Well, I fell on my ass today at work. Literally. It wasn't fun, but I thought it was funny as hell, cause I musta looked like such an idiot! Hahahah, I'm laughing about it now, as I type this. It was right outside of the guardhouse, and the guard must've seen me, cause he opened the door, and looked at me, and I;m like, "I'm okay!" all the while laughing. And then I thought I bruised my right ass cheek (sorry if I'm getting too detailed here) cause I could still kinda feel where I fell on my ass, but it went away after an hour, and I feel nothing now. I'm young, I heal quick, so I don't think I'm in trouble or anything.

I also got the van stuck at the end of the driveway last night. Hahah that was actually kinda funny too. But finally getting to bed at 10:30 last night, was not funny at all!! First, I got the van stuck, then me and my mom and my sis tried to push it out of there, but that wasn't workin, so my sis gets the "brilliant" idea to try to go around the van, right into the big ass snow drift mind you, stops right in the middle of the snow drift, and says, "Get your stuff, and put it in the car. We'll just take this." I'm like, "I think you're gonna get stuck." She said, "We'll see." And guess what?? She got stuck too. Heh. Duh!!

Anyway, I called Josh, and he picked me up to take me out to my grandmother's, but before we left, we got the van un-stuck, and my sis was kinda pissed about that; I guess cause she was mad that "a man" had to come over and get it un-stuck. Haha, she is really a bitch most of the time. Okay, I lie: just about all of the time.

Well, I'm not as into this as I had hoped I'd be, so I'll go now. Have a wonderful night, guys!!!

Motherfuck! The last two posts are now gone! Even Sean had read them yesterday when I was online talking to him! I dunno what is going on, but this really fucking sucks!!

(This was supposed to be Thursday night's post, but something was not working, so I couldn't post it. Here it is a day late!)

Geez, if I knew I wasn't allergic to anything, I would really start to wonder now. All day I've had those weird bouts of sneezes, like 5 of 'em right in a row, really quick, and it's been bugging the hell out of me. I usually get one of those bouts first thing in the morning, but I've been dealing with them all day now. Damn it's annoying!

Ah, I went to the mall last night. By the time I was done, I had a Prince cd (Purple Rain, if you must know; the cassette I had wore out), 14 pairs of new underwear from Victoria's Secret (which I applied for their account thingy), and a new shirt. And, of course, I spent waaaaaayyyyy too much. The cause of that was the panties, but we'll not discuss exactly how much I put towards them. Let's just say I won't be doing any more underwear shopping for a long time.

Anyway, my wonderful darlin of a boyfriend showed up unexpectedly, at 8:30 (my bedtime), and stayed til 9, but it was a nice little visit. I was very happy to see him, and vice versa (heh heh, I know what you're thinkin, and no, there was no sex!), so I was extremely tired today. I couldn't shake that sluggishness all day. I tried, I really did, but even me and Sean's convo was beginning to see the signs of being too tired to converse. It's really bad when it gets to that point. Anyway, I kinda hope Josh shows up again tonight, but I wanna go to bed early, so if he does, he better damn well not be showin up that freakin late again! One night is enough, then I just get pissy after that. I don't care how much I love him; if he's gonna be keepin me up too late, he will be dealing with a very bitchy Melissa.

Mike is back in Florida for 5 days, that little shit. He was all rubbing it in yesterday, too: "Now remember, when you're leaving work tomorrow, I'll be in 70 degree weather! I'm not rubbing it in or anything..." Damn him. He was also saying how he was gonna wave to me when I passed him outside of work. He's like, "Now if you see someone waving to you like this" (he waved his hand) "then you know it's me." And I told him back, "And if you see someone giving you the finger back, then you know you got the right person!"

Well, I must be going now. It's after 5, and I need to go home and do my laundry so I have clean jeans for work tomorrow (and, no I will not wear my "good" jeans to work, since they are 1) too tight, and *certain people* would be liking it a bit too much, and 2) I don't want to ruin them, cause I will if I decide to wear them to Knoll's. It's just a fact. It doesn't matter if I'm only cleaning a certain spot for the day, it's just too damn dirty to take the chance. Unless, of course, there is a social event, outside of work, then I might wear my nice jeans. ;o) Anyway, have a great night!!!!

