GOAL #1: Talk to someone who goes to a relatively "cheap" hairdresser and question the hairdresser's techniques and whatnot, and find out if it'd be worht it to go there, to avoid cutting my hair myself.

GOAL #2: Stop washing my hair every day, since it is bad for it.

GOAL #3: Sit up straighter, since it's bad to slouch (got this new obsession from Pilates last week :o))

GOAL #4: Learn to not be such a wuss about things.

GOAL #5: Stop freaking out about my hair (sorry!).

GOAL #6: Learn to remember important things better!

GOAL #7: Kill whoever thought up AOL, and whoever it is that keeps signing on and kicking me off! (happened 3 times in the past 10 minutes, including in the middle of a post that I had not saved!)

GOAL #8: Stop going online when I am bored, since I just end up getting even more bored (and pissed, at times)!

GOAL #9:Stop writing these stupid goals, which was supposed to be a quick list of a few short term things that needed to be "aired-out" before actually doing them (and so maybe I could remember them), but ended up being a long list of some of my shortcomings that I don't like and want to fix.

I guess this is what spending an entire afternoon of reading magazines does to me; it inspires me to do things to better myself, but then I get so overcome (*gotta write this joke I just remembered that Josh told me quite a while ago) by everything I read, I gotta write something down. Even though it was just a little bit of info that I made a mental list of, I was really stressing just then for some reason. That and the fact that I can't go anywhere is getting me feeling very cabin-feverish. (Betty has the car for today) Not that I really had anywhere to go, but the freedom of driving has gotten me used to being able to leave whenever, and it's kinda stifling and claustrophobic when you can't go anywhere. At least, that's how I feel.

My chest is very tight right now, much like I feel in a crowded elevator at work, or on a bus, or something like that. Let's hope I don't get a panic attack from something as stupid as this. I've gotten one before, and it was no fun (understatement of the year right there). It was in the middle of the night, so it was a very hard night to get to sleep.

I think if I stop writing about it, I should calm down, and not be so stressed about it. I'm gonna be picked up soon, anyway, so I'll be okay. In fact, it's geting better as we speak. Or as I speak, I should say. Whatever.

I've run out of thoughts for the moment, so I should go now, before another one comes along to make this babble even longer. (Just copied the whole post, so I shouldn't have to re-write part of it again)

Have a happy (and not stressed, like moi) day!!

Another middle of the week happy day! I know that sounded kinda weird, but...eh.
I just noticed I forgot to put a necklace on today. I'm surprised I didn't notice it before. Usually I feel naked without a piece of jewelry (that I normally wear) on.

I'm very worried about my hair. Vain as this may sound, I'm truly worried. I haven't had it cut for a whole year, and I was examining it (I happen to have it in a braid to the side, so it was really easy to look at the ends), and I noticed at least 70% of the ends are split. That really gets me freaked, and kinda motivated to get a haircut. I wish it was shorter, just for the reason so I could cut it myself, but alas, it's too long, and I don't wanna screw it up. Believe me, I've done it before. :)

I tried finding my sis's specific Avon website to put the link on here, but I couldn't. So, to compromise, I put the Avon homepage link, and hopefully I will find out what it is when I see her next.

Don't you hate it when you have a lot to say, but when it comes down to writing it down, or talking about it, you realize how stupid and trivial it really is? I was gonna write about the fact that I saw a house today with 2 racing flags on the front, but I realized how dumb what I was gonna write with it sounds, so I'll spare you from that (although, I don't think you really enjoyed that little schpeel, either ;o) )

Crap, now I don't even remember what else it was I was gonna write. Ah damn. Just another of my memory lapses. Wel, if it was really that important, I'll remember it later, and I'll post. If not, no loss. Well, on to the quote.

"Tubas are for fat guys with pimples."

- Terrence Dashon Howard as Louis Russ in "Mr. Holland's Opus".

Well, have a stupendous day!!! Bub bye!!! :)

Ah, I still have friends! Yay for me!! To explain, I am talking to a friend from 12 grade (I knew her before, but had never really gotten to know her until last year), and one of my old friends, whom I haven't talked to for years. I'm so happy! :) Not to mention, I weighed myself again this morning, and am down to my original goal weight, 135 lbs!!!! So, yeah, I'm a pretty happy girl right now. (Remember, this is subject to change throughout the day, just like every other day of my life) :D

I have no other news, really. The only thing that's on my mind is calling a few ppl, and this damned bra I'm wearing. Okay, must explain that one. On Crystal's blog, she pondered the suckiness of having big boobs. I must agree. They may be fun for certain activities (I'll leave it to you to figure out what that is ;o)), but when wearing a tank top that has very skinny straps, or even a strapless shirt, you just have problems if you've got big boobs. I know I'm not as well endowed as some, but I hate these types of shirts. I happen to be wearing one of those said shirts today, and I have a strapless bra on, and it does not give any support whatsoever. I might as well have gone bra-less! And, I can't do that. At least, not where anyone wouldn't notice I'm not wearing a bra.

And, while we're on this subject, I said before I lost weight, right? I have lost a few inches everywhere, and that includes my bust. Well, I just measured myself today, and I think I now need a new size bra. Well, according to what a few websites have said, I would now be a 36DD. I know that can't be right. Maybe I'm not following the directions right, which is just damn sad, since I've been doing this for quite a few years. Okay, here's the webpage Frederick's of Hollywood. Now tell me if, by their instructions, if the size you've been wearing matches up with what theirs does. Cause I'm really confused by this. All of my clothes fit differently, so I can't go by what I have now so much if I need to buy new clothing, which I intend to do soon.

Well, I'm done my complaining/pondering for the day. Here's the quote:

"Welcome to my submarine lair! It's long, hard and full
of seamen."

- Mike Myers as Dr. Evil in "Austin Powers in Goldmember".

Well there ya go! Have a great day!! Bub bye!! :)

Sorry about the nudity below, but I wanted to post my quiz results and you'll just have to deal with it if you don't like it! :P

:) I had a good weekend. Saturday wasn't the greatest, but it was interesting to say the least. The party was boring, and the food was not that bad, but it was such a looooonngg way to get there, I don't even think it was worth it to get all dressed up and spend the night there. Even though Josh did look very nice in his outfit. :) I forgot my camera, though, so I didn't get a pic. :( Oh well. I'm determined to, so I WILL get a pic of him dressed up eventually. Even if it takes a few years, it'll be worth it. ;) So there.

So, Sunday me and Josh went to Matt's, which didn't suck, but it wasn't really all that fun either. Not for me anyway. They were "tinkering" with Matt's El Camino, trying to adjust something in the transmission right. I can't remember what exactly it was, but he'd been having probs with how long the gears would take to shift. Eh anyway, the afternoon after that was better. I won't go into specifics. ;) But it was just a nice night with my sweetie. :) So that put me into a good mood for today.

