunno, I must have been saving up all of my pms'ing bitchiness until today, just to complain about this. The weird thing is, I'm not really bitchy today, just about a few certain things more than usual. Eh, don't try to understand me; I'm way too confusing, I confuse myself sometimes. :)

Anyway, I finally heard this one song that my work buddy, Carol, was talkin about this weekend. It's not a song you'd associate with her personality. But it's the rap song by 50 Cent called 'Da Club. It cracked me up when I heard it, since I thought of her and it was just a funny moment for me. You know, thinking back on that, and other weird thoughts and moments of mine, I really think I'm crazy. :) I suppose everyone has their moments. Like Matt, who had a dream (he was telling Josh, and I was there) about some guy trying to let Matt shoot him, saying "It won't hurt, It'll be fun!" or something like that. That was so funny when he was describing that. Matt really has funny stuff to say about stuff that happens to him. It makes Friday nights really fun, even tho we're all just hanging out in Josh's living room and watching tv. OOOOOOHH!!! I LOOOOOOVVVEEE this song!! It's the Grease song, You're The One That I Want. Of course, that's my fave movie. That and Empire Records, which I watched the whole thing yesterday. :)

My sister is selling Avon now. She started a few weeks ago. I'm not really pissed, but I feel kinda like she's doing better than me, since there were like 5 boxes of stuff for her yesterday from Avon, and I know my other sis bought a lot from her, so I felt kinda jealous. I know I shouldn't, but it happens. It makes me feel like I suck at this and I, obviously, don't do enough stuff with Mary Kay. I could be trying so much harder, but oh well. I'll get over it. I always do. :)

Wow, I wrote a lot today! I think I even had more to write about, too. Well, I gotta go so Chuck can use the phone, so have a happy day!!! Bub bye!!! :)

"Don't squat with your spurs on."-Will Rodgers

"A mind might ponder its thought for ages, and not gain so much self-knowledge as the passion of love shall teach in a day." -Ralph Waldo Emerson

Heya! I am having a great day! I turned on the tv and Empire Records was on!!!! I only caught the last half, but it makes me wanna go home and pick my video up and watch the whole thing then. I was thinkin about doin that. Not sure if I will tho. Anway, yesterday was okay. I can't say that it was good. I don't really remember much about it, other than stopping by CVS and getting a pair of gloves for work and another pair of pantyhose. It's sad when that seems to be the biggest part of the day. :) And, my sis got mad at me for doing something stupid that, if she was smart (notice I said IF), she could have avoided the whole problem. And, my dad was pissed at her, cuz she can't park the car right. She doesn't park close enough to the side of the driveway, so when he was backing up, he nearly hit the other car in the driveway since it was about 2 feet away from the edge of the driveway. So, he was freakin out. I thought it was funny, since she blames it on everything but herself, and I never seem to have that much of a problem backing up close to the edge of the driveway. I even do it with the outside light off, so it's even suckier to back it up. Not to brag or anything. ;)

Anyway, like I said, today's goin pretty good. I don't really have anything planned, but it seems to be a good day all around. Well, maybe I'll have something interesting to write about later. Until then, have a happy day, and bub bye!! :)

Heya! I was visiting Crystal yesterday, so I wasn't even online for a long time yesterday. I don't have much to really talk about. I had a lot of fun at Crystal's, and I went to Josh's last night, but I can't think of anything that would really interest anyone to put in here. And, I'm pretty sure Crystal's probably the only one reading my blog anyway. So, talking about our day wouldn't make much sense, since she was there. So, anyway, I went to Walmart this morning and I bought an expandable file folder, a notebook, another binder, and a calculator that has holes in the side to put it in a 3 ring binder. So, that's cool. I also finished my "makeup looks" binder yesterday. That's why I had to buy another binder. I needed a more professional looking thing to carry my important papers in anyway. I saw this really cool thing, kinda like a briefcase, and I was looking to buy it, but I wasn't sure if I should spend that much on it. Now, I coulda gone to Staples, but I don't think that I woulda made it back home in time for my dad to leave for work. So that's my reason for shopping at Walmart for something that I coulda gotten at a store a walk away. Damn, it's late!! I will go now. I gotta get some stuff done before going to Josh's, and even before the kids get here. So, I might be back later, if time allows, and I find something interesting to talk about. So, until then, bub bye!!! Have a happy day!!! :)

"For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin -- real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be got through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life."
--Alfred D'Souza

I spoke too soon about being happy. Rachel called and cancelled our appt earlier this afternoon at my house and I stopped by my house a bit ago and I listened to the message. It really sucks! :( I'm very disappointed. But we'll schedule another appt. so I think I'll survive. :) I'm such a drama queen. Anyway, I just felt like writing about it a little. I'll be back tomorrow. Bub bye!!

