Bleh...

I'm not creative enough at the moment to come up with a funny/relevent title today...Anyway, today is Thursday!!!! Yay!!!! :oD I'm really happy for this weekend to come about. And, I called 2 places yesterday about jobs, and the one I'm really excited about, but they gotta call me back. Which seems pointless, as I'm not there right now, but they can leave a message, and hopefully I can call them back before they leave at the end of the day. I hate phone-tag, but what can I do?

I was soooo lonely last night. I dunno why; I guess maybe I was really bored or something, but I did realize that maybe I should go to bed an hour earlier every night, and it won't be so fuckin hard to wake up at 7-8 in the morning. I know it seems like an ungodly hour to get up, especially if you really don't have to, but I like to, just to get exercize or whatever in before I shower. I hate taking showers at night, what with my long hair and all (and I don't blowdry, that's damages your hair too much, and like I said, I have long hair, so I try to take care of it as much as possible), and I like taking a shower after I work out, so it just works for me. No, I don't go to a gym (no full-time job=no $ for extras like that). So, yeah, back to my point, getting to bed early is very good. ;o)

Uhhmmm...I don't think I had any more to say at the moment, except these guys working on the sidewalk outside my sis's apartment are really screwing things up for me right now, not to mention: Damn, they're loud!!! So, anyway, here's your quote and have a wonderful Thursday!!!!! Muah! *blows kiss* Bub bye to all of the special people reading this! :oD

"Use your own best judgment at all times."
--Nordstrom's Department Store manual

THINK ABOUT THIS... You may not realize it, but it's true.

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. If not for you, someone may not be living.

8. You are special and unique.

9. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you.

10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.

12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.

13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.

14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much
better when they know.

15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

Send this letter to all the people you care about. If you do so, You will certainly brighten someone's day and might change their perspective on life, for the better.

I recieved this from one of my close friends the other day, and I thought it was "blog-worthy." I wuv you Christine!!! ;o)

Prince, again...

He showed up in my dream again this morning. And I haven't even listened to any of his songs for a few days. This time, I was actually having a convo with him and he was just answering questions, kinda like an interview. And his hair was long. Down to his shoulders long. It was layered, but the longest part was down to his shoulders; not a mullet, either, different. Anyway, I had gotten a Delia's catalog yesterday in the mail, and for some reason, that showed up in my dream. Basically, Prince came out of my grandmother's garage (that was where we were: my grandmom's), and we started talking, and in the midst of our convo, he looked on the kitchen table and there was my Delia's catalog. He was like, "Oh, what catalog is that?" all interested like, and he saw it was Delia's and he's like, "Oh," in a disappointed voice. I dunno what we talked about exactly, but soon he just left, pretty much without saying good-bye, and went out through the garage door. Kinda weird, if ya ask me. It's good for a laugh tho. ;o)

I'm really excited for the weekend, even tho nothing is planned. Well, we're almost assuredly going to Karen's since it's her birthday on Saturday, but that's about it. My weekend off is always fun, tho, no matter what we end up doing, even if it wasn't planned. I just hope it won't be spoiled with Josh's friends over every single day for hours on end. It always happens when we have a few hours to ourselves: we might be getting cozy, or making out, or whatever we're in the mood for, with no one there, and then: knock knock on the damn door, and Matt comes walking in with Richard with some weird scheme to go video tape things to edit on Matt's computer to make some corny (but hilarius) little 5 minute music video type thing, and by the end of it, our whole afternoon is gone, and we have nothing to show for it. Bleh. Sometimes I really like his friends, and sometimes I just feel like screaming because they are always there. Eh, I just gotta learn to share, right? Heh. I sound like I'm talking about a toy back in elementary school or something. Never mind; I don't know what the hell I'm thinking there. ;o)

Anyway, I looked for my iced tea, and they had the right brand at Walmart, but not the right flavor. Every freakin flavor but the kind I wanted. I bought a little bottle of the Raspberry iced tea, and it was good, so I just have to compromise and ask Carol to buy me a gallon of it every weekend I work. :o) I'm getting it one way or another.

Must go now. I have to make a quick comment on my quote for the day. This is a quote from a fellow blogger, and it was in her blog a month or 2 ago, so it's not quite up to date, but check out her blog anyway!

"Shame shame shame on you people! You book reading people,
who have no clue!! F* you! You 2-caret diamond ring people, who wear everything new!!
You perfectly dressed people, who care about nothing but yourself and your own ring of
friends!! Go to h*ll! You- putting make-up on and flipping your hair the whole way there!
Ya! You NEED that make-up cause you were scaring me bad! You MEN who are strong boned and
athletic-legged!! Especially YOU!! You, who do not carry babies for nine months, go grocery
shopping, wake up at the crack of dawn, send out the bills and still have time to have
dinner on the table when your spouse comes homes, clean clothes for work the next day, and
makes sure your children are at school!! You who ran for the bus just ten seconds ago! You
who just sat down, with your cup of joe! Grrrr… you make me so mad!! You are all so rude!
And it’s not the first time you’ve done it; you’ve let it pass you by, to be so kind as I!
And I was AT LEAST 1/3 down past the front door of the bus…. But I still got up from my
comfortable seat, from the music flowing through my head, to stand on the unstable-moving
bus which hurt my back and twisted my wrist as we went around that turn…… all for the old
man with a cane." Jennifer

On that note, have a great day!!!! ;oD

Must Focus!

I can't focus on anything today. Dunno why, just can't. I usually have the tv or radio on while I type this, and just tune out those things when I really get thinking about something, but it ain't workin today.