I took a walk this morning, which was also nice, since, for weather reasons, I hadn't taken one for a week. So I was quite deprived of sunlight last week, and that also means that I hadn't been doing a lot of exercise to make up for it. Well, I can't say that it was just being lazy; I had my monthly thing, and I was very busy, so I only got to squeeze 2-3 days of exercise, rather than 5-7 days. I did do my yoga on Saturday and Sunday, so I'm quite proud of myself. Yay for me!!! :D

I also got a phone call from Kim. Yes, the Kim that had 2 kids and married Colt. I missed the call, and she didn't leave a number on the message, so I'm a bit bummed. I was there when she called, I just didn't realize someone had called, and therefore didn't run out to the phone to answer it, and my dad just left it go. He said he didn't hear who it was, so I guess he was just being kinda lazy and decided to let someone else take care of it. I dunno.

Damn, I just realized I gotta leave soon. I've been online waaaaaayyyy too long this afternoon. I can tell when I get a fulltime job, I'll be going through "internet withdrawal," since I won't be here everyday to do this kind of stuff. Urgh. Oh well. Gotta trade one thing for another, I guess.

I hate having bad memory. I was thinking about something earlier, and I vowed to write it down, but I didn't, and here we are, already having forgot what the hell it was. Shit. This happens way too much. I wonder if they have medication for forgetfullness. Don't suppose they do, otherwise my mom woulda been takin it years ago, along with the millions of pills she's gotta take every day. I guess forgetfullness is just what happens when you get old. Eeek!! Bad news for me. I've already started the process! Oh well. It's gonna happen eventually anyway, why not start early?

Anyway (I've been cutting that word out more and more; can ya tell?), here's the quote for the day:

"Some of the public figures besides Saddam Hussein who have
hired look-alikes include Britney Spears, Eminem, Shakira,
Russell Crowe and even Michael Jackson. Hearing about this
kind of stuff makes me wonder: Who the hell would want to be
someone else's double? If someone has threatened the life of
Michael Jackson, would you want to be the one to attract the
assassin's rifle? I know I wouldn't.

If that isn't scary enough, imagine if Anna Nicole Smith wanted
a body double... she'd probably have to employ a retired NFL
lineman for that job." -Squirrly in my Film Quotes email newsletter

Alrighty, have a happy day!!! Bub bye!! :)

Heh, I just reread those quiz results, and I realized how true it is. Oooooooooh Moulin Rouge is on Cinemax now!!! I've never seen the movie, so I get to finally see it! Yay!!! :D Well, I went to get my paycheck this morning, but I didn't get to deposit it since Boyertown was very hard to get through, and I ran out of time, so I had to go back. So that sucked. I have to go somewhere later today, so I'm hoping Chuck will get home soon, so I can borrow the car.

Tomorrow is Josh's Uncle Ed's birthday party, and it's at a fancy restaurant (dunno where), and Josh really doesn't wanna go, but his mom's making him go. :) Hehe, I am very glad, because I get to dress up for the day. So, I'm quite excited about that, and can't wait until tomorrow. :)

Oh, my sister is pissing me off even more today than she was a few days ago. Grr....well, today it was because of laundry again. She left stuff in both the washer and dryer overnight, and then I couldn't do my laundry. (I refuse to move it, for the fact she'll bite my head off no matter how much I follow her directions about where to put it, and I shouldn't have to clean up her mess like that anyway; it's her fuckin responsibility, dammit!) I still haven't really done it for the week, and I'm getting really upset about that. I have no socks left after tomorrow, so if she does the same thing tomorrow morning, she's getting a rude awakening tomorrow morning.

Anyway, I must go watch my movie. :) I hope everyone has a stupendous weekend, and here's your quote for the day:

"Every great person is always being helped by everybody; for
their gift is to get good out of all things and all persons."
--John Ruskin English writer (1819-1900)

Okay, that's that!. Bub bye!! :)

Here ya go!

You are a SUBTLE Flirt!

This is the female equivalent of "the strong and silent type."
Or, the whole "still waters run deep" thing.
And that makes you dangerous. Oh, yes…dangerous.
You lull men (and competitive women) into a false sense of security.
By appearing nonthreatening, quiet and unassuming, you can strike at the right moment, when no one's expecting it.
It's a method that’s tried and true over the ages and it works wonders for you.
So go on, with your sneaky self, Ms. Covert Ops.

What Kind of Flirt Are *You*?
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Heya! I went for the interview thingy today! I think I did well, except that I was a few minutes late (bad), and that when I was describing exactly what I did at work, my face got really red (which is also bad). But you know me; no matter how polite I am to everyone and how much I try to fake my shyness, it also comes back and bites me in the ass when I really need it not to. Anyway, that Chris guy turned out to be really nice. He says he's been working there for 7 years, so he must be in his mid-to-late twenties. I wouldn't say he was any older. But, yeah, I thought I did really well, and I think he liked me quite a lot, so hopefully I'll make it to the second interview, and then get hired. :) I hope!! I think it's soooo nice there, and the benefits sound great, and the vacation time accumulated is great, and the hours are 8-4:30, which is wonderful for me, so I wouldn't have to get up quite as early in the morning, and it's only a Monday through Friday job. So, that means, if I'd ever quit the Geriatric Center, then I'd have a normal job schedule!!!!!!! Yay!! I hate the schedule at the Geriatric Center. Mainly it's because you gotta work the weekends. Anyway, all of the details of the benefits and stuff is on the website.

This one blog has a really funny list on her lastest post from Seinfeld. Just thought I'd put that in there.

Well, other than the fact I see my sweetie tonight, I really don't have anything else to talk about. I'm also very happy my best buddy is comin home!! Yay for Crystal!!

Anyway here's the quote for ya:

"As far as we can discern, the sole purpose of human
existence is to kindle a light in the darkness of mere
being."
--Carl Jung, psychoanalyst

Well, have a happy day!! Bub bye!! :D

Yay for hump day!!! :)

Well, the smoothie from last night was very good. Mmmmmm...now I want another one. :( The membership fee is a bit steep for me right now, otherwise I would definately join that gym and do Pilates and Yoga, and strength train and cardio; basically everything I do now, just at a set time, so when I get a job, then I will make sure I actually make time for exercise. That's one thing I'm afraid of forgetting to do after getting a job. I remember hwo hard it was for me to remember or make time for exercise during high school, and I didn't even really do anything at night that would make me too busy for it. Eh, I'm sure now that I've seen a few results from my determination, that I'll be able to keep it up (let's all hope for the best here). :)

Anyway, that Chris guy from Meadowood finally called me back today. I'm going to fill out an application and do an interview tomorrow at around 9. SO that means I gotta get up an hour early, since I don't know how long it'll take to get there. Bleh...that sucks, but hopefully it'll be worth it, unlike that daycare job I applied for. Those bastards. Grrr.... Anyway, Amanda has to work today, so she's gonna call back sometime later this week or early next week and tell me what her schedule is, so maybe we can get together then. Shit I gotta call Jen. I almost forgot. I know that she has (get this) four, yes, four (!!!!!!) jobs, so I am trying at different times each day to call her on her cell. It was hard to get ahold of her when she had one job, but now, I dunno if I'll ever talk to her again! But seriously, she called me back twice last week, and I felt bad, since I (not knowing she called) never called her back. So, anyway, gotta do that before I forget.

