I was just out shopping (yes, I know, stop spending money, Melissa!) and I finally got a yoga mat. I've been needin one for months now, and I finally got my lazy ass around to buying one. So, this is good. I also got another purse. It's black with pink lining. For some reason, that combo of colors is my new obsession. It used to be black and white, but with Mary Kay, I got a little lipstick case, and it has the pink and black, and I just love it!! There was a tote bag kinda deal at the store too, that was black with the pink lining, with a white letter 'j' on the outside (don't ask me why it had a j; the brand was xoxo; who knows?), but I liked this bag better, especially because it looked of a better quality. And, the real reason I went shopping in the first place, I bought new sneaks for work. I couldn't find dark colored ones at the other stores I was at, and, being too lazy to actually walk around the mall last Friday, when I coulda gotten some without any trouble, I just said "F this," and I decided to go today. I found some dark navy colored Sketchers, and they have a bit of white on the m, but for the most part, they're all darkly colored. I can't get light colored ones because I work in such a dirty place, and it would be such a waste of money if I bought ones like that.

Ah, so that was a nice distraction from this morning. I uploaded all my smilies for the comments, but I don't have the thing workin yet. So, again, don't bother trying to put them in your comments, because it won't work. I was getting really frustrated (ask Sean), and I just gave up. Not to mention, I hadn't eaten lunch yet, and it was almost 2 pm, so I decided to take a break. I normally eat lunch at noon, no matter what day it is, since for both jobs, that's the allotted lunch time, so I was absolutely ravenous!! Doesn't sound very lady-like, but when have I really been lady-like on here??

Damn, I wish I could get the smilies to work. Mel, I need you!!! Whenever you happen to get a chance, help!!! I tried, but, seeing as how I only mostly know basic html, I'm not quite sure what to do there.

Well, I will probably write back, but I'm not sure, so I hope you all have a wonderful night, partyin' away, and have a good New Year's day!!!! :o)

UPDATE: I dunno what happened to the comments, but you can get to them by right clicking and choosing "Open in New Window." Believe me, after what I've been doing, I know that works. The comments aren't popping up for me otherwise, but it may be this crappy aol or computer. Anyway, I was working on the smilies, and the palette is up, but I have to upload all the pictures again, because I messed up the dimensions, and they're all distorted. If Mel can fix 'em with some kind of shortcut (if she knows it), that'd be great, but it's not necessary. I'll spend my time on it later. I'm too tired to do much more, so I'm headin home, and hopefully I will be seeing my Joshie tonight. Talk to ya Friday!!!

I just downloaded the bar thing again, and all my stuff is still there. So yes, I'm not so pissed anymore. ::does a dance::

Heh, my moods just swing up and down all the time when this pms shit is goin on. It really hasn't been all that bad this week, so I was just expecting something to set me off. Looks like I've had it, and it's gone now. Hopefully nothing else will royally piss me off.

So happy!! :o)

I just got online now (I'm stuck babysitting this morning, so I'm already not too thrilled I had to get up early anyway today), and I opened Internet Explorer, and the one bar I've been using every single time I'm online that I downloaded, that had all those smilies on it, is completely gone. My stupid fucking bro-in-law must've gotten rid of it. The bastard. I had all these sites saved on it, and now it's all fucking gone. No questions about whether anyone fucking uses it. Just completely wiped it out, without caring about it. Now I'm just fucking pissed. I don't even know why he did that.

Well, fuck that. I'm downloading the bar back again, and he can kiss my ass about it. I'm sick of getting on here, only to find half my shit is missing that I had saved that has to do with the internet. It pisses me off. I told him, if he has to do anything to fix the comp, if there's problems (which there have been, all because of AOL and their stupid ass shit, and everyone downloading just about anything there is), then just let me know. I don't particularly care if he has to do anything, just let me know, so I don't have to fucking get on here, and get surprised by this bullshit. He can be such a jackass sometimes about the computer, and I'll tell him what he might wanna look at, or whatever (I'm not a complete idiot with the computer compared to anyone in the family; in fact, I've even told them exactly what to do, and they don't believe me, just because I'm younger, and that I don't own the computer, but yet what they end up having to do is what I told them in the first place), and he won't listen. He'll just be all too fucking happy to, as he puts it, "crash the computer." I am so sick of him trying to fix something he has no fucking clue about, and I just hate standing there trying to tell him something and he won't listen to me. He just will ignore me totally. Asshole.

And to help the situation right along, AOL decides to be more of a pain in my ass than usual, and decides to lock up.

Bastards.

I am trying to add something, and if you see a smilies option in the comments right now, ignore it. It won't work, cause I'm still in the middle of all this shit, so just go on your merry way without using smilies for now. Okay? Okay then.

I just noticed that there was shit in the recycle bin on my desktop (on the comp, not really on my desk!), and I clicked on it to delete whatever was there, and I clicked the 'yes' option when it asked me if I really wanted to delete these 53 items. Before I thought to myself, '53 items?!?! What the fuck??'

So now they're gone, and I'll never know what they were. And I'm too stupid and lazy right now to go searching for the stuff, especially cause I really dunno what the hell those 53 items were. Damn.

Don't you hate when you do something while being distracted, and realize later that you messed up, and you really wish you had been paying attention?