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"Fun was all the truth we needed."
--Eve Babitz, Black Swans

"Some people are always grumbling because roses have thorns. I am thankful that thorns have roses."
--Allophones Karr
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Heh, that's the book, I checked out of the library last night. The admirer saw it, and was like, "And I thought you were all innocent..." It was a funny little convo. I just thought that would be a good title for the post. Which has to be short and sweet, since I'm leaving to go to the mall in about 3-4 minutes. So...

I had a really great day. A lot of good conversation, plus I found out that if I time it right, I can go socialize right before I leave work every day, so I may be doing that every day now. Heh.

Ew, I had the nastiest microwave to clean today. This one guy, Jack, came up to me and asked if I could clean a microwave for them when I got the chance. Now, I knew that if the men were asking for it to be cleaned, it had to be disgusting! So, I get the good ol' plastic measuring cup, a bottle of degreaser, and a bunch of paper towels, and head over there, expecting maybe 10-15 minutes at the most to clean this thing. No. Half an hour!!!!! Just cleaning it! That time doesn't include the boiling of the water in the measuring cup, or moving it down so I could reach it. Just the actual scrubbing took that long! It wasn't even all that much scrubbing; it came off good, but there was just so much gunk, it took forever to clear it off the inside! Ugh.

Anyway, I would love to talk about my day more, but I really have to get goin now. I'm sorry I didn't blog yesterday either; I was having an in-depth convo with Sean, so the bloggin just wasn't happenin. Anyway, have a great night!!!!!

The problem with weekends is that when you have a job where you work every other weekend, and only have 2 off every month is that when you have a somewhat sucky weekend, it seems doubly so. And my weekend was very boring, and I was kinda being a bit bitchy to my honey, and I just thought it was a waste. So blah. That also makes for a sucky blog post.

I am really tired, and for some reason, I guess because I wasn't doing anything for two days straight, my legs are achy, and my arm is somewhat sore from being back at work. Dammit. It makes a Monday just suck ass so much.

Oh, before I forget, I gotta post these two horoscopes. I just think it's interesting, and kinda gets me looking forward to this week:

PERSONAL LIFE: ***

There are some memorable moments to be spent with those you love most. Harmony and intimacy are highlighted and this will bring you closer to
someone who remains somewhat of a mystery to you. Someone is waiting in the wings to take your mind of your troubles and show you something new.

That was the weekly one, and here's the one that was for today, but ended up being somewhat more than that:

Private Life: *

There are new developments just around the corner, and new elements will be entering your love life before the end of january.

So yeah, I'm just waitin to see what happens there. Maybe something good with Josh???? I'm hoping.

And crap, I want to go to the grocery store (well, not want to go, have to go), and go to the library, and go to the mall. Now, I could do two of those things, but I don't feel like it, so I may have to do the library tomorrow night, and then the mall on wednesday, and just go do grocery shopping tonight. Damn tho I'd rather do any of them but the grocery store tonight. Bleh.

I guess I'm just not in a wonderful mood tonight, sorry. I tried. I'm just tired, and I think I sorta picked up on the admirer's bad mood again. He told me he was probably gonna be like that for awhile, so I hope I can stop myself from getting all depressed from it. I dunno why, but I do that a lot for my close friends, and I just feel really bad now for him. Although I can't say he was being smart, I'm still empathetic about it. No matter what, breaking up is very hard, and if you're sensitive, it's even harder. And that's how I am, so I know it must be hard. I don't like to see my buddies unhappy. It's not fair.

Anyway, one bit of news: my buddy Crystal has finally come back to blogging a little bit, so if you're interested, go read!!

I gotta get goin if I'm gonna get anything done now. Have a great night guys!!!! (Heh, that's what I'll be doin when I get home!)

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"We judge ourselves by what we feel capable of doing while others judge us by what we have already done."
--Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
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Dammit, Sean, are you actually doing real work again?!?! You're supposed to be talking to me! Seriously tho, I was all looking forward to chattin with ya, and you're not on. You suck.

Heh, I'm such a distraction for everyone working these days.