Oh yeah, my sis got her Avon order today! I ordered a few things (no, not makeup!! :P) like an inflateable foot bath, which is great, cuz I barely have any space for myself in my room. I'm being good, and not nosing through the boxes to find my stuff. Actually, the boxes are still outside. Heh, maybe I should get them. It's cold out, though. :( I hate cold. Crystal, can I move in with you for next year?? :) Just kidding. Couldn't leave my Joshie, even if we were in Alaska or someplace like that. John Mayer's song, "Your Body is a Wonderland" is on the radio, and it made me think of Josh. ;) Anyway, back to the Avon. I also got some body lotion, which I shouldn't have bought, since I sell that kind of stuff, but no one can stop me from buying perfumes. I know I already have too many, but I keep a little record of how often I wear them, so everything gets worn often. Just like my clothes, I'm very organized with wearing things at least every once in a while. If I don't it's usually because I really hate it, but can't throw it away, which I'm getting better at. I even stack my underwear, and, after washing them, put the clean ones on the bottom of the pile. :) I'm sure you really needed to know that. Sorry, just proving my point about how organized I am about these things. Now that I think about it, whenever I wash dishes and put them, away, I always put the clean ones on the bottom of the pile or in the back of the cabinet. Am I weird to be doing this? Do you think I'm obsessive? Please do tell me, just because I'm curious what others think, not that I'll actually change. :)

Anywho (had to stop saying anyway, which I just did...eh fuck it), my radio in my room nearly died today. I nearly had a heart attack. My tv has already took a dump, and if my radio does too, then I have nothing to keep me entertained, but books, and my thinking. I don't think it would be a good idea to just entertain myslef like that. I think I'd go nuts. If you don't think I already did. Which is a very good possibility. :)

Back to my radio. I jiggled the cord a bit, I tried the remote, put new batteries in the remote, put the plug in a different outlet that I knew worked, everything I could think of, but it wouldn't work for a whole 5 minutes. I was cursing like a sailor at this point, minutes from throwing it out the window, but I plugged it back in the last time and it just started working right then. Don't know how or why, but I was very happy then, even though I had to reset all of my presets. Now, the presets are a little different and I can tell this is gonna screw me up whenever I listen to the radio. I'm gonna go to press 6 for 96.5 or something and get something else. Oh well. At least my radio's still alive and kicking. :)

Okay, yes I shall go now. The imood said I was bubbly, and if you didn't believe it then, I'm sure you believe it now. :)

"It can go suck something awful." -Crystal, talking about the mood she was in yesterday

Ah, I love you Crystal. I thought that was great. Just had to quote ya. Alrighty, have a wonderful day!!!!!!!! :D

Heya! I am really happy! I actually have plans for tonight!! Yay!!!!! :D I am going to a free seminar at Final Results Fitness on Pilates. I preregistered, so I get a free smoothie, too! ;) No, that's not the main reason I'm going, but I think it's an additional reason to go.

Anyway, I found out that my parents had brought back some of my sis's dinner from Sunday, so I did get to have some Easter dinner. Which was lucky, since Josh's grandmom decided she was gonna eat the dinner reserved for me herself. Josh said he was gonna bring it over, since he was thinking about it at work (that I forgot it on Sunday), but he came home to his grandmom eating it. Then she asked him "Why didn't Melissa eat her food?" (or something to that extent) and Josh explained it to her, but he was pissed off by then and couldn't stand watching her feed part of it to the cat, and then, with her usual look of disgust for anything she ever makes or eats, "I can't eat all this." So, he wasn't very happy with her. To tell you the truth, neither am I, but it's only food, and I refuse to make a big deal about it. So there. That's what became of my Easter dinner.

Besides that, we had a great convo on the phone last night. Usually talking to Josh on the phone consists of me talking and him sorta listening to me talk, and sometimes he'll answer a question or talk about something at work, and a lot of pauses and doing other things besides talking on the phone. It also never really lasts too long, but last night was at least an hour long convo before we ran out of stuff to say. ) So, I was happy last night.

Other than that, nothing fun happened last night. The only other thing I can think of that happened was that me and Tina had a little issue over the washer and dryer, but that's almost a weekly occurance. Basically, I want to do my laundry at night, in one night and get it over with, and she decides to wait until the last minute of the afternoon to start doing her laundry and is doing laundry almost every night of the week. She's home all week this week and was home all day yesterday and could not manage to get her lazy ass around to putting clothes in the washer until the time I get home. And she bitches when I do that. Talk about a double standard. And, when she works, she doesn't get around to getting clothes in the washer until 2-3 hours after we all get home, and when I beat her to it and she gets pissed, I can't say anything otherwise she blames it on everything but the real reason for the delay, or she just basically assumes the position of "I'm older than you/ I know more than you/I'm never wrong/I can control you" kinda thing, or both. I think she has a major control issue. I could go on and on about this, but I won't bore you anymore about that. But obviously, I have a big problem with my sister, and not just because she's my sister; it's mainly because our personalities rub each other the wrong way, I guess. And all this bitching about her over laundry. That's when you know you have issues with that person.

Alrighty, I will post a quote here quick, and then I will be off.

"If toilet paper was replaced by sandpaper, I would sit in the sink and let the water wipe my ass." -Shotwell

Don't really know who the guy is, but it gives me a really gross image. I got it off of some person's blog called Stupid Quotes. I have it linked on the side there, too.
Okie dokie, time to go. Have a happy day!!!! Bub bye!! :)

Wow, this is really deep, and I'm still trying to figure it all out. It's kinda like numerology and that Myers-Briggs test (I think it's called).