That's how I feel right now.

I have to tell you guys about this one. I almost got into an accident on Saturday, and I didn't even know it!

I will explain this starting from yesterday, so I can explain exactly what happened. Apparently, I almost hit the one lady who works at the geriatric center who was following me out to the stop light. Yesterday at lunch, she told me to come over to her table and sit down. I was just like, "Okay..." because I never talk to her; in fact she's been quite rude to me in the past, and I just don't even deal with her. So, I sat down, and I should mention this: that she wasn't sitting alone, so there were other people there that listened to the whole thing. So, anyway, I sat down, and she asks me, "Did you know you almost hit me yesterday?"

I just sat there, staring blankly at her, cause I had no idea what the hell she was talking about. Then I told her no, slowly shaking my head.

She was like, "Yeah, out at 113." (113 meaning the road's route number, if ya hadn't guessed) I still was staring at her blankly, not believing her, because I'm quite sure I woulda known if I almost hit someone, ya know? So, I was just like, "No, I didn't know..." slowly. She said, "Yeah, you went around that car, and I was right next to you. I almost hit that concrete thing."

I still am completely shocked, because I thought maybe she was on crack or something, but she said that, and I thought to myself, 'Huh?'

To make this a bit shorter, she explained it a little more, and I realized what she was talking about, still freaked out that I didn't even know I almost ran someone off the road. I was apologizing profusely, and then she says, "Watch where you're going; look into your rearview mirror."

That comment alerted something in the back of my mind, and if I hadn't been so damn shocked I coulda pointed out what I realized later, but we'll get back to that. I told her, "Well, I did, but I didn't see you."

So, after that, I was just in my own little world, just still not understanding fully what the hell she just told me, and it bugged the shit out of me all through lunch, and then I told Carol what happened, and realized that this really pissed me off, because she was being a jackass (the lady, not Carol).

Let's explain exactly the situation, to the best I can get it:

Starting out in the parking lot, she pulled up behind me, and did not leave my ass the entire driveway, nor when I turned left (she didn't even stop to check if there was someone else coming after I turned; she just went with me). She was right on my ass all the way to the stop light where the "incident" occured, and by "on my ass," I mean, so close to the back of the van, that I couldn't see the front of her car, just the windshield and her face, in either my side mirror, or my rearview mirror. So at that point, yes I was pissed, I will admit that. But I wasn't my usual flipping out and swearing at the asshole kinda pissed. Just annoyed by what the other person was doing, and becoming increasingly more so as time went on. I also remember thinking to myself, 'Damn, if she doesn't get off my ass, she's gonna ram right-the-fuck into the back of the van if I have to stop suddenly.' But anyway, we came up to the light, which was red, so I was slowing down, and there was one person in front of me turning left. Before I got up to the guy in front (I was a bit over a car length away, I think) the light changed to green, and I saw he wasn't inching up into the intersection, just staying where he was, so I decided I was gonna go around him. I looked in both the rearview and side mirrors, and saw no one was there, so I went around the dude, but I was going full speed ahead in case someone was going to turn left from the opposite lane. Ya got it so far?

I wasn't to a complete stop, so I still don't know why she thought it okay to try to pass me to turn right. Of course, that's the whole reason why I almost hit her. Because, apparently, she was turning right, and couldn't wait to get up to the line, so she tried to sneak past me on the shoulder of the road, and obviously wasn't paying enough attention to what the person in front of her was doing, and was too impatient to find out. But here's the thing that pisses me off the most: there is no right turn lane there, yet she, being one of those people I hate, was going to go around everyone to turn right off the shoulder. Maybe it woulda been fine if there weren't any cars in front of her, so she wouldn't be blocking the people going straight that were in back of her, but to go around people like that just annoys me. I only had that one car in front of me, so I didn't really think it was a bad idea to try to get around them if there weren't others turning left from the other lane.

Not to mention, also almost got me into an accident.

So, after I thought about it, I asked myself, 'Why the fuck was she trying to go around me," and I realized that she was just doing something illegal. So, of course it's all my fault. (sarcasm alert) Seriously, that really just pissed me off that I didn't say anything to her when I had the chance. I hate it when that happens. Grrrrr.....

So anyway, that was the whole stupid story. It bugged the shit out of me, and then I told Josh all about it, and he was telling me I shoulda bitched her out right there. I was like, "I know, I know, I really wished I woulda!!!!" Oh well, nothing I can do about it now. Except maybe let her get out of the parking lot first the next time I work the weekend there.

Dammit! I have these webrings on the bottom of this blog, and the damn thing is telling me it isn't there! Gah!!!!

Okay, I feel better now. Although, it's still bugging me, but what else is new?? Anyway, how was everyone's Christmas? Please share what you got!! I got a lot of good stuff, but the best thing was the necklace Josh got me. It's a heart, with diamonds lining it. I don't describe it too well. I'm gonna get a pic off the website of it for you guys.

Oh, and he got me really nice gloves, and I love them!! They kinda feel like smooth suede, and they're lined with fleece, and they have these furry cuffs that have a black and white zebra design on the fur. Oooooh, they're so nice.

I'm a simple girl; apparently these gloves are making me more excited than the very expensive necklace he got me. Heh, I dunno what's wrong with me.