I had a very good day at work!! I will get to most of it later, but I do wanna write about something quick first. I don't have time to type up everything I was writing last night as I was still in that sad mood, and I wrote one hell of a lot, but like I said, I don't have the time. I thought I would, but other things came up. Anyway, I will be typing it on Monday, as far as I know, so be expecting that then.

So, I will start with the most shocking news of the day: two people work at the same place I do, that live in my neighborhood (well, one does, and the other used to), and I graduated with their son, but I didn't even realize who they were!!! I knew she looked familiar, but since I haven't seen her for years, I hadn't made the connection. And his dad, well, I recognized him more than her, but I didn't make the connection there, either. She came up to me and told me who she was, and that's when everything clicked. Except that I still didn't realize that his dad worked there, until my dad mentioned it, and then I remembered seeing him driving home when we were walking home from the bus when I was back in school. I was friends with the son, too, so that's why it was such a shock. That was just so freakin weird. But yet, both of them are really nice, so I'm not really all that weirded out working with them. Heck, one of my other school buddies mom works there. Except she worked second shift, and now I dunno if I'll be seeing her at all, but that's a different story. I have to tell Josh about it tho, cause he was friends with that kid whose parents work there, too. He'll be surprised as well, I think.

Oh, and my big mouth. Well, I was talking to the mom like I said, and I said, "Well, say hi to Josh for me!" (His name is also Josh). And she's like, "Oh, I don't live there anymore; the kids live with their dad." I was thinkin, 'Oh fuck, Melissa! Dammit!' So yeah, that was a bit awkward. But I'm still in shock about this.

Anyway, that was only part of the good day. Today was payday (well, yesterday was, but the checks aren't dated til the Friday after we get them, and I knew we were having training today, so why walk over there 2 days in a row, especially at the end of the day, when the boss paged me yesterday?? Didn't make much sense, so I told him to hold it for me so I could just get it today). Ah, and the admirer made sure to visit a lot today, and I also finally remembered those damn pics I kept bitching about. Then, later on in the day, he comes up to me and says, "Why did you lie to me?" When he said that, I thought, 'WTF?' But then he's like, "You told me you weren't photogenic." I was like, "Oh ok." I honestly thought I did something wrong, but I know I didn't so that's why it was confusing. Anyway, I'm beginning to wonder about something here, and I will have to wait to find out about it, and I will let ya know later on when I find out for sure if I am right. Sorry, don't mean to be all weird about it, but I don't wanna jump to conclusions here.

Ah, and I kinda found out what was bothering him so much, other than having to do with his girlfriend. I wanted to give him advice, but I figured that he wouldn't listen to me, who is only 20 years old and all. Most adults I know in real life are like that; they won't listen to me cause I'm "too inexperienced." I'm not too inexperienced in every damn thing, ya know! Ugh.

Anyway, I must go. I need to get the van home before it gets too late to take a shower before my Joshie gets there to pick me up. So have a wonderful weekend, guys!!!
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"There are some days I practice positive thinking, and other days I'm not positive I am thinking."
--Dr John M. Eades
Heh, I think this should have a permanent place on this blog, like on the sidebar or something. I think it's too good to use it once, and not use it again. It describes me all too well.

I decided that maybe I should post a quote again every day, but for tonight, I'm posting these, and I'll start that tomorrow. Anyway, here ya go:

"Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. The fearful are caught as often as the bold."
--Helen Keller

"Peace is not the absence of war; it is a virtue; a state of mind; a disposition for benevolence; confidence; and justice."
--Spinoza

Damn, I really gotta condition my cuticles more. They hurt. And that's not good. Anyway, have a great night guys!!!

You would not believe how pissed I really was when I got here. Apparently, my bro in law decided out of the blue to reformat the computer, with no warning, except the one he gave a few weeks ago. By now, I thought he had forgotten. But no. The fucker decided to do it last night. I lost quite a bit that I hadn't recently saved to a cd, so I'm really not happy about it. I finally got this working again. I had to re-install wbloggar, and then I couldn't get it to work, but that was just a little technicality, so I messed around with it til I got it workin, so I'm glad to be bloggin again. I was ever so pissed. Just ask Sean. Our convo basically consisted of me bitching about the bro in law, and how much this sucks, and that I had to get offline for a minute to do this, etc. So you see how my after-work time has gone so far? Still not too happy anymore.