I woke up late today, so time for me today is completely screwed up. Maybe the concentration thing has to do with that as well. Eh. *shrug*

Oh, yeah, I had gotten an email from that dude over the weekend containing what I presume was a nude pic. I didn't open it, of course (heh, I'm not that stupid ;oP). I just think it's funny as hell how desperate people really can be. I also haven't heard from him since. Maybe I should say something general about how sucky the pic was and that he wasn't that attractive, or even something worse than that, but that would probably be too mean. Although, if he does email me anymore, I'm gonna have to get really bitchy, so I better keep that idea in mind. ;o)

Hmmmm...haven't done anything worth a shit today, so I better go now so as not to bore you all. O, I didn't find the "sacred iced tea" yesterday, so I'm gonna go again today. I only got to 2 gracery stores anyway before I ran out of time, because people drive too slow. All I ask is that you do the speed limit, minimum. Otherwise, I shall be bitching about you as you are driving in front of me, sometimes yelling shit outloud and not realizing my windows are open and then you hear me and go slower just to piss me off even more...erm, I better stop now. ;o) Off to Walmart I go...

Lenin said, "A lie told often enough becomes truth."

Template

Let me know if you think I should try a new template here. The new blogger ones really suck ass, but maybe I can find something new somewhere. I like this one, but it is wearing out it's nifty-ness, so I kinda wanna do something different. If you have any suggestions, let me know. Anything is welcome: if you have any idea of a place to get another template, that'd be great too!

Owww...

Oooooo...my head hurts. I dunno why, it just started this stabbing pain all of a sudden. And I hardly ever get headaches, so this really sucks.

I haven't heard anything new about Eric, so I don't have anything more to tell you there, except once he gets out of ICU, Josh might go visit him, if he can get ahold of one of his family members; I dunno.

OMG, if you haven't tried Swiss Premium Southern Brew Iced Tea (no lemon), you are missing out on the greatest iced tea there is!!!!! ;o) Carol brought some into work, and I had 2 cups of it, and damn, it's good shit! I will be hunting down a store that has it as soon as I have access to a car later today.

My headache is subsiding now. That was really f***ing weird. (I know I don't normally edit myself here, but for some reason I felt the need to there; I'm in a weird frame of mind today ;o) )

Sassy wrote an interesting post about dreams, and it describes exactly how I feel about my life. I don't have one great talent to choose my "dream job." I wish I did. I'm more like a "jack-of-all-trades" kinda person. Well, not at everything, but you get the picture. I have some great talent at organizing shit (not literally ;o) ), but I can't seem to think of some job/career where that would gratify my need to feel like I accomplished something in the world. I guess that makes me a good cleaner, but I sure as hell ain't doin that all my life. I want things everyone wants: a great paying job, a happy family life (whatever that may end up being), just plain contentedness; but I can't seem to get past the first step of getting a job. I decided against working at the Geriatric Center full time, even though everyone is thinking I'm stupid for it (they can all kiss my ass for all I really care if they hold it against me), because I wasn't happy there. I know I have to make compromises throughout my life if I wanna accomplish my goals, but that just wasn't working for me. I felt it wasn't right, so it just wasn't gonna happen for me. I felt there was something out there that was better suited to me. I just wish it would find me (or vice versa) soon. I'm gettin damn impatient for it to happen. But, back to the dream/talent thing: I can't think of something that would make me the perfect candidate for a certain line of work. Maybe a clerical job, but I don't think I have the typing speed for that, and I also don't have the experience for most of those jobs. Bleh. I could do something with plants, though. I don't think that would be a bad choice. In fact, according to astrology, and if you know me well, you know how much I'm into that, I would be a natural at being a horiculturist. Kinda makes me wish I had gone to the Horticulture shop in Vo-Tech rather than Cosmetology. Dammit, I just may be too picky for my own good. :o) That I am.

Eh, well, I better get goin on my iced tea search. Wish me luck! Heh. ;o)

"It wasn't raining when Noah built the ark."
--Howard Ruff

Have a great Monday!!!! :oD

My blog sucks...

According to the few who have rated my blog (there were 14 so far):
2 people love it,
4 people think it's good,
1 thinks it's okay,
4 people think it sucks,
and 3 people hate it.

This is through Bloghop, which I have the link for on the left of the page. I think if you click on a certain little block, it counts that as a vote. I dunno, I never actually tried it. Anyway, I just thought I'd share the results with ya. :o) I actually think it's amusing what people will vote my blog.

Anyway, Josh's good friend Eric was in an accident on Tuesday. He's damn lucky to be living, and also not to be paralyzed. I'm not quite sure exactly what happened (the paper didn't specify who was at fault), but someone ran a red light, and Eric's little black truck ended up almost under the front of a dumptruck. The dumptruck was turning left at a light, and crashed into the passenger side of his truck. The logical thing to think is that Eric was speeding, and ran a red light, so the dumptruck couldn't stop that quickly. I dunno if this is right, but that's what seems to make sense. Anyway, he's still in ICU at the Lehigh Valley hospital, as far as I know. The Mercury has the follow up story on the website here.

Have a great weekend guys! I must go now, so I'll be back Monday. See ya!! :oD

Darling Nikki

That's the song I'm listening to. I think it describes how I'm feeling best now. About the horniness.

Oh geez, I don't think I'll make it till tonight. Hurry home Josh! ;o)

"Call me whenever you wanna grind..."

Heh, I was watching Vh1 last night, and they had the 200 Pop Culture Icons (or whatever the hell the name of the show was, and when they got to Prince (he was 130-something, if I remember correctly; maybe 137? I dunno, I'm just guessing now), Dave Grohl was saying what the best songs on the Purple Rain cd was and he was like, "Darling Nikki," with an increasing smile, "Definately Darling Nikki." I just thought that was an interesting thing to share here.