Okay, I just found the pic of the necklace, but I don't know what size carat it is, so I just clicked one of them for an example. Here's the link: Necklace.

I'm gonna cut this short, and write another post later on. I have too much to do right at the present moment to concentrate, and this post is getting really dumb, so I'll be back later!!

Mercury's retrograde right now. Sorry if I suck.

I'm just writing this quick before I leave.

1) I found my safety glasses earlier today, so I was extremely thrilled about that!! I know, it's not very interesting to you, but it was a big deal to me, cause when you have to wear something as sucky as that all the time, the least that you could be is comfortable. I hated the other glasses I was forced to wear. I nearly cried when I couldn't find the ones I love.

2) I ended up seeing the Admirer after all--he came in for the free lunch we had at work. (It was really good by the way) So, of course, he had to stop and talk to me. And I had decided since I wouldn't see him, I'd wear my hair down, so as not to give him "thoughts", but I saw him anyway, and he said he liked my hair, and he was happy I wore it down again. I really wanted to avoid looking good because of him, and the damn plan backfired. Oh well. Knowing my luck, it won't matter what I look like. I could probably shave my head, and he'd still be there trying to "woo" me.

3) I'm not going to shave my head, don't worry. I like my hair too much, and I'd probably cry if I would.

4) Merry Christmas!! I know I wrote that in one of the earlier posts, but I decided to repeat myself so it'd be on the top.

Bub bye now!!

Goddamn. I hate it when you can't remember what you were gonna write. I had this whole little subject in my mind, but I can't remember what it was now. Gah! I am just not doin good with the remembering shit today.

Well, here's some quotes for ya, so it's not a complete waste of a post:
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"The quality of a leader is reflected in the standards they set for themselves."
--Ray Kroc

"Your own doubt is your opponent's greatest strength."
--Ralph S. Marston, Jr.

I know I'll be online sporadically for the rest of the year. I dunno if I'll be here tomorrow, but I will try. Wednesday isn't likely, but I may be able to get here that day. Christmas is a definate no online day for me, no question about that, and Friday may be an offline day as well.

And next week, I may not be online at all, so don't be too surprised about that. It sucks, but oh well. My sis just told me that she has a week off from work, and she wants the computer to herself. So that explains the situation. I just don't remember if it was next week, or the week after. Something to do with New Year's was all I remember, so I'm still not sure.

So, if I am not back tomorrow or Wednesday, have a wonderful Christmas!!! I love you all!!

Don't ya just love it when little things go wrong?? Like when I dropped my safety glasses (which are required wear for anyone at Knoll's) on the floor, forgot to pick them up, and went back to get them when I realized they were missing, and they weren't there? Now, it couldn't have been some random person who picked them up since it was in the closet, but dammit, I really liked those, and they were the only ones left in the entire building of its kind. So, grrrr....I am now stuck with these huge ass glasses that feel like they'll fall off my face at any given moment, and it's buggin the hell out of me. Gah!

And on my way here, I had a cup of decaf iced tea (gotta cut down on the caffeine so the boobs aren't so sore when pms occurs...like you needed to know that, right??) with a lid and everything on it, and the fucker fell over when I was making a turn and the lid came completely off. So I ended up spending quite a few minutes outside trying to get it up with paper towels. So blah. I wasn't too thrilled about that.

Ah, and the Admirer? I won't be seeing him all week (well, the other 2 days I work this week, anyway) cause he's workin 3rd shift, but I found out from Mike what his name is. It's the same as my dad's name, but I think it's too boring for the blog. So, we'll just stick to the Admirer for the blog's sake, shall we? Okay then.

Anyway, if there should be an incident where he may find this, I don't want him to be sure that it's him, even tho with what I've written on here, he'd still be able to guess damn on target that I was talking about him this entire time. But still.

And Mike, along with a few others, have warned me about him. I'm a bit confused as to why, but I think they have good reasons. Although I'm not as creeped out by him as much as I was to begin with. He doesn't seem like he's all that bad if he'd give up the hitting on me bit. Cause honestly, I'm flattered, but dammit, knock it off!! Hehe. Really, it's an ego-boost when someone keeps complimenting you, and it's nice and all, but toning it down would be a good thing. Then maybe we'd actually have some good convos. Like about the pictures. Just looking at them, and hearing the comments he was making to the different ones gave me some hints about who he really is, as I've mentioned before. There were quite a few things that were just exactly like what I like, and it was really weird to notice that it seems we have a lot in common. I'm givin this guy a chance, but I'm still being careful at the same time. Cause I know that Mike, at the very least, must know what he's talking about, and I do trust him a lot. So, we'll just wait and see what happens.

I am so freakin hungry it's not even funny! I think I shall go home and eat something before Josh picks me up, even tho I know I'll be eating an extremely high caloric ridden pizza, or steak sandwich or whatever I order.

Ya know, being sick and all, I gotta keep up the nourishment. Isn't it "feed a cold, starve a fever?" Ah well, I'm hungry dammit, and these fig newtons aren't alleviating that one bit.