I was in a decently good mood, even tho I was a bit disappointed again today. Yes, unfortunately, it was because of the admirer. We talked a little bit early on, and it was a good little chat, but he didn't come over and talk to me while I was in either of the cores when I knew he was there. Bastard. I saw him standing there, and I wanted to show him those pics I mentioned yesterday (which I had forgotten about before when I was talking to him), but he never showed up. I doubt he'll be talking to me much anymore. It seems that now that I'm not his main focus, he doesn't care to converse. Well, I'm hurt by that. If anyone would do that to me, I'd be hurt. And this is just too much. At least I had other people talking to me today. At least they're not letting their bad moods keep them from trying to have a break from the work. Maybe I am interested in him, but it doesn't matter. It's not like I can do anything about it, and I love Josh too much to let anything happen to that. But I still want to talk to the guy, and at least be friends with him. And he's not helping by ignoring me. I know he didn't completely ignore me today, but part of it is that I know damn well he used to make the time to stop by and talk a bit after lunch in the cores, and now that he's not trying to hit on me, the fucker isn't bothering. Well, I got used to that and enjoyed that break, ya know? It kinda ends the day on a shitty note, especially when I wanna talk to him about something specific, when he's not there. Yes I miss him. I missed Mike last week, but I knew he wasn't anywhere in the building, so it didn't bug me as much to miss out of that talking time. He was standing rightthefuckthere!! Dammit. I'm getting too involved here. Maybe he should just not talk to me whatsoever, and then I would just think he's an asshole, and that would be the end of it. I hate this so much. Because I actually start to care, even if it might be more than I want to, and he just fucking disappears. Damn.

I also feel like I'm betraying Josh by craving this time to talk to the admirer. I know it's bad, but I'm not gonna deny how I feel. It won't go away by ignoring it. I've tried it, believe me. I've tried. It don't work. It's not like I plan to do anything with him that would be considered cheating, but yet I feel like I'm getting somewhat emotionally attached, and that's cheating in a sense. Me and Josh are so perfect for each other, or at least I believe he's perfect for me, that I don't wanna lose that just because I meet some guy who sparks my interest and pays me attention that Josh used to give but doesn't anymore. The only reason why I hate this blog is because I have a rule for myself: don't deny what you're feeling, and put it in the blog because it's a purging place for everything. And it sucks because Josh may very well find this at any time, and read it and be completely hurt by it. But I'm still posting this because I have to be honest to myself. And this is one of the only places I can be completely honest, but yet it will come back to bite me in the ass. Of course, if Josh or one of his friends reads this, or if even the damn admirer reads it, then I'm screwed. I don't even know how to explain myself. Damn.

I think I may just have to start being the way I was with the admirer at first. I wasn't as friendly as I am now, and I didn't just talk freely. Maybe if I do that, maybe it won't seem like such a bad thing when we don't talk, because the convos will start to suck, and I won't wanna deal with that. All I know is I must stay away from him if I am to stop this now. If it wouldn't bother me at the end of the day so bad, I might just let it go. But this is really starting to hurt. So I need to just get away.

I feel sick now, because of this. I'm so confused and pissed off that I am even writing this. Maybe I'm overanalyzing things, and all I really want is a friend. Who the hell knows anymore???

I wish I knew what to write here. I can't write exactly how I'm feeling at the present moment. I'm just kinda depressed, without knowing the real reason why, and I think it had to do with work. Ever since I talked to the admirer today, I've been in this kind of mood. Dammit, being moody all the fucking time sucks.