Conscious self	Overall self

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'Ello! Ah, what a weekend! It wasn't exactly good or bad, but kinda a mix of both at once. I don't know how to explain that one, but you'll just have to bear with me here. I had to work, therefore I was actually in the company of a lot of human beings at once, which wasn't too bad, since I don't have to put up with it every day. Anyway, nothing interesting at work on Saturday really happened. Even the night wasn't all that interesting...although I did get moody and pms'y, but that's a normal monthly thing for me. It was really bad though. Crying was involved, and that's quite bad when it gets to that point. But, eh, nothin to do about it now. Can't change the past. Anyway, yesterday was pretty fun at work. I was still depressed from the night before (as well as waking the puffiest eyes I think I've ever had), but it turned out to be pretty good. Got in trouble with one of my supervisors, though. There's only one there on the weekends, and it just so happens that this holiday weekend we get stuck with the strictest one...but it was my bad...Well, no only me, but Jeanette and Carol too. Probably, if Jodi had been there too, she woulda been in it too. Well, all it was that we did wrong was not keep track of time and were about 5 minutes past our break when she* caught us sitting there. (*supervisor) Well, we were outside, so she yelled out the door to get back to work; that we were way late. So, we all look at our watches and mine's a bit slow, and mine said 2:00 (pm), but Jeanette's is right and her's said 2:05. So, we go back and think nothing of it, but then back in the storeroom, Donna (who should not be talking about anybody getting back to work late; they've already caught her sleeping watching soap operas cause "she was done") said that the supervisor made the comment that she was gonna write us up. Which is bad. Very bad. I'm not too worried though, since I finished everything that had to be done, and even did extra work, so she can kiss my ass for all I care. That was the worst of the day though.

Then I went home in the crappy car, that has terminal transmission problems, so that was, shall we say, interesting? Then, I let the car cool off, made myself a sandwich, or, rather, tried to make a sandwich. Found ot we don't have any jelly, so I had to stop by Betty's to make a fucking sandwich. Then I headed over to the Green Lane Park and took a nice long walk. Although, I made it to a road, and I couldn't find it on the map, so I just decided to turn around rather than go completely around, which was what I wanted to do. Anyway, I got home and read for a bit and Josh called, so I went to his house. That was fun.

No, I did not have any Easter dinner, and no, I did not have any candy either. I was invited to 2 dinners, but I had to work til 3, so I woulda been late to both, and I also didn't have a copy of the directions to my sister's place (which I so kindly asked for a few days before), and Josh made it seem like I shouldn't go to Sharon's because "if you're not going to be there to eat..." But I won't go into that. He did make me a plate of the dinner and brought it back to his house, and I was going to take it home with me since I wasn't hungry at the time, but I forgot it. :( So, my Easter was really sucky, even though I did say I had a good time. It just didn't feel right.

I should explain why I was so upset though. At least a little, so you understand. Like I said, Josh made going to Sharon's a bad idea, don't really know the reason fully, but then there was Bonnie's (my sis) dinner that I wouldn't have felt right going to late. I just plain felt left out. I guess that is one of the things I should be used to...my family has always done this to me, and in school...and now even Josh...I guess I just don't fit in wherever I go and should not expect to feel like I ever do.

Well, I really gotta go now. I have to drop the car off for Betty. So, I will post a quote tomorrow (don't have one today...sowwy). Tak to ya tomorrow! Bub bye!! :)

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Hey all! Didn't get time to post yesterday. Sorry. Anyway, I don't think this is supposed to be a good day for me. Chuck had to (what he calls) "crash" the computer, which is really reformatting the hard drive, but he's not as computer literate as he likes to think of himself as if that's the term he uses. Anyway, he had to reinstall everything and he only put in AOL 7.0, which isn't all that horrible, but I don't have my favorites right now, so everything feels wrong. He said he's upgrading back to 8.0 tonight, so everything should be A-OK by Monday, but it sucks right now. He saved all of the favorites on floppy disks, or something to that effect. He had to do this whole thing with the help of computer techs at the emachines service center, and I wasn't here for most of it, but he didn't realize that the favorites and any other AOL file from 8.0 would have to be saved into AOL 8.0. He thought he could put them back in on this 7.0 shit. I'm sitting there thinking, 'Okay, why do you even have to ask some computer tech about this? Even I already know you can't do that!' But he said since it takes hours to upgrade to 8.0, he'll do that tonight and tomorrow will put everything back. If he screws this up, tho, I will be very pissed. I don't think he has a clue as to what he's doing, and I could probably figure it out myself, and that's why it's so frustrating for me to just sit back and watch someone else do it. Grrrr....I get so annoyed about stuff like this. Eh, if he screws it up, I'll just have to start from scratch here. I'm only even worrying about it since I had a bunch of blogs and such saved. I also had a lot of stuff to do with my blog saved and I don't remember the websites exactly. Oh well, I can't worry about it right now. Gotta wait and see what happens.

I talked to Amanda on Wednesday night and we're goin somewhere next Wednesday, on her day off. So, I'm very happy about that. I also told her I might apply at Turkey Hill. Maybe. I don't think I could do that kind of job. Not to sound snobby about that, but I just don't really think I could deal with the customers like that. Also, I've never worked a cash register before, and I'm quite sure it's very easy, but I don't like the image of myself at a cash register. Heh, guess I'm too "good" for that. ;) Just kidding. Just not a job I'd prefer doing.

Yeah, that reminds me, tried calling Chris from Meadowood quite a bit yesterday and today, and didn't get an answer or anything. Pisses me off. I'll try on Monday, but I'm not lookin forward to anything.

Let's see...what else happened in the past few days...well, I just did my nails again today. I did a french manicure with 2 new Mary Kay nail polishes. They were Barely There, which is the peach color, and Cloud Nine, which is the pearly white/silver color. It looks good! My nails are, for the most part, long enough and not as brittle and peeling as they were form my "nail silk wrap" experience, so they actually look good. And I did the tip differently than I usually do it. And it worked better than my old way of doing it, so I'm gonna do it that way from now on.

I just realized, absolutely no one except me is online. Well, Nathan just got on, but for everyone else, it's weird that no one else is on. Maybe everyone's just avoiding me. :) I hope not. Anyway, I lost all of the quotes I had listed to put on here, so I gotta type them up again. That's gonna take awhile. I do have one quote already from an email, so I'll just put that one down here.

Edward W. Howe said, "If you don't learn to laugh at
troubles, you won't have anything to laugh at when you
grow old"

Anyway, have a better day than I did. Bub bye!! :)

I decided that not having a job causes you to find more useless things to do with your time that you begin to love and cherish, and then, when you actually get a job (heh good ness knows when that'll be), you don't wanna give up those things, and then you wear yourself out trying to do all of them. No, I don't have a job yet, but I noticed that I am reading random people's blogs regularly, and that I know I won't be able to stop doing when I get a job and I don't think I'll really have much time to do the daily things I do now....I guess I'm just having a freaking out moment. I just don't wanna give up all the things I love now, and I know I will have to give up a few of them and I don't wanna do them. :( Guess I don't have to think about that at the moment, but if I get a full-time job, at least I'll be getting paid! :D I guess that would be good compensation for missing out on a few things. Eh, I dunno why I just had this moment, I just started thinking about it and got a little panicky.