I feel so lost. Sean isn't online at the moment, for some unexplainable reason, and he's my buddy I talk to while reading email, typing up a blog post, etc. And he's not here. :o(

Plus, I feel soooooo tired, and sick, and just yucky. I was having such a difficult time at work trying to get through the day, being so tired that I could barely get through cleaning the water fountains (which, as I'm sure you can all figure out yourselves, is not that difficult, in fact it's the easiest part of my day).

The "admirer" came to talk to me as I was standing in the closet (where all the cleaning supplies, etc, are), and he wanted to show me some of his pictures. I'm like "Sure, it'll look like I'm doing something at least." So we walk over to his locker, and he pulls out these scenic pictures he took himself, and they were absolutely gorgeous!! I know from how I describe him to you all, he sounds like a total creep, and I don't completely think that, but I was freaked out a bit when I posted yesterday about the present. I think I've actually seen him a bit better today since I've actually talked to him while I'm not working, and he surprised me by telling me this: "I was impressed with the way you handled that yesterday. You were nice about it, and didn't hurt my feelings. I was very impressed. You're a sweet girl." He doesn't seem to be hitting on me as much now anyway. I dunno. He'll be working 3rd shift next week, so I won't be seeing him for a week anyway, and I think I'll actually kind of miss talking to him a bit. But yes, I'm being careful. It's not like I'm all alone with him or anything, so I'm not too awfully worried about something happening like that. I think some of the other guys are keeping watch on him anyway, but I'm not completely sure about that. I know the one guy, Ernie, who is the sweetest guy, seems to be watching him to make sure nothing happens. Which reminds me, as I was walking over with the admirer, Ernie's like (jokingly), "Now, leave her alone. She's sick." And the admirer (dammit, I really need to find out his name; I still feel bad about that) said, "I know, she looks terrible." Ernie's like, "Oh now you're telling her she looks terrible." I was just laughing about it because I knew they were just joking around, and it makes me feel like people actually care. Some of the people there seem to be real nice, because they were the other girl's friends, but they don't seem to like me very much. Most of the people I met while training with her were soo nice, but there are a few who probably are just those kind of people that take a very long time to get used to someone new. But yeah, it put me in a better mood while I was feeling sooooo shitty.

After lunch, I felt much much better, and was actually back to my pace, but I had to walk over to the other building for a training meeting, which took up too much time, and I would actually have preferred to be finishing my job, just so I could get a few of the end of the day convos in I usually do. It woulda helped me feel better.

Dammit, I just realized I forgot to stop by the bank on the way home!!! Crap. Now I have to go during the busiest time of the day. Eh.

I did just about finish the xmas shopping last night, but I stayed way too late, and I still ended up buying myself stuff. At least I'm done now.

I see my buddy is online now. I'll go talk to him, so I'm gonna end this now. I don't have the energy to multitask today it seems. Have a great night and weekend peoples! I will be back Monday!

That's what my admirer decided to give me today as a "late birthday present." So, that was definately interesting. I didn't even know what to say or do, but I gave the box back to him because I would feel too guilty accepting something from another guy, especially if I know damn well he's got other things than friendship on his mind pertaining to moi. So there. I felt bad doing it, but he didn't seem too upset. When he gave it to me, he just like disappeared, so I was stuck with them all day until I saw him next. I didn't see him towards the end of the day, and I gave it back to him, and he's like, "Well, you should've eaten half the box, and then given it back to me." And: "At least it brought a smile to your face; that's all I was looking for." So yeah, I'm completely flustered every time he talks to me, just because he's telling me these things, and I dunno how to respond. I don't wanna be mean, because he is very nice, and I'm not a complete bitch (shut-up, stop laughing, I am nicer than how I sound most times), so I don't want to insult him.

One of the freaky things I've realized is that I can tell he's watching me every time I walk by, which is pretty often, and watching me as I work. Not a constant stare, mind you, but it's kinda scary at the same time. Not to mention, I have a problem with knowing someone is watching me work. I get all weird, and then I usually end up doing something clutzy, like running the vaccuum into the wall, or the lockers, or something dumb like that. So it's very disconcerting.

Plus, I don't remember his name. That I feel worse about than returning his present, since I've been talking to him for about a month and a half, most days, and I know he told me what it was, but I just can't remember it! Damn, I need to ask someone. Maybe Mike would know. Hmmm... I'll have to ask anyway.

Now, onto the wonderful world of the mall, to further spend my money on crap for family members. Ick. I hate spending money. I like giving gifts, but I hate the first part of spending the money. Plus, I will probably waste more on myself than on everyone else. Dammit, must control myself!!

I now am going to track how many freakin people say I should model. Not trying to brag or anything (although, it is quite the ego boost!), but it's so weird that I keep hearing these people tell me this, so I'm trackin the results. So far....3 people have told me to model. Although, the last one to tell me was the dude who asked me out, and conviently, he's a photographer as well, so that's why he was asking me about it.

But still, 3 people in a month??

Heh, I bet you're all curious now as to what I look like. Well, you just gotta wait!

Dammit, dammit, dammit. I told myself, er, rather, ordered myself not to get sick. I felt the start of a sore throat about 2 days ago, and ignored it the best I could, but I couldn't hold it off any longer. It got increasingly worse as the day went on at work, and I'm not looking forward to tomorrow. I can tell ya, chest colds are absolutely no fun. Especially when you work in an industrial type setting, and are breathing in all kinds of dust and shit. Real fun.