Speaking of the admirer, I don't think his love life's goin too well at the moment. He asked me about Josh today, and then said, "Well, keep a hold of him and don't let go." Damn, how more cryptic can you get than that?? (And it makes me more than a little curious that maybe he stumbled upon the ol' blog here) It's probably because he's having problems with that girl he was talking about yesterday, but that convo really got me in a serious, and weird mood for the rest of the day. Not to mention, I was pissed that he didn't stop by to chat for a quick minute like he used to, so I couldn't show him the pics I brought in. Maybe he just passed his bad mood onto me or something. Although, I really think something is wrong with him, cause he keeps bringing up that his life has basically gone to hell lately, and I dunno what to say about it, since we don't really have time to talk about it, nor do I even know if he really wants to even talk about it. All I know is that by storing that kind of shit up inside, it does more harm than good, and that's kinda why I feel bad for not really talking to him. Maybe tomorrow. Of course, if he's in a better mood, then I guess it won't apply. Ah well.

Damn, I was just staring off into space for a really long time. I really must be in a strange mood. Maybe it's the snow that's coming tonight. Who knows??

Maybe that is it! The snow!! Maybe it's because in the back of my mind I'm thinking some of my buds won't come into work tomorrow because of the snow, and it'll be all lonely there without them! Well, maybe that's it. Hmmm....

Geez, it's 4:30 already. I guess that means I should get going. Have a good night and day tomorrow!!!

I found something funny out today. At least I thought it was funny. It also will probably creep some of you out, because it is kinda creepy. But anyway.

The admirer is a photographer, which I've mentioned before, right? Right. Well. He was telling me about how he was talking to this girl last night about a modeling shoot, and if he still wanted to do it. And while he was on the subject of this, he proceeded to tell me about how he told "this girl I've been seeing" (yes, we'll get to that in due time) how she wasn't shocked at all about the fact he took nude pics.

Holy hell!! I was shocked, to say the least, but not as much as I woulda been if Mike woulda said that he took nude pics (ahahahahahaha, that absolutely cracks me up; if you knew the guy, you would understand), cause me and Sean had been talking about that before, and we both weren't sure if that was the case. Well, that was the case alright. Heh. I still think it's funny. He told me he does other, regular model shoots, but still, it's funny and creepy at the same time. I thought to myself, 'I wonder if that's what kind of modeling he had in mind for me...'

But seriously, in his defense, the girl who he had been talking about that called him last night about it, was calling about getting the nude pics taken. It was her idea. I don't think he goes up to random women and asks them if they've ever thought about that type of modeling.

Unless he's just the ultimate perv/jackass. Which I'm hoping not.

Well, onto the "girl I've been seeing" part. I dunno what that means, or if it even means I'll be seeing less of him. So far I haven't. At least not noticeably much less. I still think he's nice to talk to, and I'll miss the convos if he does stop talking to me, but I don't see that happening anytime soon. He's not creeping me out, or hitting on me that much, and he's even backed off quite a bit. I talk to him like a friend now, but I still make sure I don't talk about too many personal details, and I also keep mentioning Josh. A lot. Heh heh. I'm good. I know that annoys the hell out of guys, when they encounter a chick who won't stop talking about her boyfriend. I should mention something about having big burly type male friends or something. I still don't think that'll get him to go away completely. I really don't care to send him away completely anyway. I'm not that much of a bitch.

Ah well. Now I can't remember what I was gonna write. Damn.

I better get goin now anyway. It's gettin late, I haven't even changed out of my work clothes, I have laundry to do, as well as dishes to clean, and I have to stop by CVS to get dental floss since stupid me ran out of the shit last night, and hadn't remembered to pick some up at the store only hours earlier. So. This is goodbye. Have a wonderful night and day, guys!!

Sean cracks me the hell up: "I thought she was dead before, though she wasn't, so this time I made sure to poke her." (Go to his blog to find out what he was talking about.)

Don't ya just love it when ya have a post all typed up and the internet program that were just bitching about decides to screw you over, and you can't really save what you just wrote because the editor thingy you use needs to be online in order to actually post what you've written and you can't do that since you're not online, and the whole freakin computer seems to hate you at that very moment, and forces you to restart, so you just lose everything you just spent 15 minutes typing?

Yeah, I have that feeling this very moment. And Melissa's not too happy about it.

The sad part is that I can't even remember what I wanted to type, except for Sean's quote that I went back to his blog to get again, and that I was complaining about AOL. Son of a bitch.

Ah well. I gotta get goin now to go grocery shopping. Oh how fun! (insert sarcastic voice here)

Have a great night!!!