Hey all! I was just having sooooo many probs just trying to publish this page and all of a sudden, out of nowhere, it actually works. I dunno what I did or didn't do, but I'm glad it finally worked. You shoulda heard me swearing! It was getting pretty nasty. Anyway, I have an appointment tonight!!!! Yay!!!! I'm sooo happy!!!! :D I actually am getting to the point where I feel comfortable doing what I need to do to sell, and I think I'm gonna be great at this with more time. But for now, I feel pretty sure of myself that I think tonight will go well, and that's all I need to feel even more confident in my abilities. So, I am a happy camper at this moment. Hopefully, my happiness will last from moment to moment as the day wears on. So, I shall go at that happy note. Have a happy day!!!! Bub bye!!! :)

Red:
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This quote below describes how I feel about life, and I think it'll help me reaffirm life's positives when it seems life gets really sucky. Most of my quotes I collect are either motivational or funny, or both, but this one really says how I feel. Just thought I'd share that with ya. :)

"I have the right to decide how I lead my life. I have the right to pursue my own hopes, dreams and wishes. I have the right to my own values, beliefs, opinions and emotions. I have the right to not justify or explain my actions or feelings to others. I have the right to tell others how I wish to be treated. I have the right to change my mind, to make mistakes, and, if I'm willing to accept the consequences, to act unreasonably. I have the right to change, enhance or develop my life in any way that I determine."

Well, hello everyone! I wasn't able to get online yesterday, so I couldn't update my blog. And I couldn't get any work done yesterday. Which sucks, since I had to make up for it today, so I feel like I still didn't accomplish anything. I had a lot to talk about, but it's getting so late now, that I have to go. I think I've been online for about 2 1/2 hours now. I hate being online for that long. Anyway, I just wanted to say hi to everyone and have a happy day!!

"Nature has given men one tongue and two ears, that we may hear twice as much as we speak."
--Epictetus

Heya! I am in such a good mood right now and I really don't know why, since it's all icky outside and I usually get depressed when that happens. And, no one is really online today. Maybe it's because I get to see my hunny tonight. ;) Hehe. I think that might be it. Well, anyway, I know I had a lot of stuff to say today, but I forgot it all. Damn. Well, maybe I'll think of it later. I know that the accident that happened on Route 73 yesterday morning was on my mind earlier, but the newspapers didn't really have much more info than I already knew. It sucks that it happened, and I feel kinda bad, but this stuff happens, especially when you're speeding like that. Oh well.

Anyway, I wish that I could find more people to sell to. I keep thinking of places that might yield results, but when I really think it over, or actually get there, it ends up being a bad idea. Like the library last night. I probably coulda found some people to start chatting with about it, but I didn't have the time to spend to get that far. I had to get the car back to Tina so she could go shopping. So, that didn't span out. I really do need to get a car. I think I should definately get my ass in gear for another job if I do get a car, because then I'll be paying the insurance for that too. Oh yeah, that reminds me, I did my taxes last night (finally). I think they're relatively easy, but next year's gonna suck, what with filling out the long form of the federal taxes, and having all of that stuff to document with Mary Kay. Oh well. I think it'll be worth it. Anyway, I am getting money back! :D I'm really excited about that! Eh, I gotta get offline to call Karen, so I should end this. I'll write back later with my quote. Bub bye for now!! :)

I had a really weird dream this morning before I woke up. It had Elvis (the young version) in it as my father chasing me for some unknown reason. It was really freaky. Just like yesterday. Yesterday was also really weird. The day just had this "feeling" to it that's kinda unexplainable. I dunno. I know one really strange thing was talking to Josh early in the night, rather than at 8:30 like normal. That made me feel as though I stayed up really late after I finished talking to him, and I was only up til 10:00 or 10:30, like usual. That's probably why yesterday seemed really weird this morning. I dunno.

At Monday's meeting, we tried out the new nail polish colors. I have the new deep dark purple color on my nails now. I did a bad job polishing them (I just kinda blobbed it on once instead of doing 2 thin coats), and it's chipping now, but I love it!! I'm so excited about it! I can't wait until I can order the new stuff! There's also cool Velocity nail polishes and lip glosses that are limited edition, and I intend to order them soon. I hope they don't run out before I get the chance to order them, though. We also had 6 new consultants there. That was cool. The only person that I've met in my unit closest to my age is this one college student, and I think she said she was graduating this year, so everyone's older than me. Of course, I think everyone thinks I'm older than I really am. This one guy, Rich (one of the few people actually in my age range), that works in Dietary at the Geriatric Center told me he thought I was 24 or close to that. Of course, I don't always think guys are the best age judgers.