So, now it hurts when I breathe deep (outside of work, I should say; at work, it hurt pretty much all the time, if I didn't ignore it), so yes, I'm kinda in bad shape here. Thank god Chuck didn't decide to start smoking here in the apartment. I might have died. And, yes, I am a baby when I get sick. So, that means much complaining for you guys. Aren't you all so thrilled? ;o)

I'm also too lazy to put a cool smiley face up for that wink.

I also have new categories that "I" made up, so the posts will be in those too. There are some pretty funny ones, but I'm not listing them; you'll just have to look for 'em.

Wow, this actually describes me. I woulda thought I was a different color, but eh.

Here's the new blog. Mel has offered to do another template for me, so I may have one soon. I'm looking around for ideas anyway, so if you think I'd like a certain look to another's blog, send the link! I'm going to add some of the cool things I have on my old site to this one in a few minutes, so it'll get a little more colorful than just this "blah" crap. I'm a person who needs to see color, not just black and white. I don't want it too cluttered, but it needs to be more lively than plain crap like this. Not to mention, sooooo many people just use these default templates, it's getting old. I need to be unique, dammit!!

Anyway, I have a couple of things to say before I go off on my little quest to finish the xmas shopping.

This one guy at work who was hitting on me the week before my birthday decided to ask me out today. I knew it was coming soon, but it was still kinda freaky at the same time. I've only been asked out twice before that, and that was by one ex-boyfriend, and my current love. So, it's still not a situation that I know how to act in. I felt like an ass, too. So, that was a weird part of the day for me.

And later, after lunch, this one lady was seriously telling me I should model and she was giving me advice about it. She told I really should do it. I knew she wasn't just fucking with me, like that other dude that told me that who I thought was just hitting on me, but she was being totally serious about it. I didn't know how to act about that, either.

All in all, it was a great day, so I'm hoping that tonight is good too. I have to get this freakin christmas shopping done soon!!!! Argh!

Anyway, have a great night, and I hope I'll be on tomorrow night. If not, I'll be at the mall, getting impatient, and frustrated, and all that wonderful crap that goes with the wonderful holiday shopping experience! :o)

"Well, fingering is a very personal thing." -Sean

Ahahahahahaha, I just had to use that as my title. It's such a great quote. It's really about playing the piano, but I thought it was appropriate for the blog. Anything really is appropriate, but whether it's good enough is really the question. So consider yourself very special, Sean, that I quoted you and put that as my title.

Don't you hate it when you wake up in the middle of the night for some unknown reason, and just sit completely up in bed, all disoriented and such, and then look at the clock and think, "Shit, I still have time left to sleep. Why the hell am I up now?" That happened to me this morning, and usually I'll wake up, but not sit completely up in bed; I'll just be laying there, and open my eyes. This morning I actually sat up all wide eyed, and got all pissed that I was up at that time. I know, I'm weird. Maybe it just happens to me. :shrug:

And another question: Isn't it just so damn wonderful when a fellow employee wears wwwaaaaayyyyyyy too much fragrance?? I don't usually get affected by it, but damn!! This new guy who is cleaning the bathrooms now wears so much cologne, it lingers in the fucking closet for about half an hour after he leaves!! And it is awful cologne. It doesn't even smell the slightest bit good. Me and the girl who I'm replacing (tomorrow's her last day) call him Stinky. We got to the area called "C-core", and he was cleaning the bathrooms earlier there, and we could still smell his cologne. Goddamn!! I know I use a lot of perfume, but not the whole bottle at once!! Seriously, I spray myself with perfume long before I leave the house for work to let it settle so it's not overwhelming, and sometimes you can't even smell it, cause it ends up being pretty light. I like smelling good. I love perfume. I have an addiction to smelly good things, and I wear a different scent every day (I must have at least 20 bottles of spray/perfume). But this guy goes way overboard. The trasher dude said, "Well, maybe he's trying to smell good for the ladies." I said, "I think he's scaring them away!" Honestly.

That said, I don't have really any news to report, other than spending a godawful amount of money on Christmas presents, but what else is new, right? I spent 2 hours at the mall last night, and I think I'm a bit over half done. The kids shopping should be simple. There's an overabundance of choices of toys I can pick from, so I don't think that'll be too hard. Of course, Melissa choosing between things can be a difficult thing, as I am too indecisive. So we'll just see how this turns out. But, anyway, I ended the night shopping at Ross for myself. Heh, I spent a lot on myself, but I needed stuff, dammit! When you haven't gone clothes shopping for a couple of years, your stuff wears out, and no matter how you take care of it, it doesn't matter. A few years of wearing the stuff repeatedly will do that. So, I bought a couple of pairs of jeans, a shirt, and some socks, and a belt. I think I'll be going back to the mall next week, so I just may acquire more than that.

Alrighty, now's the time to say goodbye. I will be back tomorrow afternoon, and if Sean doesn't monopolize my time as he always ends up doing as I am trying to read email/blog/blogread, etc, maybe I'll get this out earlier. Who knows? Well, I'm gonna end this with a few more quotes, though more serious than Sean's wonderful words of wisdom at the top. Have a superb night and morning!! I hope everyone is doing well!!! Love you all!!!
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"Don't waste time learning the "tricks of the trade." Instead, learn the trade."
--James Charlton

"I never forget a face but in your case I'll make an exception."
--Groucho Marx
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Bub bye now!!!