I don't think I like this deodorant. I just used a new one this morning, and I had been using a soft-solid, but when I got this one, they didn't have any more in Shower Fresh, so I got the clear gel, and I don't feel dry now. I feel like I've been sweating. Dammit, I have no luck with deodorant. I sweat way too damn much, and when I find a good kind, I never am able to get it when I want it. Well, maybe next time I can get my soft-solid again. It may be a bit more expensive, but for me, it's worth it!

Well, now that you know my horniness issue, and my deodorant issue, I think I'll stop now.

Uh-oh. I just got an email. Oh Lord...

hahahaha...you have no idea!!! i'm 6'2", 195, blue eys and blondish brown
hair...ex-pro boxer...trader on wall street...just looking for fun, baby...i
meant no harm!!! "some old creepy guy"...hahahah...you're great!!!

tommy

Hmm...I wonder what to write... ;oD

Electricity again!

Yesterday, I came here only to find the electricity off here. One of the transformers down the street blew from Tuesday night's storm, or something like that, and we were stuck with no electricity here. Oh, yeah, I went home on Tuesday, and my electricity was on again. So, everything was alright; no marathon ice cream eating, or anything of the sort. Heh, not that I would've minded, of course. ;o)

I decided to go for a ride yesterday, as well as deliver things to and from my grandmother's house from my house to sleep over last night, and some kids were following me in an SUV around the block for some reason or another. I was freaked. See, I had to turn around on this one road (the same one my grandmother's house is on, just further down) because they were doing road work, and the road was closed in that area. So, I did a three-point turn (or, rather, a 5 point turn, since I suck), and I noticed as I was pulling away, there was an SUV behind me, and they followed me around the block, going back the way they came. Well, I kept hearing something funny with the car, and I wanted to stop to look at the tires, you know, just in case, and I was passing my house, so I just pulled in there. Then I realized that I shoulda just driven to the store up the road a bit, so they wouldn't know where I lived. Dammit. I screwed up there. Everything's okay, tho. I hope it stays that way.

Ew, some guy keeps emailing me, because I wrote that mood was horny on imood, and now he's trying to cyber with me.

This is what he wrote me first:

horny? me,too, baby...let's do something about it...

tommy

Then I wrote back:

No thanks. I'll just wait til I see my boyfriend tonight.

Then he writes back:

forbidden fruit might be exciting for you...

Then I write:

No, I wouldn't find that exciting, and you're probably just some old creepy guy looking for someone to bother. Go find someone else to cyber with.

Heh. I think that made him go away. I haven't heard from him since. If you want his email, I'll gladly give it to you if you ask. Otherwise, I'm not posting it.

I guess that's my own fault too. I'm not doing so well with common sense issues this week, apparently. More so than usual, anyway. :oP

Anyway, I talked to my one friend Christine earlier. I haven't really talked to her since last summer, and that convo, no matter how short it was, just put me into a good mood.

Aw, damn, the hot guys trimming the bushes in front of my sis's apartment are leaving. Such a shame. I know, I shouldn't be looking, but I'm allowed to admire the hotness, so there. ;oP They probably think I'm crazy or something, since I keep walking past the window to see what they're doing. I know I'm bad. Heh. Oh, and just to inform you, that's not the reason I'm horny today, either. I woke up being horny, as I have for the past week, for the lack of sex I've had this past weekend because of my damn period. I haven't had sex in about a week and a half. That sucks. So, yes I'm very horny today. Enough said.

I think I shall go. Have a "throbbing" Thursday!! ;) I had to add that in there while we were on the subject.

"In every walk with nature one receives far more than he seeks."
--John Muir (you could take that as sexual too, if ya think about it; I told you, I'm horny, therefore I have a very dirty mind today ;o) )

Fuck Me

No, no, not literally!

I was just about to grab my stuff and head outside, when what does it start doing? Downpouring yet again. And now the sun is out too. It's still downpouring. And I nearly walked outside without looking out the window to see that I didn't recognize the car, either. My sis took the fire police blue light off the top off the car, so I was a bit confuzzled for a few moments there. Aah. Some days I wish I would just stay home. Oh, wait, that's right. I'd have to be stuck without electricity; i.e. air conditioning, and be unshowered for the day, not to mention going thru blog-withdrawal. Eh, damn, not much of a choice. ;o)

Rain, rain, go away....

I have no electricity at my house. I haven't since about 9:20 last night. About 2 minutes after I pull in the driveway. I just hope it's on by the time I get home, but I really doubt my luck there.

Yeah, last night was fun. I accidently left the inside light in the car on, and had to go back out into the torrential downpour that was happening, and proceeded to get completely fuckin soaked. And I was only out there for about a minute, tops. So, my sneakers are still saoked through, and since I have no electricity, and no where to actually hang my clothes, they are still lying on the floor, wet. My sis came home right when I ran back outside to turn the car light off, and she decided to hang all her stuff up, and didn't leave any room anywhere. So, that's the explanation behind that, in case you were wondering what the hell was wrong with me. I'd just do a load of laundry here, at my other sis's house, but since she lives in an apartment complex now, she has to go down to the little "laundromat" and pay to wash her clothing. Ain't no way in hell I'm paying, though. ;o) I think I'll just wait.