Alright, I feel better now that that's out. Okay, I'll go now, again. Bub bye!!! :)

Well, I have tried calling Chris from Meadowood at least ten times and nothing. No one picked up and I don't think he's working now. If I actually knew one way or the other, whether he was calling about an interview or if he was just calling to say they weren't considering me for the job, that'd be great. But I dunno why he was calling, and I haven't been able to get ahold of him. Grrr...one of those things that make you hate the telephone.

Eh, anyway, I returned my library book last night. I didn't get another one, since I've got so many books at home that I need to read. Now, I've started reading The Stand by Stephen King. It's over 1000 pages long, so it'll take me a bit to finish it. I also got my roll of film developed, and almost all the pics were of me and Josh. Heh big surprise. I had forgotten what was on it, but then I remembered taking the ones of Josh washing his car.

Anyway, I took a nice long walk this morning. I went down past the farm today. It was really enjoyable. When I go the other way, it's always so dull, and "dead," but going past the farm, it seems so alive, and things are moving. I love it. It helps me wake up. :)

Let's see, what else....hmmm...I can't think of anything else new. Oh, I watched My Big Fat Greek Wedding on tv this afternoon. It was okay. I like those kinds of movies, but I didn't get to see the very end of it. Now I'm watching The Easter Bunny is Coming to Town. What fun. :) Umm...I don't know what else to write about. What a life. :)

Alrighty, here's your quote today:

"Only a person who has felt
ultimate despair is capable
of feeling ultimate bliss."

~~ Alexandre Dumas ~~
("The Count of Monte Cristo," 1844)

Well, there ya are! Have a happy day!!! Bub bye! ;)

My Bloginality is INFP!!!

This is soooo me. I couldn't even describe me better!

My God. I saw a hitch-hiker for the first time today in such a local area. I was driving on Rt.663 and he was on my side of the road. When I went past again, he wasn't there, so someone must've picked him up. I also got a horn honked at me. The asshole who was riding my ass the entire time on 663 got pissed because I didn't just floor it and turn left before the people in the left lane got to that point. Sorry, don't trust any car that much, unless, of course, I'm in a major rush. ;) Anyway, if you're wondering, after I finished here (I put a few more links to the left there), I wanted to get my film developed, and I had to make copies. Well, Chuck didn't get home til about 4, and I was busy with stuff, so I didn't leave til about 4:45, so I wasn't even gonna try to run to Covetry Square at this time. So, I ran home to grab my roll of film, and stop at the CVS on the corner, and guess who I saw? Jen Collins! I never was really close friends with her, but now I know she works there. She was the "film developing chick" for the day. So, I thought that was something interesting I'd share with ya all. Anyway, gonna go now. Bub bye!! :)

I'm glad a few people posted a message! (I love you too, Crystal!!) That makes me very happy. I have to say that I'm not as talkative today as I was yesterday. I love the weather we're having! It's in the 70's and it's so great!! It's also supposed to be like this tomorrow, so that's great too! I can show off my pale white skin! :) I haven't tried sunless tanner in a few years, but I think I will this year. Surprise, surprise, guess what brand I'm gonna buy? Mary Kay, of course. Karen told me that she had used it before and it was the only kind she had ever tried that went on so evenly and had a nice natural looking tan. Now, no offense to her, but I don't think that's been recently, but I will try it out and let you know what my results are. (Hopefully, I won't be too much of a spazz and screw it up) Ah well.

I finished the book last night. I love that book! I know I've already said it, but it's the truth. I've also started writing in my old journal, and I'm actually having fun with it (God, that sounds so sad!). That reminds me, I called that Chris guy from Meadowood back twice, and I haven't heard back from him. Bastard. Probably just doesn't think I'm home, like most of my friends tend to think when they gotta leave a message on the machine. I had called from my sis's palce and gave the number, but the phone rang once, and I couldn't get to it before the machine picked up. So that really sucked. Guess I gotta make another phone call tomorrow. Eh, it won't kill me to do so. Anyway, I must go, I've run out of semi-interesting things to write, and I'm quite sure you don't wanna hear the non-interesting things that I've gotta say, especially after yesterday. :)

"If you follow your bliss,
you put yourself on a kind
of track, which has been
there all the while waiting
for you, and the life that
you ought to be living is
the one you are living."
~~ Joseph Campbell ~~

Okie dokie. Have a happy day!! Bub bye! ;)

Dumbest and most ignorant website I've ever wasted my time reading

Ooooooohh, I'm havin fun!! Let me know if you like the "itty bitty" changes I made.

I just read that more people voted on my blog. It went from 3 people to 7!! I was very surprised. Someone said they hated it though. That's not very reassuring. Oh well. Whoever it was apparently doesn't have good taste. :)Hehe just kiddin. Everyone's entitled to their own opinion. Well, I'm really done now. I've just been full of stuff to say today, haven't I? Well, knowing me, I won't have much to say tomorrow, so it won't be as long as this. K byee!! ;)

I don't wanna sound like I'm whining, but I really wish more of my friends would make more blogs. Or any kind of web page for that matter. I don't like having people's blogs I don't know linked on here, but I hate to see that space over there empty, so I put these interesting blogs on there, but I don't even know the people. And they all seem to have a million and one friends who indulge in the blogging experience. Damn, I wish I had more friends. :) I know, I know, "Get over it, Melissa!!" It's hard to, though. I really like doing this, and I do want more people to see my blog, and I want to have this cool network of friends online to link to their webpages and just make this fun. But it's not workin out that way. I love the fact that Crystal has a blog. It gives me something to read every day, other than email. :) Eh, well, enough of my whining. I'm sorry I had to put you through another session of bitching about something, but oh well. Gotta get it out, otherwise, I will explode. Anyway, thanx for the venting session.

Am very exhausted from online "window-shopping." Need to get more money to afford everything I want. Don't think it's gonna happen.

Sorry, I got a little "Bridget Jones" there. That's how the author wrote Bridget's entries into her diary (which is the book). Like I said, I'm very tired now. I like the stuff they have, but it's frustrating when you know that you can't afford to go spend money on something you know would help you immensly in what you need to do. I hate little issues that I end up having like this. I want to buy some of this stuff, but I do have to save some money. I'm okay with that in my personal expenses, but Mary Kay is a different story. Eh, I just need to get another job, I guess. Then I won't have this stupid little issue. Heh, problem solved. Well...not quite yet, but I'm very close.