I think I'm more excited about Mary Kay now than when I started a month and a half ago. I really like everything I've used so far and I can't wait to try everything! I love my job!! :) I got my orders yesterday and Monday that I had ordered last week. I was so excited since my samples were in it. I just tried some of the stuff this morning. The Triple Action Eye Enhancer and Lip Enhancer work great. The eye stuff is to help prevent creasing, and so far it's doin a good job, and the lip enhancer really works great too! The lip stuff really helps to keep the lipstick on and keep it from fading. It's also supposed to stop the lipstick from feathering too. I don't really have that prob, but I'm sure that it works for that too. It's almost like having a lip liner on. I put one of my creme lipsticks on and it almost had a matte finish. I love it! And you really only need a very little bit of the stuff. The tubes are kinda small looking at first, but I'm sure, even if you'd use 'em every day, they'd last you a real long time! (Dammit, Bob, stop freakin smoking!!! He just lit up a cigarette. I hate the smell!!! Sorry it makes me mad when he does that. The room reeks forever after he does that.) Anyway, enough of that.

Anyway, Crystal's blog is really nifty looking! I love it! She changed the layout and I think it's great now!! You gotta check it out!

Well, I think that's the gist of what I had mentioned in the "lost post." I did the best I could to recreate my entusiasm. I don't think I quite captured it all, since I'm still a bit bummed, but oh well. Not a big deal. Anyway, have a happy day!! :)

Dammit. I really screwed this up. I wrote a long post and it was actually interesting and good (I believe I spent about 25 minutes on it) and I linked to a website with quotes on it, and the page opened in this window, meaning I lost the whole post. Usually, when I click on one of my favorites, it opens in a new window. Well, not this time. Crap. I know it's my fault this time (remember the other times I bitched about this problem? That I still blame on the computer). I'm very bummed now. I don't even know how to begin again. I think I'm gonna cry. My one good post in a week or two, and I screwed it up. :( I guess I'll start over then. I'll post the quote I got from the other page first tho.

"Tolerance and celebration of individual differences is the fire that fuels lasting love." -Tom Hannah

"Life's blows cannot break a person whose spirit is warmed at the fire of enthusiasm."
--Norman Vincent Peale

"Enthusiasm is one of the most powerful engines of success. When you do a thing, do it with all your might. Put your whole soul into it. Stamp it with your own personality. Be active, be energetic, be enthusiastic and faithful, and you will accomplish your objective. Nothing great was ever achieved without enthusiasm."
--Ralph Waldo Emerson

Heya! I'm in a good mood today, even tho I realized I screwed something up big time, but, just to stop myself from getting upset again, I won't talk about it. Anyway, I found out last night that, of the 3 people who voted on my blog, 2 said that my blog sucked, and the other person said it was "good." Well, I laughed when I read that. I know this isn't the most interesting read on the internet and I don't expect anyone to think so, either. Anyway, I would like to thank the one person who said my blog was good. I appreciate that. I'm pretty sure I can guess who that person is, too. :)

Ummm...what happened this weekend.....oh, I worked, which wasn't really sucky. I got easy jobs this weekend luckily. Well, they weren't really easy, but it was something I preferred to do over other things I might have been assigned to. So, I was happy about that. I have to say, nothing important happened, though. Usually nothing worth talking about happens when I'm having a good weekend there. Not to sound pessimistic or anything. But last night kinda sucked. Josh wasn't feelin too good, so I ended up goin home early, and I felt like we hadn't even spent any time together at all, since he was in another room most of the night (I'll let you figure out what room that was). So, that had me bumming around this morning, until I did my yoga and kinda put some things in perspective. Doing my laundry for the week also helps. I think since I'm such an organized person, that when I do something like that, it makes me feel as though I've accomplished something, by organizing all of my clean clothes in my closet and getting outfits together. Yes, I'm weird. ;) I like organizing stuff.

Well, I have my meeting tonight and we're trying out the new nail colors for spring!! Yay! I can do my nails! :) I'll let you know how it goes tomorrow. I hope that I can get a few more appts scheduled this week. I know I still have to work on my personality a bit, but I think I'm up to the challenge. Of course, I might not be so optimistic later, so that's why I'm writing it now.