Eh, I'm quite tired today, and I don't really think I'm making a lot of sense, or have my usual wit (as I believe it is ;o) ). I spent most of my online time reading blogs, which I try to do after I write here, since I tend to get majorly tired from all of the reading, also since I had to catch up after missing the weekend posts, blah, blah blah. So, therefore, this is my sucky post for the day. Now to go get my shower stuff packed up to go home. Can you feel the excitement? ;)

"I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want
to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I
want to read, and all the friends I want to see."
--John Burrough

Happy day, everyone!! :oD

F***ing mouse!!

Actually, I couldn't think of a good title, and the ball in this mouse wasn't working properly, so that would explain that. O-kay.

I'm babysitting yet again. Right now it's only one of the two kiddies, so it's not too bad. She's been taking a nap for a few hours. I'm gonna check on her soon, because she's had a cold all weekend, according to Betty, and I know she's gotta be tired, but I think she'll be very groggy if she sleeps too. Not to mention, her father needs to get here. He told Betty he'd try to get home as quickly as possible, but he's even later today than he normally is, the bastard. And, I really can't babysit tonight, since I have my MK meeting (yes, I am actually going; and no, it's not to get out of babysitting, although that is part of it. :oP)

I had a great weekend with my Joshie. Not much to blab about tho. Most of the weekend was spent lying around and doing nothing important. We did, however, go to Karen's yesterday, which was fun, but there wasn't any major things happening that would be worth your time mentioning. Although, it was a lot of fun, and I'm sure everyone there had a good time. Anyway, Saturday was spent with Josh, most of the time alone, which was great. We usually don't get the whole house to ourselves, but it was a nice change. I think we were both kinda disappointed that it was a period weekend, so we didn't get to "have fun" like I really woulda wanted. Damn, was I horny! But you don't need to hear about that. ;oP

Uhhhmmmm...I'm trying to remember anything that might be worthwhile writing about. Erm....nothing. I got nuttin. I did watch Trading Spaces this morning that my parents taped for me, tho. That was fun. I haven't been taping it religiously as much as I used to, so they were new episodes to me, so it was interesting. You know, I stumbled upon that show back when no one really watched it (as well as the BBCAmerica show, Changing Rooms, and Ground Force of the same channel), when Alex McCloud was still hosting, and I used to be so obsessed with it, I would tape it every fucking week! No way was I going to miss my show! I also watched it at 4 pm every day, even when it was a rerun. I guess I grew out of it. I dunno. I still enjoy it tho.

Well, Chuck has come home now, and I have lost my train of thought. And, I also have nothin else to write about, so I shall leave you all to your other online "work." Okay, have a wonderful Monday!! :oD

"Some things cannot be spoken or discovered until we have
been stuck, incapacitated, or blown off course for awhile.
Plain sailing is pleasant, but you are not going to explore
many unknown realms that way."
--David Whyte

CVS can be a very scary place...

I got back from my little "shopping excursion" a little bit ago to find Chuck waiting for me and then proceeded to tell me that he had to go pick up the kids and then leave for work right away. I think it's crap, mind you, but that's what I had to come back to and now I'm babysitting. Again. Ugh, it makes me feel as though I'm obligated to do this, just because I'm here. I suppose I am, but it makes me not want to ever have kids. Seriously.

Anyway...CVS...I was there buying deodorant, and I was looking at the really cheap laundry baskets there since I happen to need one, and I saw them out of the corner of my eye...Anyway, I was just looking at them, and some older guy came up and was talking to me about the laundry basket, and walked away, as did I. Well, I went to pick up a b-day card for my sis, and went to the register, and, lo and behold, who's there? That's right. The old guy flirting with me. (He was flirting, trust me on this). So, I wait behind him in line, and he doesn't notice I'm there for a lil bit, then he turns around and proceeds to inform me that I look a lot like his daughter, and that's she's really pretty, and that means that I'm beautiful...I was like ok. Then he keeps talking to me, and I finally go to leave, and he's right in front of me walking out (he was afraid the thing was going to go off with all the stuff he bought; he wanted to make sure), and his truck is 2 spaces beside my car. He's leaning on the back of his Ford F-350, and watches me get in my car, and then says, "Hey, you'll never belive this, but my daughter drives a Dodge too. I HATE Dodges." I say, "Oh okay." and then leave. I was gonna say, "Well, so does my boyfriend," but then I realized, 1) No, Josh doesn't hate them, he just wouldn't pick one as his vehicle, 2) the old guy probably wouldn't get the hint, and 3) I could just leave. So that's what I did. Damn, people can be so nice, but I guess I'm just not used to an old guy talking to me so much. Maybe I shoulda been nicer, but I didn't particularly feel like it at that moment. Oh well. Besides, old guys trying to flirt with me give me the creeps. *shudder*

Well, my sis should be arriving soon, so I'll stop babbling. ;oD

Family visits (I've decided that titles work better than just throwing the words out there; I'm not a good title-giver, so just bear with my corny titles for a bit, k? Ok.)

I get to see my cousins today, that I haven't seen in about a year and a half. They're coming home from Carlisle, and that's about 2 hours to visit my grandmother. I wouldn't normally go visit them when they get here, usually because of no time, but today, I will be picked up from my grandmother's house by Josh later today. So, I get to hang out with them. Oh boy! (to be read in a sarcastic tone) I like my extended family, but since I have so many of them, it makes for a very tiring experience, and I don't think I'm up to the challenge so much today. I wish I was, but the last time I saw them, I felt more left out of things than I ever have been. Not to mention, my mom had forgotten to give my grandmother one of my graduation pics, so that even sets me apart. Not really my fault about the pic, but I have to say that I've always had feelings of being left out of family affairs, and whatnot. Part of that I do blame myself for, but jsut because I'm not as vocal about every-and-any thing doesn't mean that they should treat me any different, but I've always felt that distance. With my father's side of the family, we were so much closer, even though I was the youngest cousin, and that was probably just because my dad only had one sister.