I'm not really too happy right now. I'm kinda depressed now, because of what's been going on these past few days, as well as what soon might be happening within the next month. First, I know Carol is moving soon, I dunno when, but I do know sometime around spring or before then, and I won't be seeing her too much til then. The next thing I'm upset about is what's been happening at work. There's gonna be a bunch of layoffs starting next Friday, and it's all because the bosses screwed up. They made all these poor people work mandatory overtime, and now that the month of December is over with, they realized they had too much product for the orders they got, and so they overproduced, and they decided to now layoff those same people. WTF????? Of course, it's supposedly temporary, (I think they said it'll last 6 weeks), but it still makes no difference to me. I think it's unfair, and quite honestly rude, but that's just the way it works. I can't change it obviously. So all my good buddies are basically gonna be gone for 6 weeks, and I'll be really bored and depressed about it.
And it's based on seniority, so the ones who have been there the longest get to stay. I don't talk to many of those that have been there a long time, so that doesn't help me. Damn! Why do they have to mess up like that, and screw the innocent people over that are just doing what they were told. Bastards.

On another happier note, my boss told me I was doing an excellent job, so I'm quite happy about that. In fact, I was really happy about that, until the whole layoff thing started to bother me. I couldn't even quite end the day like normal, because they took all the tables out of the cafeteria, and put rows of chairs up for the "big meeting" on Monday. So that threw me off so much so that it made me feel like this. I wanna cry. At least I still have another full week to talk to these people, and then hopefully I will see them soon. I hope. I think I'll even miss the admirer because I'm getting used to these mini-convo's we have, and I really do like him as a person, but I tend to do that to most people. I really try to see everyone's good side, and only if they really are hard to get along with do I ever dislike someone. Believe me, most of Josh's friends probably think I hate them cause they're over so often, and cutting into me and Josh time, but I really like all of em. Even Eric, who seems to be paranoid that I don't like him because he doesn't understand those girls who just aren't chatterboxes and all ditzy-like. At least, that's just my thought. Seriously, he doesn't seem to understand that I'm just not a typical girl like those he hung out with in school. Oh well. Although I do seem to go from subject to subject very quickly on here, and I do talk incessantly about things that really don't matter.

Which reminds me, I'm kinda annoyed with someone on second shift who's using my scrubby-sponge that I use on the water fountains. I opened up a new one, and just threw it in the bucket, without using it, for the next day, so I wouldn't forget it. When I picked it up this morning, it was all hard like it was used already. Someone on second shift had to have used it, the bastards. I'm only upset about it because I dunno what they were using it for, and who knows what the hell they were using it for. I just wanna know what they had to use it for. Cause if it is the bathroom cleaner (who I think it is), then she needs her ass kicked, because she's got one on her cart still in the f-ing wrapper, and it's been there for a week. That bitch. Heh, I'm not too fond of her, if ya couldn't tell, but she pissed me off too many times. Lucky for me, she'll be on first shift for the entire time these layoffs are happening, since they'll only need one bathroom cleaner a day. So, yipee.

If ya couldn't tell, I'm really being sarcastic here.

Well, I'll get going now. Have a wonderful weekend guys!!!!

I do have some news about him. On Monday, he made a comment about him not being only twice my age the next day (meaning Tuesday). So what does that mean? It means: 1) His birthday is January 6th, and (the main point of this) 2) He's 40!!! (Or 41, now anyway)
Holy shit! Let me just say this: he looks damn good for 40!! I thought he was at least 10 years younger than that! My god, I never woulda guessed. But then I start thinkin at this point, 'Ew, some 40 year old guy is hitting on me?!?!' Kinda gross actually. But like I said, I woulda never been able to guess how old he was just by talking to him. Hmmm...

And a strange occurance happened today concerning him: he didn't come over to me and talk to me. I was just surprised by that. Cause any chance he gets, he'll come over to say hi at least once a day. Oh wait, he did say "Good morning" to me early on in the day. Okay, nevermind. I lied. Sorry, forgot about that. But yet, that wasn't even as much as he'd usually say. So there.

Oh, and Sean! Stop doing actual work, and talk to me dammit!! Heh, just kidding. Don't want you to get fired cause of lil ol' me.