Oh, I almost forgot! Thank you Crystal!! I saw you plugged my websites in your blog, so I just wanted to let you know that I'm really happy you did that for me! :D

Okay, before I forget, I'll get my quote on here.
"Do, or do not. There is no 'try'."
- Yoda ('The Empire Strikes Back')

There ya go! I'll be back tomorrow! Have a happy day!! Bub bye! :)

Well, Crystal, I think you're right. In my words, Blogger sucks! I am having issues trying to publish this damn thing. Grrr.........

"People take different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness. Just because they're not on your road doesn't mean they've gotten lost."
-H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

Heya! I am having a decent day today. Chuck doesn't have the car, so he won't be able to pick up the kids which means that I won't have to babysit! :D One sucky thing, tho, is that I have to work this weekend and I'm getting a cold. Well, 1) that makes two sucky things, and 2) I'm not getting a cold, I already have one. I took Tylenol Cold, so I'm not doin too bad right now. Oh yeah, no one bought anything from me yesterday on my website. :,( Oh well. I guess I didn't try enough. Either that, or all of my friends suck. Hehe, I'm just kiddin. Although, it does suck.

Hmm...I dunno what to write about, considering I didn't do much worth noting the past few days. Oh yeah, I made another appointment! It's with Rachel, and I know she's really excited about it. I hope that I do better at that facial than the first one I had last week. I definately should be able to prepare for it, since it'll be at night, instead of morning.

I saw Josh last night, and he still wants me to get a full-time job. That's not a bad idea, but he really does not support the whole Mary Kay thing. I told him about how no one bought anything yesterday, and all he said was, "Well, what do you expect?" That wasn't exactly nice, since I DID tell people about it and did as much as I could under the circumstances. It's everyone's choice if they prefer not to buy these products, you know? I just think that he doesn't think that I can sell anything and that it's a waste. Well, I'm gonna prove him wrong, just like I've had to with everything I've ever wanted to do with anyone. I always get the feeling that no one supports what I do. I know some people do, but it hurts when the one person you see the most and should support some things you do, has their own ideas of what you should do, and anything you choose to do isn't "practical" or "doesn't make sense" to do. I've had that from Josh with most of the choices I've ever made when I've been with him. I know he wants me to get the health insurance and that's why he's buggin me about the full-time job, but it sucks when you are just trying to find something you enjoy doing, and when you make a certain decision not to do that certain thing that might put you in a great situation money-wise or benefits-wise, but the job itself sucks, and you find yourself dreading it each and every time you have to go there, it really just makes you wanna scream. I haven't really been under stress the past few months, except for a few certain days, but that, I think, is the result of not doing that job that I hate so much. He, of all people, should understand that. But he's not putting himself in my shoes. I wish he would, so maybe then I wouldn't feel like this so much. At least about that situation. Not even about Mary Kay. I know he's still mad at me for not taking the full-time job at the Geriatric Center. I might've been happy doing that job last year, but I've changed a little since then and I know what the job entails, and I know that it's not for me. I may have been able to do that for 2 1/2 months, but that short time period felt like years, rather than months. I think that's a bad sign. The reson why I liked the job was because I knew it was only for a short time, and that time was fun. Now I go to work, and it can be fun, but half the time, I'm seriously dreading what they'll tell me I have to do. I can't go through that each day. I'm not that determined to make things work. I don't know if this would be considered laziness to some people, but I just don't believe I have to suffer each day I work, just to make money. And have health insurance. I just don't think suffering is a necessary thing in life. Because I think that, I'm not going to intentionally put myself through shit like that if I know that's what will end up happening.

Anyway, after that schpeel (I know that's not spelled right), I better go. I hope I made myself sorta clear, and didn't confuse everyone, cause I know that I confuse myself sometimes. I think this would be one of those times where I am very confused. Eh, who am I kidding? I get confused a lot. ;) Well,as promised, I shall go now. After my quote, that is.

Thought this one was fitting.
"Happiness is a choice that requires effort at times."
-Anon.

Okay, have a happy day!! Bub bye!! :)

"You can't do anything about the length of your life, but you can do something about its width and depth."
--Shira Tehrani

Heya! I don't have much to write about today, other than tomorrow is the online open house!! Yay! Anyway, like I said, I have nothing to write about, so I won't waste your time. Talk to ya later! Bub bye!! :)

SUBJECT - "Luck"

"We must believe in luck. For how
else can we explain the success of
those we don't like?"