But now we don't talk all that much anyway. Since my other grandmom died, we haven't really gotten together that much. It makes me sad. It makes me feel even more left out of family affairs. I know the situations, and that it isn't really as bad as it seems, but I always wanted to be a little closer to a few members of my family, and I've tried, and it's just so damn difficult to bond with any of them. Maybe I'm just too damn difficult. ;o) Heh, maybe that's not far from the truth. :o)

Anyway, I should go. I have to pick up my "drugs" (prescription), and get various toiletries I am needing very soon (don't wanna be smellin bad, no siree), so I must get goin.

"Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key
to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be
successful."
--Herman Cain

Well, goodbye people!! Have a Grand Friday! :oD

Apparently I don't pay much attention to my daily read blogs:

Jezebel apparently has me on her blogroll, and I hadn't even noticed. Damn, if you're reading this, I'm sorry I hadn't said a thank you!

I just thought I'd add this here since I linked Sassy's blog earlier, and just noticed a few minutes ago of my stupidity. Eh, we all have those days when we just can't stop being stupid, and I guess today's my day. :o)

Mmmmmm...chocolate. I'm eating Hershey's Kisses right now. They're just so damn good I can't stop eating them. Eh, maybe I'll stop after the last one sitting on the desk here is gone. :o)

Well, I did sleep over at my grandmother's place last night, after a hellishly long crappy day that decided to rear it's ugly head on me and wouldn't stop shitting all over me until midnight rolled around, but that's a different story. I didn't get to do my pedicure and other things I had intended, but I'm sure you aren't that interested in that. Anyway, I was here until about 9-something, since my sis didn't pick me up right after work (she was being stupid; I've been coming here about every day for almost a year, and she "didn't know I'd be here today"), so I had to stay here while she went online, and that's when she decided to drop me off. She didn't care that I actually had things to do, and that if I didn't do some of them, she'd have to, but I'm sure she realized that if I didn't get home soon, though, she'd actually have to get up off her lazy ass and get something accomplished, so I wasn't drug around the store too, to add to my day. But anyway, the point was that I got to my grandmother's and enjoyed the little bit of time/privacy I had there.

Now, I've gotta write about my dream. It was quite strange, so brace yourself. I was with a bunch of friends, some of whom I never talked to in school, but were somehow really close to me there. Anyway, we were riding on a train to go to a job, or something similar, and I remember I was smoking 2 cigarettes, one which was burning twice as fast as a normal cig, and one that was burning twice as slow. It gets weirder. At the destination, I was in a room, and in the next room, one kid I graduated with, Joel, (one of the few who I actually remember very clearly, and I should add, hardly ever talked to but was very nice to nonetheless) was walking into it, and the teacher or supervisor, or maybe person in authority is a better term, was talking to him, and for some reason, I started giving the authority person a spiel on how wonderful he was and how ambitious, and successful he'd become....blah blah blah. Well, after that, I remember my friend, Crystal and I were hanging out, maybe on the train? I'm not sure, but I do remember her there. Then things got all shuffled up and the next parts weren't connected very well, more like snippets of a story, but I remember that I was a lesbian, and I was arguing with my "girlfriend" about how I was having an affair with a man (I don't know what he looked like, or even her for that matter; no it wasn't Crystal, by the way ;o) ). Well, we had a long argument about it, but then the next thing I remember was that we were at a stage somewhere, and I was with my "lesbian lover" and another woman; we were all talking about getting someone to sing onstage, and all of a sudden, Prince walks up onstage, starts singing, and everyone's so amazed that he could really sing and shit, like they already knew him, and couldn't believe that he did it...It was kinda scary actually. Oh I know what you're thinking: no, I was not having an affair with Prince all through this dream. It was not a sexual dream about Prince. I don't even know why he showed up. Although, there was a bit of sex in the dream, just not with Prince, and that's all I'm gonna say about that, even though I'm sure you men would be very interested in hearing about it. ;o) But that was basically it. I didn't know what to think when I woke up this morning. I was very confused, to say the least. Not to mention, asking myself, 'Was my subconscious trying to tell me I'm really a closet bisexual, and I've been stiffling my feelings for all these years?' Heh, maybe Josh would be interested in hearing my dream. ;o)

Well, I don't think I could end this much better than that.

PS. I would just like thank Sassy for adding me to her blogroll, and she's such a sweet person, and if you didn't link to here from her site, please go check it out! Go! Now! I'm not writing any more after this, so go! ;oD

Holy. Shit. It's already 4:20 pm!!!! I need to stop reading blogs so much. I can't help it. I guess I am officially addicted.

So, I slept at my grandmother's last night, which was semi-fun, since I don't usually watch tv right before I go to bed (that's what my books are for), and I got to do that for once since about a year ago. Eh, I'm sore though. The extra room's bed sucks ass. It has to be more comfortable sleeping on the floor, for chrissakes. That, and I did my strength training prgram yesterday that I had done last week, with the results of not being able to move out of bed for about 5 minutes longer than normal. Not to mention, last week, I nearly fell off the toilet, just trying to sit on it because my legs were just that damn sore. Anyway, I'm not nearly as sore as last week, but sore enough to complain. :o) So, yeah, I'm heading over to her house again tonight, and maybe, just maybe, I'll wake up to a better day tomorrow.

I did go visit her (my g-mom) yesterday at Manorcare. Me and my mom (my mom and I) stayed for about 1 1/2 to 2 hours. She really is weak though; she can hardly move herself enough to change positions in bed. I hope she gets very much better though. I don't like to see anyone in pain, and it was oh so difficult just sitting there, and not being able to do much about it.