Alrighty, done my little rambling. Bub bye!! :)

Heya! I'm on this diary fetish right now. It might have to do with reading the book, Bridget Jones's Diary. But that's okay, since I'm almost done the book. I got it from the library last Wednesday, and now I have about 20-30 pages left, if that. I absolutely looooooovvvee it!! I really like the style of enties the author put the scenarios in. Anyway, if you've never read it, I believe it's well worth it, even if you don't like books.

Ah, I tried my new Velocity lip glosses this weekend (here we go with the Mary Kay crap again, I can just picture you saying) :) I love them too! I think they're definately something to get, even if you only wear lip gloss every once in a blue moon. I think that anyone (should I say, any girl ?) would want to wear these lip glosses. They smell and taste good. I've just fallen in love. The eye Chill-Its are also really cool. I forgot that they actually were supposed to have a cooling effect on the eyelid, and when I put it on I thought I was going crazy (too late for that, I think), but that's what's supposed to happen. Oooohhh...I just love this stuff!!! :)

Oh yeah, I applied at Meadowood for a housekeeping job, and a guy named Chris called back today, but he didn't leave a message that would clue me into whether they wanted me for an interview or not. I didn't call back yet, but I will either later this afternoon, or tomorrow morning. I dunno yet. Oh yes, I'm not going to my unit meeting tonight. Bad girl, I know. I should go, but it's a guest event kinda thing, and I really didn't invite anyone (again, bad girl), so I don't really wanna go. So, that's quite a dilemma there. The next month's meetings are going to be guest events, so I dunno what I'm gonna do about that.

So what happened this weekend, you ask? Nothing much. I went to Josh's both days (big surprise), and we went to his mom's house for dinner. That's always fun. I love Karen (his mom)! She's such a kewl person, and I'm glad I didn't get stuck with a real bitchy "future-mother-in-law." Heh, that's what everyone at MCG&RC says that knows about that. Anyway, nothing worth noting really happened there, either. Josh fixed her dryer, we ate dinner, we ended up watching "I Love The 80's" (yet again for me; I never seem to be able to watch the episodes for 1980-82, or 1988-89; it's always the same ones), and after that we left. Not very interesting, is it? I had fun anyway. Let's see, Sunday I stopped by CVS to pick up a few necessities, and I also got this cuticle oil for myself. I love the stuff. It smells like sweet almond oil, and you can use it anywhere your skin is dry. I love that stuff too! Then I went to Josh's and he had just finished putting the mower deck on his tractor, which he had in pieces on the garage floor a week ago, and he mowed the front yard while I sat and watched him. And then Matt stopped by and we all headed over to Richard's place, and was there for probably an hour, and then we all headed back to Josh's house to try to figure out the exact thing that was causing his truck to have a "dead miss" (i.e. not running smoothly). He figured out it was the 6th cylinder's fuel injector that was not working properly, and now he needs to do major work to the truck. Very glad it's not raining this week; he's not too keen on driving his car in the rain. So, anyway, I went inside after that. I was tired of standing there. Hmm...I read magazines and finished a few things that needed to be done for Mary Kay, and then the rest of the night flew by. We ate, and then watched tv, and then I had to get home. But all in all, I was happy. I love being with him. :) Even if the stuff we do (or don't, rather) sucks.

So that was my weekend. Exciting life I lead, huh? ;) Eh, I hate when I come to this point. I feel like I have more to say, but I can't remember it. Damn, maybe I should make entries in my real diary again, and then mabe I'd remember the stuff I wanna write about. Seems a bit repetitive, though. Oh well. I might just do that. I find myself thinking about all kinds of stuff some mornings, and then can't remember anything by the time I get here. Oh well. I think I shall go look at the other business supply websites my sis emailed me. Well, here's the quote.

"The fat man walks alone." -Lucas, Empire Records

Hehe, if you've watched the movie, then you'll understand why this quote amuses me. ;) Anyway, have a happy day!!! Bub bye!!! :)

Bored...so bored right now....
I found this on some random girl's blog....enjoy...

DESCRIBE YOUR..
[x] Wallet – black, folds in 3 and is huge for all of my crap I carry in it...hehe no not money, I never have any of that :)

[x] Hairbrush – uhhhh...it's got a clear handle with little flowers in the handle

[x] Toothbrush –2 tone purple, curvy kinda, it's a colgate toothbrush

[x] Jewelry worn daily – must wear at least 3 things, otherwise I feel naked: necklace, one of my 5 watches on my left wrist, and at least another bracelet on my right wrist

[x] Pillow cover – right now, it's Charlie Brown and the gang

[x] Blanket – a whole bunch of misc. decorative blankets; the top one is scooby doo (no I don't try to match my bedclothes, at the moment anyway)

[x] Coffee cup – don't drink coffee, although I do have a lot of mugs with various things like butterflies and things on them

[x] Sunglasses – don't have any; I lost the ones I had, and I couldn't wear them anyway, since they weren't prescription

[x] Favorite shirt – damn, too many to list, although one I can think of right now is my maroon-ish color one with beading on the front from Delia's, which of course is dry-clean only (heh, I Dryel it whenver I wanna wear it)

[x] Cologne/Perfume – ooooooooohh, major subject for me :) ckone, Truth (Calvin Klein), Elige (Mary Kay), Imagine...Peace (Bath and Body Works), Avatar (men's cologne)...hmmm...can't remember anymore...time to move on...you really don't care, I'm sure

[x] CD in stereo right now – Angels; it's for my yoga routine

[x] Tattoos - none

[x] Piercings – nada

[x] What you are wearing now –plain black short sleeve shirt, with a long sleeve t-shirt over top with an astrology
design on the front :), and plain ol' jeans

[x] In my mouth –heh I could make some sort of sick comment, but I'll refrain :)

[x] In my head -not much apparently, since I can't think of anything to add here

[x] Wishing – I could not be so picky about a full time job and make everyone happy

[x] After this – see my hunny! :D

[x] Fetishes – candles, incense, astrology, Mary Kay, makeup in general, clothes, my Joshie, quizzes about
myself, books

[x] If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason? – no one

[x] Person you wish you could see right now – Betty, so I could not have to be baysitting and my hunny, which I will be soon :D

[x] Is next to you – big bird chair (my nephew's) and a cd rack

[x] Some of your favorite movies – Empire Records, Grease, Dirty Dancing, Breakfast Club,

[x] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month – Damn, nothing I can think of :(

[x] The last thing you ate – a few Doritos

[x] Something that you are deathly afraid of -- drowning

[x] Do you like candles – YESSSSS!! :)

[x] Do you like incense – Yup

[x] Do you like the taste of blood – what kind of a question is this? hahaha the fact that it's actually on here is funny, but to answer the question, no I don't