~~ Jean Cocteau ~~

"All of us have bad luck and
good luck. The person who
persists through the bad luck,
who keeps right on going, is
the person who is there when
the good luck comes, and is
ready to receive it."

~~ Robert Collier ~~

LOVE

"Love is when a girl puts on
perfume and a boy puts on
shaving cologne and they go
out and smell each other."
Karl - age 5

To my Joshie:

"Your words are my food, your breath is my wine
You are everything to me."

- Sarah Bernhardt -

"Love Is ...

Love is the greatest feeling,
Love is like a play,
Love is what I feel for you,
Each and every day,
Love is like a smile,
Love is like a song,
Love is a great emotion,
That keeps us going strong,
I love you with my heart,
My body and my soul,
I love the way I keep loving,
Like a love I can't control,
So remember when your eyes meet mine,
I love you with all my heart,
And I have poured my entire soul into you,
Right from the very start."

- Meghan -

"Because Of You

Because of you
my world is now whole,
Because of you
love lives in my soul.
Because of you
I have laughter in my eyes,
Because of you
I am no longer afraid of good-byes.
You are my pillar
my stone of strength,
With me through all seasons
and great times of length.
My love for you is pure
boundless through space and time,
it grows stronger everyday
with the knowledge that you'll always be mine.
At the altar
I will joyously say 'I do',
for I have it all now
and it's all because of you."

- Written and owned by Amy S. Bedford

Okay, I'll stop now. :) Bub bye!! ;)

Heya!! I'm in a much, much better mood today, so you need not be scared. ;) Anyway, I forgot my quote yesterday. Sorry. Well, here's today's:

"The fellow who does things that count, doesn't usually stop to count them." -Anon

Well, I found out I suck at multitasking. I'm trying to finish my notecards, go online and do the normal crap, watch the Andy Kaufman True Hollywood Story, and actually remember what the hell I'm doing. Well, I keep getting confused, or just stopping what I'm doing altogether. It's really the notecards and the online bit that's really screwing me up. Like, I keep forgetting what I need to finish online for Mary Kay, or whatever I need to do. I guess I should stop something and just deal with it. Heh. That would make sense, right? Well, of course I'd be too stupid to hink of something that actually makes sense! Yeah, not using too many brain cells here. Or maybe I am using too many, and that's why I'm being stupid. Okay, enough of that.

Wow, I think I need to get better deodorant. Not that you really need to know that, but I just bought a new brand last week, and I guess I sweat too much for this brand. Oh well. Holy crap. I just read what I wrote yesterday. Hehe. I really think I should apologize for that. I must've really sounded like a bitch. Well, it's not like I deny being a bitch, I just try to control it a bit better. :) So, sorry.

Hmmm...oh yeah! The meeting last night was a guest event, and it was really fun! The lady was really nice, and almost every guest won a prize. Of course, they screwed up while doing the drawing, because for every question a guest asked, they got a ticket, and got a 2nd chance to win a prize. Well, there were a few who won 2 things, and some didn't even win something. So, I thought that was unfair. Oh well. Anyway, it would've been cooler if I had a guest, but no one has time to go with me. :( It's ok though. I wouldn't have known what the hell was going on, so if I brought a guest, I woulda been just as lost as them.

Well, I guess I'll go now. Have a happy day!! Bub bye!! ;)

I'm gonna be bitching today, so if you don't even want to hear it, I would suggest you leave now.

I am soooo frustrated right now. The fucking Mary Kay website is not working right and I spent 30 minutes on it, trying to order freakin body wash. And now, for some dumbass reason, Chuck has left me to babysit the kids while he takes a nap. He was sleeping all afternoon on the couch until he decided to get the kids early, then he left Chuckie downstairs and took Bree with him upstairs. Now, about 45 minutes early, he brought Bree downstairs and left them to me. He was just bragging to Betty that he doesn't have any problems with the kids in the afternoon; that when he watches them, they're good and everything. Well gee, I wonder why? Because he leaves them with me most of the time, the bastard. I am so fucking pissed right now. I was trying to get shit done and I have to fucking deal with these damn kids who I'm about ready to beat their asses, and I don't know how much longer I'm going to go without flippin out. I am so sick of this shit. I really am. And I bet my family won't be home from work in time and I won't make it to the unit meeting tonight. They do end up being late on the nights that I really look forward to getting out of this place. I'm just sick of it all. I don't know what else to write about today. I had a good weekend, though. I guess this shit is supposed to make up for the good weekend. I dunno.

I really don't know what else to say about my life at the moment. I think I'll have to take a break and come back to write about the weekend. I'll write later. Bub bye!