Well, I'm sorry if I have nothing inspiring to write today. I got caught up in everyone else's lives in the blogosphere and forgot everything I intended to write about, although, I did remember that much, and if it wasn't more important than what I did write, I guess it wouldn't be very interesting anyway. So....

Steph wrote this on her blog:

"She wore a raspberry Corvette,
Like the time I bought a secondhand store.
Raspberry Corvette
I think I love poo."

Ahahahaha...I thought that was great! Not to mention that I thought I should add that while the whole Prince thing was still kinda fresh on here.

Okee dokee...time for me to go bye bye. Heh, don't ask me why I'm sounding like a little kid, cuz I couldn't tell ya. My inner child tries to escape! ;o)

Well, have a freakin awesome hump day!!! :oD

I'm freezin my ass off. Freakin Chuck came home and turned the a/c up on high when it was perfectly comfortable in here. Grrrr....Not to mention, I'm in a skirt, and, since I hardly ever wear shorts or any leg-baring clothing, my legs are in shock from this blast of cold. Eh, I'll be leaving soon anyway. And at least I'm not sweating my ass off. ;o)

I might be sleeping at my grandmother's house while she's at Manorcare. She's signed up as a rehab patient, and in a few weeks will have her "case" reviewed, and if she's showing improvement, Medicare will pay for 100 days there, she'll come back home, and will have a nurse come over a few times a week. Oh, I don't think I ever explained that whole mess. Well, the Wednesday in the Fourth of July week (I guess that would make it the second), she had problems getting up, and couldn't lift herself up off of the toilet that morning, and had to stay there for an immense amount of time until she could get the courage to move. She didn't happen to have the phone with her, since it was the middle of the night, and she leaves the phone on the charger overnight, whereas during the day she would carry it with her everywhere. So, she finally got to the phone and called someone and she ended up at the hospital. Well, that wasn't the greatest thing, since they wouldn't even let her get up moving around until the following Monday, and then proceeded to send her home 2 days later, after all the tests were done (I don't personally know what the tests said). I guess they expected her to have been "miraculously" healed, without actually having done a damn thing. Well, she was home for about 2 hours, and then had pretty much the same damn thing happen to her, so again she went to the hospital. The next day (last Thursday), my uncles signed her up to get into Manorcare for a rehabilitation program, since the hospital didn't do much help with that.

Sooooo... I am now going to spend some time over at her house, which is within walking distance if you were curious, because (according to my mother, whom I'm not quite sure if she really knows what the hell she's talking about) the home insurance requires someone to be there for part of the day, or something like that. So, I will be hanging out there for a few hours a day, and maybe sleeping there a few nights for the next 2-3 weeks. It'll be fun, since I don't have cable, we have DirectTV, and I also don't have the authority to watch what I'd like to. So, I'm kinda happy that I get that privacy, but I'm saddened about the situation that gave me this privelage. It sucks. She's 78 this year. Not to mention, the only other grandparent that I knew, and also was closest to, died 10 years ago this October. I was only in 3rd grade when that happened, so I don't think we ever got the chance to have the kind of relationship that I think we were supposed to. My grndmother that is still here, is a grandparent to at least 12 kids (my mom was the oldest of 7 kids, and the only girl), so I never got that close to her either. My grandfathers died early 80's; one a few months before I was born, and the other one within a few years, so I never really knew them. My grandfather on my mom's side (married to the still living grandmom) shares my birthday. Or I should say, I share his birthday: November 23. That I always thought was cool. If I hadn't shared anything else with him, at least I have my birthday. Maybe that's why I hold my birthday to be very special. I never have great birthdays (just check out the archives for last year's explanation, if you want), and I get do upset when they suck. I dunno why I was always like this, I just expected to have a great day, and just got disappointed too many damn times. But I don't stop expecting it to be good. Maybe I just hold my expectations too high. I dunno.

Anyway, I'll leave ya with the quote:

"Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might
as well be happy." Cynthia Nelms

Well, have a wonderful day!!! Bub bye!!!! :oD

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does not care for criticism
ambitious
intelligent
talented
likes to play with its fate
can be egoistic
very reliable and trust-worthy
faithful and prudent lover
sometimes brains rule over heart
but takes partnership very serious.

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Yes, I am online today, and my sis is completely moved in now. I love the apartment. Wish it was mine. *pouts* Ah well, there will come the day. Soon. Hopefully. *crosses fingers* Oh yeah, I updated my blogroll a bit. Feel free to browse. Heh, why'd I even bother saying that? Not like I could stop you if I didn't want you to look at them. In fact, why would I put the blogroll on here if I didn't want you to. Ah shit, I'm rambling again. Sorry. ;o)

I really don't have anything to write about, so I shall go. Here's the quote:

"Wise men put their trust in ideas and not in circumstances."
--Ralph Waldo Emerson

Have a wonderful weekend!!! I love you all! ;o)

Oh, BTW, my hormones were all over the place yesterday; I went from being bitchy to crying, but then that's not that terribly unusual. ;o)

If this doesn't kinda freak me out, I dunno what does:

10 July 2003

The moon is in conjunction with Uranus in the fifth house.If you have never fallen in love before, you could do so now. You seem particularly vulnerable to sudden attractions just now, and there seems to be someone entering your circle who will turn your head and make your heart flutter as well. Your life is rather exciting now but there is an unpredictable and chaotic side to this as well. The planets are playing havoc with your hormones today. If you are female, you could find yourself suddenly and inexplicably pregnant despite the pills you swallow and the devices you use to ensure that this
doesn't happen. You may already be happily pregnant, only to be told that it is twins! If pregnancy is not possible (due to being male, over 100 or under two), then you could fall suddenly and devastatingly in love. In short, this is a great day for any kind of fate worse than death!