[x] Do you believe in love - yes

[x] Do you believe in soul mates - yes

[x] Do you believe in love at first sight -kinda yeah

[x] Do you believe in Heaven - no

[x] Do you believe in God - yes I suppose

[x] What do you want done with your body when you die – [Buried in pretty clothes] the girl's answer; sounds pretty good to me :)

[x] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - ferret

[x] What is the latest you've ever stayed up – i think it was 6 am

[x] Can you eat with chopsticks – I've tried...and failed

[x] What's your favorite coin – quarters, they add up the quickest, and I don't really feel like an ass using them when I pay for stuff

[x] What are some of your favorite candies – wow, I haven't really had any lately...ummm...I like the Starburst
jelly beans

[x] What's something that you wish people would understand – I'm just quiet sometimes dammit!! I don't have to
be jumping around and being stupid all the time to enjoy myself, although it is fun; I like watching other people (eh that last one sounds kinda creepy, if ya think about it)

[x] What's something you wish you could understand better -Why I'm so dramatic

[x] Who is someone that you really wish was still around – Not just one person, but all of my friends :( I miss
everyone horribly and I wish I could keep in touch with everyone

Well, that's it. I hoped you enjoyed yourselves reading this. Feel free to send me your responses; I enjoy finding things out abot my buds! Anyway, have a great night!!! :)

Hello! I'm very tired right now. Reading websites gets you that way sometimes, I guess. I spent the better part of my afternoon looking at this one website for direct sales representatives and consultants. It's called Paron Business Aids and it sells soo many postcards and all kinds of supplies for people who sell for things like Mary Kay or Avon. The website says it works in conjunction with these businesses, and they have certain things for whatever company you work for that would pertain to that company's objectives. I saw stuff that I'd been looking for in regular stores that I could use and I thought I was being smart and unique when I thought of them. I'm just really excited, since most of the stuff is really cheap, and there is such an assortment of stuff; I'm just ecstatic with this finding!! Like I said before, I'm easily amused. :) Anyway, nothing new has happened. I got Amanda's cell phone number, so I'm gonna try to get together with her next week or something. Oh yeah, some asshole pissed me off driving this morning. It's been raining all day, so when I went to the Geriatric Center for my check, I kept my speed down to the speed limit. Well, I was the first one in line at a light, and you know those asswipes that are turning right at that road, and they decide to pull up next to the people going straight, even tho there is no lane, and it's illegal? Well, one guy pulled up on my right, passing about 4-5 cars behind me, and as soon as the light turned green, the dumbass floors it, and passes me going straight through the light. I was sooooooooo mad. That's not just aggravating, it's dangerous, and it was one of those times where I was just wishing bad things on the person driving. Yeah, so that was one major moment that pissed me off. I didn't come close to crashing or anything, but it was just a moment of, 'What if...' that really made me upset about it.

Well, besides that, I think that was all that would interest anyone about my morning. I guess I shall go now. Have a happy day!! :)

"For one human being to love another: that is perhaps the most difficult of all our tasks; the ultimate, the last test and proof, the work for which all other work is but preparation." -Rainer Maria Rilke

Ahhhh...happiness... :) I recieved my order today, the order I was supposed to get on Monday...so I'm a happy camper. I had to bring the box with me to my sis's so I could go through it, so I have to take a trip home so I won't have to take it with me to Josh's house. He'll yell at me if I bring it. He says I already carry too much stuff with me, so he wouldn't be very happy about this stuff.

I'm also very happy that I see Josh tonight. I'm always happy to see him. :) Oh, and I went to the library last night. I returned the one book I was reading, and I got Bridget Jones' Diary. I read about 1/4 of it already. I actually wanna spend the rest of the day reading it. I still am sick, so I don't really feel like doing much else.

I can't read my go.com email. I know the website is supposed to have work done to it later today, but that's not supposed to be until 10 pm. So, I'm a bit upset, but I'm going to be patient. I am not going to flip out this time when I have email problems. I also find myself watching the tv more than half the time I've been online lately anyway. That's probably why I seem to be spending so long online; just because everything is taking longer to do since something is taking my focus away from what I need to be doing. Eh, not a big deal.

Well, I shall finish this and post my quote now. I have nothing else left to say.

"Doubt that the stars are fire.
Doubt that the sun doth move.
Doubt truth to be a liar.
But never doubt I love."
-William Shakespeare

Well, there ya go! Have a happy day!! Bub bye!!! :)

Hey!! Sorry I didn't write yesterday. I was sick and depressed and bored. I basically had a pretty sucky day. Even though Josh stopped by, I still wasn't able to get out of my "funk." I was happy to see him, but even Josh didn't really cheer me up. Must be the snow. :) I have never been itching to go for a walk as much as I have in the past 3 days. It's too cold out to go for a walk though. Maybe tomorrow. :) I'll have to be optimistic.

Anyway, I noticed my niece has her two front bottom teeth now! She looks soooooo cute when she smiles now. :) I hadn't been seeing her too often in the past two-three weeks, since my sister has been on time mostly throughout these weeks (with the exception of last Friday), and Briana is usually finishing up her nap when Betty gets there. So, that was a bit surprising to me. It made me feel quite out of place. But that's ok, since I usually am. :)

Damn this cold. I don't mean to go on complaining, but I hate being sick. At least I don't really have a sore throat. I can be happy about that! Anyway, I got my business kit last night. I was playing with the self-inking stamper thing last night. It's really fun! Hehe I'm easily amused. :) But I'm really getting excited about my order I should be recieving next week. I can't wait!!! Monday will be hell waiting for it. I'll be calm all weekend, and then I'll wake up Monday and be jumping around and really hyper, just because that's the day I should be getting the order. I hope it'll be right on time. That reminds me, I used one of my eye makeup samples today. It's a cream eyeshadow, which I've never used before, and I really like it! I think there's only 3 different shades of the "Eyesicles" that Mary Kay has, but that's alright, since they're basics shades that work well with any skin tone. I think I'm gonna have to replace a lot of my old makeup soon anyway, so this Mary Kay business really is helping me get rid of years old makeup that is probably expired by now. In fact, I don't even know where some of it came from! I think some of the eye shadow I have was old samplers my sister used to have. They must be about 10 years old! Shit, I gotta replace that. Now that I actually think about how old some of my makeup is, I think I really should get all new stuff. Eh, I'm sure eventually I'll end up with Mary Kay everything. The only thing I refuse to submit completely to Mary Kay is perfume. I cannot wear just one fragrance, or even just a few. I must have about 20 different fragrances now. I don't think that'll ever change. :) I did order a bottle of Elige, one of Mary Kay's perfumes, so I at least have that, and I can stop using the samples of the perfume. :)

Well, now that I'm done my schpiel on Mary Kay, I think I'll go now. I can't think of anything else to write about for the moment. Maybe later. Anyhow, enjoy your day!!!