I know, that sounds like a young kid wrote that, but that's how I felt today. Not because I woke up in a yucky mood, or felt bad, but I had a crappy surprise this morning. I walk into the building, and my supervisor, Jason, decides to tell me that I'd be cleaning the bathrooms for just today, and then go back to training with the other girl, Amy. I almost cried. That was not nice news to give me first thing Monday morning. Especially when you haven't done that for about 4-5 days, thought you'd never have to deal with that bullshit again, and know that almost every damn department had mandatory overtime, so the place is gonna look like a total shithole. (Excuse the language; I'm not too fond of how my day started)

Once I got done the one building's bathrooms, I wasn't in such a bad mood, and I was just getting back in the swing of things, and then I get the freaking cart out of the closet, and the wheel is messed up. The rubber on it was split down the middle, and it was a real bitch to try to push that thing. So I called the boss, and he told me Jason'd be down in 15 minutes. Well, I was almost done the first two bathrooms, which take all of about 45 minutes to get done for both, and I heard Jason page me. I didn't hear the extension number, so I said "F--- that, he'll page me again." (Not to mention, I forgot where the nearest phone was, so I didn't feel like wasting my time looking for one; I was late already, dammit!!) He didn't page me again, but him and the boss came strolling down to find me, and Jason told me that after my break, he'd replace the wheel. Well, that was quite a show there. Him and this other dude that does the "trashing" (aka pushing dumpsters, and emptying them) had one hell of a time trying to get the wheel off. And I'm standing there thinking, "If only Josh were here..." So, that made me even later, and because of all the nasty filth on the floor, I mopped each bathroom, and I ended up having to skip 3 bathrooms. I supplied it, but I knew the second shift bathroom cleaner was coming in, and I had to do what I had to do. I wasn't gonna kill myself, and she's done it to me, so that was another "f--- it" thought I had today. I hate doing that, but it wasn't exactly my fault the damn wheel got fucked up.

So. That was the gist of my day. I won't go into anymore details; I'm sure you don't want to hear the lovely happenings of the bathroom cleaner, anyway. I told as many of the guys that I've been getting to know about the new position I have, and this one forklift driver, Tony, asked me if I ever thought about modeling. He said that I'm pretty enough to do it. When someone tells you that, it's hard to know how to react. Especially when it's some 30-40 year old guy who's married telling you that. He's a real nice guy, but that did catch me off-guard.

Everyone else was really nice about the news, and I'm gonna miss some of those guys, but some of 'em just freak me the hell out, and I'm glad I won't have to work around them any more. Most of them aren't of the latter group, tho.

After work, I came home and took my shower, cause I felt real dirty and sweaty after cleaning those nasty-ass bathrooms, and then I took a trip to Walmart. I needed to find a cheap winter coat, that wasn't dry-clean only, for work, and I found some other things I needed, so I was happy about that. I saw my one buddy there; apparently she's working there now. I haven't seen her for quite a bit, so that was nice. I wanted to stop and try to have a short convo, but she was talking to her boss, so I figured that would be a bad idea. I should call her sometime, and see if we can get together. At least I know she's still in the area, anyway. I may do that tonight. Hmmm....

Anyway, I shall go now. I know this wasn't a very inspiring post, but I've had a bad day, and I really didn't wanna blog too much tonight, but I decided to to let you all now I'm still alive. So yes, (to quote one of the residents at my weekend job) "I'm still pluggin along." :o) Well guys and gals, have a wonderful night, and Tuesday morning!!!

I went home last night all pissed about the Mary Kay package thing, but it was sitting there waiting when I walked in the door. So, I was very thrilled about that. Then, of course I stayed up way too late last night organizing things, not just the stuff I got from the Mary Kay order, but other things around my room and such. I'm so tired now. Bleh.

But I had a very good day, and I think I will enjoy myself immensely with the new job. Yes, I told them I'd take the job, and I was supposed to go back to cleaning the bathrooms tomorrow, even if I did choose to take the new job, but the boss told me I would be with the other girl, training. So, another easy day for me tomorrow.

Damn, I am not at all liking the weather forecast for tomorrow and the weekend. Snow is not a good thing. I just don't want it. It may be pretty to look at, but it is just a big pain in the ass if you've gotta be out driving about in it. Not gonna be very happy if I look out the window tomorrow morning, and it's completely white. That means it's a suck-ass driving trip home, and I won't be coming here if it's that bad. So, that would explain if there is no word from me tomorrow. But I dunno how much they're forecasting, so I might be making a mountain out of a mole hill.