P.S. The pregnancy thing is what really freaks me out, since I know my hormones are always all over the place. Guess I won't be indulging myself with Josh tonight. Damn! ;o)

Yay!!!! Success!! I put the comments on, as you can see, and if you'd like to leave a comment for me (which I would absolutely love, by the way!), go for it. If there is a problem, email me, or leave a message on the board. Alrighty, now that that is done, I wanted to say something about Prince's songs, since Jennifer made a comment over there; she reminded me of something I had wanted to write earlier, but forgot to put in that post. Almost every song he does (that's popular, anyway) is quite sexual related. Even ones I hadn't realized before were like that, are. Little Red Corvette, for instance. I never realized what the words were, until I really listened to them on Josh's cd. Darling Nikki is one I hadn't heard until just Tuesday, but that one had me laughing out loud in the car, just not expecting to hear that. He musta been one horny guy, I tell ya. ;o)

Heh, anyway, I never told you, I rescheduled my dentist appt to tomorrow. At 11 am. So, everything worked out, although I still skipped me meeting anyway. So, I guess I'll just try next week to go to the meeting. We'll find out next week if a miracle actually happens, and I really go. :oP

Well, this is my cue to leave now. I ran out of stuff to babble about, so I'll leave you with a quote:

"It's a great satisfaction knowing that for a brief point in time you made a difference."
--Irene Natividad

Have a happy day!!!! :oD

I was just thinking, and I think I've decided to put comments on here- even tho I know I won't see too many of 'em, since not too many people stop by and actually read the comments, but I thought it might be better than the Zonkboard to comment on something specific. Ya know what I mean? So, I think I will work on that today, while I still have computer time, since I won't be able to get on here at all because of the moving. So, yeah, I will do it.

I will be back later, for an actual post, although I'm not so sure about time, so if I don't get back, have a wonderful day, and also a great weekend, too!!!! Bub bye!! ;oD

I was shopping yesterday, in case you missed me. Which I am sure you did. ;o) Anyway, my sis is moving on Friday, so that's the big excitement lately. I hear the apartment is very nice, so that's really good and I can't wait to see it! I'm actually sick of seeing the huge mess that is her apartment at the moment. I'm very organized, so seeing the mess drives me nuts.

I said I went shopping yesterday; I went on a search for really cheap clothing. Mainly skirts. For Mary Kay. I went to Walmart, and they have diddly squat. So, I walked over to the Goodwill store, just to see if they actually had anything that was in good shape. I must say, after an hour of searching through odds and ends, I think I did a decent job at finding some worthwhile stuff. I did get a skirt, and some books, and a Prince cassette tape (no cds there) which is in very good shape, not worn out. So, I did really good, plus I only spent $20. So, that's always a mood enhancer. :o)

Anyway, everyone have a great Wednesday, and hope to be back tomorrow, although that's questionable, since Betty's moving, and they might pack up the computer tonight; I dunno.

"Keep your faith in all beautiful things; in the sun when it is hidden, in the Spring when
it is gone."
--Roy R. Gilson

Bub bye!!!! :oD

I'm also beginning to have this freak obsession with Josh's The Very Best of Prince cd. I like a lot of the songs, but for some freakish reason, I can't stop listening to it!!! It's got some kind of power over me or something. Because I have When Doves Cry in my head whenever I hear it on the radio, and now it's permanently stuck there. I was even singing it on my walk this morning. Damn I'm weird. ;o)

"Animals strike curious poses..."

Dammit. I called to make a dentist appointment today, and it's for tomorrow at 9:45 am, which is alright, but since I have no insurance (dental or health), I was waiting until I had some moolah to pay for it all. Well, Josh was buggin me to make the appt, so I called today and made it, and he said he'd pay for it, but I'm worried because it's very fuckin expensive. And he's taking his truck in for body work today. So, I don't think he'll be able to pay for it, and I can't pay for it, and I'm gonna have to reschedule, and I'm just so fuckin stressed about it, and it's all his fault. But I did what he wanted me to, so there. :oP If I have to reschedule, then so be it. It costs over $80 without the adult flouride thingy, and it wouldn't even be so damned much if they wouldn't want me to get x-rays done. Grrrr.....I hate it when shit like this happens. I also know I have a freakin cavity, and so that's expensive as all hell. Without dental insurance. This is why you need to get health and dental insurance, and not wait til the last minute to get it.

Anyway, on a better note, I had a wonderful weekend. I hope everyone had a great 4th of July. I washed the car yesterday. That was fun. I really don't have much to reiterate from this weekend, since it's not really fresh in my mind, and I'm dealing with Monday problems, so therefore, you probably won't ever hear about my wonderful weekend. Sorry. If it means that much to you, email me, but if not, then you're in luck, I guess. ;)

Oh yeah, I was planning to go to my MK meeting tonight, but since I have to call Josh and talk to him about the freaking dentist issue, and he said the latest to call him would be 9 pm, and I don't normally get home til about 9:20, I won't be going to the meeting. It takes 45 minutes to get there and back, and that's just too damn far to be going when you've got other things that need to be taken care of. And I think my sis is going to be late picking me up, since my mom is on vacation this week, and she might have to cover for her in the office. So I don't think I was meant to go to the meeting tonight. I even dressed up. The past month, when I wasn't sure about even going, I didn't even dress up, and I just said screw it when the time came. Well, it just ain't happenin for me today.