"Who knows where thoughts come from, they just appear." -Lucas, Empire Records

Bub bye!! :)

Heya!! I hate snow!!! It's spring, for goodness sakes!!! Oh well, it'll melt. Anyway, I am coming down with a cold. Not just any cold, a chest cold. It started out as a scratchy throat, and I thought it would be a normal cold, but it's not. I feel like I have asthma or something; like I can't breathe as well. These bastards at Betty's place are smoking too, so I'm having problems here. Oh well. Well, I watched a really good movie a bit ago. I don't know what it was called, but it had Ashley Judd in it, and Hugh Jackman, and, oh crap, I can't remember the other dude's name, but I know it was a recently made movie. It was a love story kinda thing, but it was really good. I need to find out what it's called so I can watch the whole thing sometime.

Let's see...I worked this weekend, which was actually fun, and I got a few more things from Sharon (shoes and 3 pairs of shorts), ummm......I found out a week ago last Friday (forgot to write this down) that Justin Rose and Crystal Gallager are engaged and are getting married next year. That surprised me. I didn't realize they were that serious already. They're beating me and Josh! So that was a good piece of news that I missed talkin about last week. I forgot a lot last week. Last week was a blur to me. I don't have a reason for it either. Hmmm...what else do I need to report? Oh yeah, my buddy, Matt graduated from the Marines training thing last week. So, I'm very happy for him that he made it, but I'm kinda worried he'll end up overseas. If he does end up there, let's just hope everything turns out okay. Of course, I've been hoping for that since the beginning of the war for everyone involved.

Not to change to a more trivial subject, I tried my Dove shampoo this weekend. I love it!! I LOOOOVVE the smell, and it conditions very well. I don't really know if their claim is right (weightless conditioner idea), since I had my hair up yesterday for work, and I also did use too much yesterday since it's a very thick conditioner and I could tell as soon as I put it through my hair that I used too much. I had to do my weekly deep conditioning of my hair today, and I use Infusium 23 for that, so I didn't really get to check it out. I will find out how well it works tomorrow. And, if you actually understood all of that rambling, good for you. :)

Well, I guess that's all for today. I'll post my quote quick, and then I'll go.

"Oh honey. This makes me think of something I read somewhere once-- that certain people present themselves to us like huge, erect penises. And we stand enthralled and cowed and afraid before them, while they throb and wave from side to side. Mike is like this, honey. You need some very primitive nurturing. You need the breast. But Mike can't provide that. He can just come over and sway wienielike at you." -Elizabeth Ferguson, Crooked Little Heart by Annie Lamott

Hehe I love that quote. I get a weird image from that, but it's funny as hell. Well, enjoy your day!! Bub bye!! :)

Heya! Chuck updated Aol 8.0 to Aol 8.0 plus, so I'm having more problems than I did even just yesterday with this damn AOL. It pisses me off. Anyway, I don't really feel like typing everything over again, so I will just put my quote here, and go. Oh, by the way, Amanda, who I saw today at Turkey Hill, says "Hi!" to everyone. Have a happy day!! Bub bye!! :)

"Fallen heroes don't fall from heroism to the median, where they can just hang out with everyone else. Fallen heroes fall far below the median, because they start from so much higher up and the extra height increases the speed with which they fall and hence the impact of the fall. Fallen heroes are lucky if they land in one piece." -Elizabeth Benedict, in Slow Dancing

"A burning desire to be and to do is the starting point from which the dreamer must take off. Dreams are not born of indifference, laziness or lack of ambition."

Hello! All is well again. I talked to Sharon about the nail polish situation, and she said she trusts my judgement, so I ordered a new color for her. I also made my big order, and now I will actaully MAKE money!! :D Yay!! Hehe. Anyway, I just wanted to write about that right away, since that was just what I had been working on. Last night was my facial with Rachel. It went well, so I'm happy about it. I realized that I'm very bad at following directions to someone's house in the dark. I must've driven by her house 5 times before I realized that was her house. I felt like a dumbass, since some woman was walking her dog, and I accidentally blinded her with the high beams. I forgot she was there when I slowly rolled by this one house looking for the number on the mail box and I turned on the high beams to see it a bit better, and then I remembered this poor lady walking in the road in front of me. So, I felt bad about that. But anyway, I love her house!! It's soooo nice! It seems kinda small, but it's really comfy and homey.

Well, I don't really have anything more to say about that. I went to a copy ahop and got stuff photocopied yesterday. The place I went to only charges 5 cents for black and white copies and 99 cents for color copies. My whole charge was just over $5, so I was quite happy about that. And, I also got shampoo and conditioner (Dove) adn some other things I needed, so I felt quite good about having fulfilled my day. I'm very materialistic, since new shampoo and conditioner actually make me really happy. :) It's okay, tho, since most ppl I know are like that too. I'm not sure what to believe about the Dove shampoo line, since one of my buddies already said it sucks, and I've read on websites that they work great. I didn't wanna waste money on it if it sucked, but it was on sale, so I bought it anyway. It smells really good, so I hope it works really good. Then, I won't feel like I wasted my money. Next time I need shampoo and conditioner, I'm getting Thermasilk anyway, since it's getting closer to summer, and I used it last year at that time, and it worked on my hair, since I let it airdry in the sun. So, anyway, I don't know where I'm goin with this. I guess I should stop rambling.

On that note, I shall go now. Have a happy day!!!! Bub bye!! :)

"You make some decisions with your heart, others with your mind. But every step you take affects your life. Look which way you're going." -Advertisement for the 'Think. Don't Smoke' campaign

Hey! I just realized I screwed up another goddamn order. Josh's aunt, Sharon, had ordered some lipstick and a nail polish, and I didn't realize that the new nail colors replaced the old ones, and I had given her an old catalog (which, really, I had set out for her 2 weeks ago, but Josh's grandomom decided to give it to her just this past weekend), so it is my fault and I am really bummed now. I feel like an ass and I can't keep doing this. I have to stop screwing things up otherwise I just will have to quit this, because as a salesperson, you can't fuck up like this all the time. Or as often as I have, anyway. I don't even have her phone number, because she didn't fill it out on the form. I need to get a hold of her to make the big order by Thursday, and if I can't, I screw myself over even more. Dammit, this sucks. I'm so pissed at myself. I WAS in a good mood today too.

I ordered my business kit yesterday, so I should get that next week. I also have that rescheduled facial tomorrow night with Rachel. That's very good. Although, I don't think I'll be in a good mood for it since I screwed this order up and I'll be worrying about it. I think I'm gonna go now, since I'm not in a very good mood, and I can't talk about what I wanted to now. So, have a better day than I am. Bub bye!! :)