Let's see, what else happened that I wanted to post about? Damn this bad memory sucks. Hmmmm..........Oh, Mike, the other dude I talk to every day, hasn't been to work this week so far. I'm kinda worried, because he told me there were problems with his sister, and he might have to go down to Florida over the new year's holiday, and I guess that's where he is. So, damn, that really kinda sucks, because my buddy isn't there.
It's quite depressing, actually.

Not to mention, all afternoon since lunch, I've had this very unsettled feeling in my stomach. I thought maybe it was the multi-vitamin I take every day, but it would never give me that feeling for more than half an hour at the most. And that's only if I don't take it during the meal, which I didn't do yesterday, but that went away within about 15 minutes, and today I took it during my meal. So dammit, I just don't feel right at this moment.

There was more I wanted to say about the admirer, but I can't remember right now. I know it had to do with the convo we had yesterday, but I'm not sure what it was. Oh yeah, I do remeber this: he told me he pictured me living on a farm! Hahahahahahaha! That's so funny! Me, on a farm! I live next to one, but to actually live on one doing all that work? Nah, not me at all.

Oh, and this may be the only post for the week. My sis has this week off of work, and wanted the computer to herself, so I didn't bug her about coming over here to use the comp until today, and she wasn't even here when I called. So that's why I'm here now. Of course, she's back now, but I'll be leaving soon anyway.

Alrighty, I better get going then. Have a wonderful week, guys!!!!

I went to Staples earlier today, and bought a pack of 50 cd-r's, and I saved about as much stuff of mine from this computer as I could. I really wanted the cd-rw's, but these were on sale for the same price that 10 of the cd-rw's were on sale, and there's 50 of 'em, so I know damn well I won't be filling them up too fast. Anyway, I was half expecting my bro-in-law to have already decided to go ahead and re-format the entire computer by the time I got here, since, of course with my luck, that's usually how things happen for me. But he didn't do anything to it, so I proceeded to save as much crap as I could. I just hope I remembered it all. Hmmm...

I also was working on those freakin smilies, and all the dimensions are right, but I just happened to actually test it out, and it doesn't work. I'm assuming it has something to do with the javascript I was supposed to put in the palette, and I think I typed something in wrong (in the part that was variable). So, again, the smilies still don't work (gah!!!!), so just ignore them for the moment. I'm tryin, I really am!! I'm soooo close, and it's killin me, since it's such a stupid little project that shouldn't have taken more than a few hours tops, but I guess because it's me doing it, it's gonna take 3 times as long to finish it. Ah well. I'll fix it as soon as I possibly can. Who knows when that'll be.

I bought new shoes today to replace a pair that I've had for four years or so, and I wanted to find ones that looked almost exactly like 'em to replace them, so I went searching for some, and I did find a pair that are a bit different, but I like them better, so it's all good. The only problem is that I can't put the Orthotics inside these new shoes, since it makes them very uncomfortable, and I really need to find some other insole for them that has arch support. I have very low arches, and I got the orthotics to help remedy that, and they fit into the old shoes. I'll figure something out. I just can't walk in these for long distances, or my arches start killing me.

Hmmm..oh yeah, did everyone have a good new year's? I did. I didn't do anything real exciting on new year's day, except to go visit Karen (Josh's mom), and ate dinner there. New year's eve wasn't exciting at all either, since I was at home, and Josh wasn't feeling good, so we just ended up talking on the phone, and then I proceeded to do my laundry that needed to be done. Yes, that's what I did on new year's eve. I did laundry. I even stayed up past midnight, but I wasn't waiting for it or anything; I just happened to look up at the clock and realized that it was a few minutes after 12. I just think it's kinda funny: "Oh, what did you do on new year's eve, Melissa?" "Oh, I stayed up doing laundry." It sounds so sad, so very sad.

Anyway, I'll finish this up. I think I'll go home and work on the puzzle I started this morning. I'm not normally a puzzle person, but I got it for Christmas, and it's a really cool picture, and it came with that sealer crap included, and gave an offer to get a frame sent to you in the mail for it. So, I wanna get it together so I can have a new picture to hang up! Alrighty, enjoy your weekend!!!!!