Well, I better get going. Sorry if my mood was a bit bitchy, but I put myself in the mood when I realized I was being a dumb shit when I scheduled the appt. And now I'm sure you're sick of hearing about it, so I shall go until I have stopped freaking out.

"When we have nothing in our futures to anticipate, a void exists. Think about it. Don't
our biggest thrills in life come from realizing goals? Having a purpose is so important to
life that you must cherish your goal and give it priority. Of course, this means sharing it
with your husband and children." (Mary Kay: You Can Have It All 1997 Calendar)

Alrighty, have a better Monday than I'm having, please?! I hate to see ppl upset and moody like I am. ;o)

Why, why, why do all the good restaurants close just after I find them? Jerry's Chicken in Pottstown is closing/closed this week. Grrrr....I didn't even hear about it, I read it in the paper. So, yeah, that sucks major ass.

I get to see my Joshie tonight!!!!! YAY!!!!! Heh, sorry, couldn't contain myself there.

Well, yesterday I went to my friend, Crystal's house with the intention of going swimming, but it was too cool outside, so we just stayed in and watched her Moulin Rouge DVD. I had only seen the beginning before, never the end, and it is soooooooo sad! Like, Titanic sad. I very nearly cried. Nearly, I said. I had the teary eyed thing going, but I didn't actually let the tears flow. I never used to cry when I'd watch very sad movies, but since I've been with Josh, I cry like a baby when I watch sad movies. I dunno why. I guess because I place myself in the main character's shoes, and think about how I would feel if the situation was happening to Josh, or something like that, and that just makes me so emotional. In fact, I've been more emotional in every aspect of my life because of him. Which I don't really mind too much, until I'm pissed or upset or something with him, and I'm crying or whatever and can't even talk, and then nothing ever gets solved.

I also went exploring last night. I tried to find my grandmother's house (which is now my cousin's house) without directions, and that didn't quite work out the way I wanted. I thought I'd be able to make a few guesses as to which turns to make, but that wasn't on the agenda, apparently. Somehow, I ended up on the same road twice, don't ask me how, since I went two different ways, and somehow managed it, but I didn't get to my destination. I said screw it after a while, since it was getting kinda dark and I didn't really feel like being somewhere lost in the dark. So, that wasn't really all that interesting. I did see another junk yard around that area which Josh might not know about. It's called Harry's U-Pull-It, or something similar. I believe it's on Geryville Pike (which, by the way, I never knew how really close that was), and I remember Josh talked about a junk yard somewhere around there, but I don't remember him mentioning that, so I'll ask him tonight.

Wow, holy shit! I'm watching the All Access tv show on VH1, and the theme is Celebrity Weddings, and they just showed the ring Nick Lachey gave to Jessica Simpson. Damn!! 6.1 carats!!! Jeezez! Of course, everyone places such an emphasis on how wonderful diamonds are, and they really aren't all that great. I remember a few months ago, we were having one of the "Friday gatherings" at Josh's house, and on Dateline, they were having a segment on that. Although I don't quite remember everything they said (what a surprise, huh? ;o) ), but they were going around and showing people two rings, one with a CZ stone in it, and a real diamond, and no one could tell the difference. They said that diamonds aren't as rare as everyone makes them seem. They're actually quite abundant.

Anyway, I don't really have my usual wit (if you can call it that) today, so I won't torture you with any more of this now. Just to warn you, I may not be writing tomorrow, so don't be too surprised by a lack of posts. I'm sure you're all just so terribly disappointed, aren't you? ;o) I thought so. Anyway, here's da quote, and I'll put one for yesterday in for ya!

"Sammy started having sex with Julie. Julie woke up and stopped him." -Trevor Fehrman as
Handsome in Cheats

"Men will do anything for sex and women will do anything for comfort" -8 Mile's Anthony
Mackie, on Joe Millionare, at a party for the show's runner-up and Playboy cover girl,
Sarah Kozer

Alrighty, have a wonderful Thursday!!!! Bub Bye!!! :oD

I really wish I had something interesting to post today, but, I got nothing. Well, I talked to Josh for only about 2 minutes last night, since Karen's van broke down somewhere, and he told me he'd call back if he didn't have to go pick her up, and I had no call later from him, so I'm assuming that's what he had to do.

Oh yeah, a Jehovah witness came by my house this morning, which hasn't happened in years, and caught me completely offguard. But this girl was younger than me, didn't quite seem like she actually wanted to be going to strange people's houses, and wasn't offended that I declined. Actually, all of my experiences with people of that religion have been good, and since one of my close friends is a Jehovah Witness, I have always had good things to say about them. Other people might disagree, but I do hate it when anyone puts them down, just because they do what they do. It's their own thing, and, although that particular thing is right for them, they realize it's not for everyone, and they don't hound you just because you don't have the same exact beliefs. If you don't wanna listen to them, just tell them. It's not that big a deal, really. They're regular people with just a more structured kind of belief system that not a whole hell of a lot of people want to deal with.

Well, anyway, this girl just completely caught me offguard, since we don't get many visiters at my house, so I don't think I exuded my personality very well. Sometimes I may seem very hard to talk to, but it's really quite the opposite. I could sit and listen to a group of people talking for hours. But I don't think that's what I was projecting when I answered the door. So, if you're the girl that stopped by my house this morning and reading this, sorry. I wasn't really trying to act like a bitch, I swear! Although, that quality of exuding bitchiness seems to be a good thing sometimes. But that's off the subject. ;o)

Well, I'm off now. Have a wonderful day!! :oD

"Die, Napplebee, die!" -Matthew Larence as Victor in Cheats