Ah well, I know there was more to blog about, but my heart isn't into it. I dunno why it's been like that lately; maybe because I go home after work, take a shower and then come here. A lot of my good stuff pops into my head in that time period, and I get all excited to get here, but I get sidetracked and stuff, and by the time I get home again tonight, the night's half over for me to do laundry and other crap. In fact, the other night, I didn't even eat dinner til about 7 something. Damn, it's getting late already!! I think I may have to re-think my time schedule here. I think taking my shower right when I get home from work is a good idea, but I'm starting to think that maybe I should just head on over here right after work, and then go home early and take my shower then. I dunno. I know I think too much, but ever since I've been doing this routine after work this week, I've been too tired, I don't get to bed early enough, and I'm eating too late. I know tonight I'm skipping a lot of stuff online, since I want to leave in a few minutes, but I still won't have a hell of a lot of time. Well, I'll try to shower after stopping by here tomorrow (if I am coming over), and then I can leave earlier, and get more done. Ah well. I'll figure out something that works. I just know I have to change something, otherwise it'll just keep annoying me.

Well, here's a couple of quotes for ya, and have a good night, and a great day tomorrow!!! :oD

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"The key to a woman's heart is an unexpected gift at an unexpected time."
- Sean Connery as William Forrester in "Finding Forrester"

"Some people think only intellect counts -- knowing how to solve problems, knowing how to get by, knowing how to identify an advantage and seize it. But the functions of
intellect are insufficient without courage, love, friendship, compassion and empathy."
-- Dean Koontz

Just a question: How late do UPS guys work? I'm really curious, because it is now 5:30 pm, the arrival date is still today, and it's still in transit. Goddammit. I'm not liking the UPS service at the particular moment!

Like I stated a few moments ago, I'm too damn impatient.

I'm waaaaay too impatient today. Just ask Sean. I checked my Mary Kay order, and it says it's "in transit" and it left at 8 something this morning, and I just keep checking it, but I see nothing new there. I'm gonna cry if it's not at home when I get there. Seriously. I feel like such a little spoiled kid about it, like waiting for Christmas, and then waking up at like 4 am on Christmas morning and realizing you have to wait another few hours. Dammit. I am not that patient. Never have been, and I doubt that I ever will. Gah.

Well, I have found out some more news about the job. I am going to follow around the girl who is quitting tomorrow for the entire day to see what she does, and I can decide after that whether I want it or not. I think I already have my answer of course, but I'm just going with the flow here. I get a break from my real job anyway, so all is good. And it's payday tomorrow, and I found out that I will be getting paid for the holidays, unlike what was originally thought (Did I write about that yesterday? Damn, I can't remember. Well, if I did, sorry for repeating myself; just so happy about that lil bit of news). Let's see, what other news did I have?? Oh this is not so good news. I also found out that if I do take the new job, then they may offer the first shift position to the now second shift bathroom cleaner. Remember, the one who nearly drove me to murder?? Not really murder, but close. I wanted to get away from her asap. Now, she has the chance to work the same shift as me, and I know I'll be seeing her too much for my liking in that situation. That's another thing I may cry about.

Ah, I almost forgot my dream. It wasn't of a sexual nature (which seems weird not to have anything to do with sex for me), but it really was a bit weird. I was dreaming that I was at my grandmother's house with my sister, and the barn that my grandmother apparently was supposed to own (which isn't really there in the real world) was burning down, and I was completely freaking out. I was so upset, and the firefighters weren't getting there fast enough...it was not a pleasant dream, to say the least. I hope tomorrow I wake up to a nicer dream.

Well, I don't have much else to talk about. Hopefully I will be more energetic tomorrow, and have more to blog about. Other than that, enjoy the quotes below, have a grand ol' night, and I will be back tomorrow!!

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"Listen or your tongue will keep you deaf."
--Native American Proverb

"If you help others, you will be helped, perhaps tomorrow, perhaps in one hundred years, but you will be helped. Nature must pay off the debt.... It is a mathematical law and all life is mathematics."
--Gurdjieff

"When you can't have what you want, it's time to start wanting what you have."
--Kathleen A. Sutton

"Desperation is sometimes as powerful an inspirer as genius."
--Benjamin Disraeli

I'm soo happy!!

I'm in pretty damn good mood now. Of course, the morning sucked major ass, to be blunt, but by the end of lunch, I was a very happy girl. Why, you ask? Well, my boss came to sit down at my lunch table (he's a cool guy, so I don't get weirded out by the fact he's my boss), and he told me that the girl I was talking about yesterday who is quitting just gave notice of her quitting, and he asked me if I wanted the job. I was jumping up and down in my mind at this point, and so I just said, "Well, what exactly does she do?" And he told me the gist of what she does, and I'm like "Yeah!!!" It sounds like she's got such a piece of cake job compared to the stupid shit I have to do. I'm not saying her job is completely easy, but just easier than mine since she doesn't have to run around like a chicken with its head cut off to try to get every-damn-thing done that needs to, plus do extras since you know damn well the peson on second shift that is supposed to do part of it, isn't. I just think I'd be happier, even if I would miss a lot of the people I've kinda gotten to know in the main building (I would only be working in the opposite building all day). But it would probably just work out better for me to take the job, since my wrist has been bothering me for a while now. I broke my left wrist in 9th grade from an infamous four-wheeler accident (plus a broken collarbone and pinky, all on the same side), and that's the hand I have to use to wring out the mop with, and the one mop bucket I use is harder to push the handle down, and it's been bothering me for a few weeks. So, if I'd take her job when she leaves, then I wouldn't have to do that constantly and risk really injuring myself from it. So yeah, that'd be a good thing. And, I wouldn't have to walk the Link 3 times a day. There's this thing, it almost looks like a tunnel, and it takes about 3-5 minutes walking from one building to the other if you're walking a pretty good speed. I'm getting quite a lot of exercise from it, but damn am I ready to just plop on the couch and nap for an hour after that!

I don't nap for an hour when I get home, by the way. I come here instead, and blog!! Just for all you guys; my fans!! ;o) I also happen to be too lazy to open a window in Internet Explorer to get a real smiley for that wink I just typed in. Too tired for that even. :oP

Oh, yeah, the boss also complimented me on the work I'm doing too, so that was an added confidence booster there. I finally feel like I'm included in the place now that the people have said I'm doing a good job. Of course, I thought I was doing an okay job before that, but when you've got the kind of job that I have, where you don't normally get compliments, it's always nice to know you're appreciated. It can keep ya going for a long time just hearing someone tell you you're doing a good job for all the shit you gotta put up with. It almost makes it worth it. So, yeah. I'm in a pretty good mood now just from hearing that. Helps me be in a better state of mind for tomorrow.

I need to ask a question: Why would a grown adult put a freakin newspaper section in the toilet?? Just curious, cause I was greeted by that in one of the bathrooms today. Made me wonder if someone was just being a jackass, or if someone was just throwing the paper back into the stall (which there shouldn't be a freaking paper in in the first place!!), and accidentally made it in there. Hmmm...Honestly, people really make me wonder if I'm just weird, or if it's them. Cause I'm not so sure anymore. Maybe it's just me, and that's the norm these days. Weird.....

Anyway, I'm gonna get goin now. It's getting late, and I wanna go lazy around for a bit before I need to call my hunny. Have a great night, guys and gals, and I will be back tomorrow!! :o)
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Oooh, I haven't been giving you quotes lately; sorry. I dunno if anyone actually wants me to post them, but here's some for ya:

"Love, whether newly born, or aroused from a deathlike slumber, must always create sunshine, filling the heart so full of radiance, this it overflows upon the outward world."
--Nathaniel Hawthorne

"It is foolish and wrong to mourn the men who died. Rather, we should thank God that such men lived."
--George S. Patton, Jr

Alrighty, bub bye now!! :o)

Hey there!!

Sorry, I'm at a lack for what would be a good title. I'm very tired now. I was all energetic earlier; I went grocery shopping, and went to a few other places, but now I just feel beat. Bleh. I blame Sean for writing too long posts and forcing me to read them. Just kidding about the forcing me to read them. I like reading them, but damn! that guy can just talk!! Anyway, I found this idea off of Whitney's blog, which she got off of someone else's, and this is the actual post she stole it from. So I decided I would join in on the fun too! Actually, there's not much to it, since it's basically cutting and pasting.

NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. (sometimes) Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. (Dunno about this one) Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. (Heh, I can't say I always think, since I do stupid things quite often) Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciates praises. (Hell, I'm not gonna lie, after all) High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. (I certainly hope I'm not!!) Hardworking.(Again, sometimes) High abilities. (This too is questionable.) Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable. (Big yes to this one!!!)

Here's Josh's:

JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. (I would say not most times.) Choosy and always wants the best. (Heh, I can definately agree with that one!!) Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. (Yes, very active imagination!!!) Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. (No, no, NO!! We just had a convo about that one) Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions.(I would say only certain emotions, not all of them make an apperance, but yet he doesn't really always hide them) Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious.(To an extent; he only wants the best quality) Executive. (?????)Stubborn. (To put up with me, I don't think this quality really applies)

Anyway, Whitney also made the blog a second time with her great quote:

"It's been far too long since I purchased any new skanky underwear."

Heh, that was a great one. It also applies to me, and I'm not quite proud of that fact.

Anyway, my parents finally were able to get a new vehicle. It's a freaking mini-van, though. It's the biggest vehicle I've ever driven, and, of course, it's windy as hell out there, so driving in a straight line was a bit of challenge a few times, since I'm not used to it, but it's not that difficult now that I've been out and about with it all day. Yes, I had today off, as it was part of my "holiday" (that I'm not getting paid for), since I didn't start a month before Thanksgiving (I was a day late with that, otherwise I woulda been paid for these 3 days), but starting with X-mas, my holidays will be paid from then on. Yay!! I had to work the weekend, but it didn't suck as much, since I had these 3 days off. Quite honestly, I got so bored on Friday, just sitting and doing nothing. That's not how I am all the time, so it was weird, but I've been that way a lot since I've started the job. Today, I've been driving around, and after I finish this, I'm thinkin I'll go get more shopping done, and then go home. By the way, I did finally start the X-mas shopping on Saturday. Sounds sad, but I actually just went to CVS, and saw a SpongeBob X-mas tape, and decided that would be a good one for my nephew, and I also got a few things from the gift shop at work, so I think I'm doing pretty good at this point. I also have some stuff meant as gifts coming in from places I ordered from, so that also helps. I'm still trying to decide on the plan of attack for my hunny's gifts. I'm afraid if I buy it now, he'll go out and get it himself. Which is a possibility. So, I think I'll be waiting another week or two, just to try to avoid that problem. Hopefully it'll just all work out.

Alrighty, I really have to get going now. Have a wonderful night, and I should be back tomorrow!! Bub bye now!!!