I really don't have anything to say about Amy's House of Nuts, except to say that these nuts I'm eating now are really good. Mmmm....Anyway, I just couldn't think of a good title, so that sounded good enough.

The door handle on my car is now fixed, if you hadn't figured that out from my hunny's comment to the post below. And speaking of comments, I don't think you could smell me where you are, Sean. I forgot to write yesterday that the smell was coming from the trash can I was standing right next to at that moment. Go figure. Heh.

Ah, my day was not that exciting. Darlene, one of the food service ladies, bought me lunch just because I did something for her. That was nice of her.

Okay, I don't really have anything to add to that, and I have to go pick my mom up from work today, so I should probably finish up here. Have a mah-velous night!!!

I am so tired. No, not tired, exhausted. I hardly could do my job. In fact, half the damn day I felt kinda lightheaded, and almost like I would pass out. That's not good. At least I made it through without doing that. Usually lunch perks me up, and getting some food into my system and talking to my hunny was nice, and did give me a little energy, but it didn't last long. I tried to stay happy and all, but I just didn't have the energy to say hi to everyone, or have much of any convo at all today. Oh well, I'm pretty sure no one really cared that much.

I had one of my embarrassing moments today. I was cleaning a table in one of the break areas, and I smelled something kinda gross, and then I was trying to remember if I had put deodorant on this morning (which is very likely that I might have forgotten it, since I'm just so completely exhausted), so I was trying to discreetly smell myself to make sure I wasn't "offending" anyone. Well, I couldn't really tell, so I figured, 'Ah hell, no one's walking by,' so I did it again, but was quite obvious about it. Of course, that's the moment someone decided to walk by, so I'm pretty sure he saw me do it. I was like, 'Must remember to go into the bathroom to smell self so as to not be caught by a random passerby.' At least then I could explain a bit without feeling like a total jackass. Oh well. Heh. I wonder what he was thinking. That must've been an amusing sight. I suppose I can't get through one day without looking like an ass.

Ah, and to begin the day today, I had a freakin headlight out, and I didn't even know it! The one guard dude told me when I pulled in. It'll be fixed tonight, along with the broken door handle, so that's not a problem.

Hmmm....what else?? Oh, I swear if Roseann takes my fucking sponge off my cart, and switches it with hers just because I opened a new one, there may very well be murder. It's annoying, and it's too obvious. If she had some common sense, she would wait another day or two before switching them so I wouldn't notice. Ooooo, but now I'll be watching. I will be checkin it every freakin day. Paranoid, you ask? Yes, yes I am. But I don't care. I don't appreciate that shit. Better knock it the fuck off. Grrr....

Anyway, on a happier note, I feel better now that I've blogged. Thanks for being my place to vent. And if you're still here, thanks for listening. Er, reading, I should say.

I shall be on my way now. I have to get gas, and probably stop at the grocery store to pick some cereal and whatnot up. Bub bye!!!

"Falling in love consists merely in uncorking the imagination and bottling the common sense."
--Helen Rowland

Well, I'm taking a break right now from cleaning. Of course, I still have more to do, but I'm almost done the trim and the inside of the doors. I've done the dash, as well as I can, and the front doors, so I have the back doors left and the trim around the doors. I have yet to vaccuum, or clean the seats and all that fun shit.

I hate being a perfectionist. I've spent a long time out there, and I'm trying to get it really clean, but it just ain't happening. Grr...it's aggravating. In the back of my mind I think, 'Melissa, give it up, it won't get any better than that.' But yet I keep workin at it, until I just get completely disgusted with it, and say 'fuck it,' and quit totally. I'm trying not to be perfect tonight tho. And I think I'm doing alright with it; I do notice a difference, but I dunno if it really looks all that much better. Of course, it'll look a hell of a lot better once that vaccuming is done. I don't have anything to vaccum it with, and I know Josh does, but I forgot to ask him for it last night when I was at his house, and he's at a class for work tonight, so I can't quite contact him now about it. Guess it'll have to wait for another day. *sigh*

Damn it looks like it's getting darker out. I know I saw a lot of clouds rolling across earlier, but I hope it won't rain yet. I want to finish the last of the stuff I'm able to do tonight.

Anyway, I'm done eating, so I'll be off now. Goodnight!!

If you smoke, and you're planning on trading in your car, or just selling it, dump your ashtray out, please. The person who is cleaning the car after you would appreciate it greatly. Thank you.

I got a car!! Yes, you read that right. I did buy a car. Josh saw it on Saturday, and we both went to look at it, and tried to buy it then, but the dude who was selling it doesn't do any notary stuff, so we had to do it during the week. So, I took an hour off from work around lunch (had to make up that time later, bleh), and me and my dad headed over and got it. So now my dad doesnt have to get up at 5 in the morning just to take me to work, and then work second shift. So, I'm happy about that, and I'm definately sure he is too.

Anyway, the car is a white 1989 Chevy Caprice Classic, and I love it! I really didn't think I would when he told me about it before we went to look at it, but I've fallen in love with it. It needs a good cleaning, and there are burn marks on the seat from a careless smoker, and one of the main things is that the radio doesn't work right (or it might be the speakers), so that needs to be fixed very soon. There are other things that need to be fixed first, like the driver's side door handle, but as soon as that's done, I need that radio. I'm already goin through radio withdrawal!! But I'm really happy with it. I just have to make sure I keep a bit more extra money for gas, cause it's a gas hog, and I'm not used to that. The van certainly wasn't as bad as this car for that.

I think I'm gonna go now. I have to clean out the inside of the car, plus I may have to go grocery shopping. Not sure about the shopping part, cause I don't know if I really have to buy food. If I can wait until next week, it'd be better, since I already spent a lot so far this week. And I need gas money.

I really had more to say about it last night, but I wasn't able to sign into MT, and now I'm just tired, and I'm not as in the mood to blog as I was last night. Maybe I will try again later, but if not, have a good night guys!!!

"The supreme happiness in life is the conviction that we are loved -- loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves." -Victor Hugo

"Love teaches even asses to dance." --French Proverb

Bub bye!!!

"The middle section of a girl is pretty safe. You just want to make sure you don't go below the belly button or too high that you touch the hoo-haa's." --my Joshie

Anybody know how aggravating it is to buy a cd that has the greatest hits of that artist, only to find that one of the songs you really liked the best isn't on there? I know I looked at the cds, but I always forget to look for that specific song on it. Dammit. Now I will have to spend more money just to get that freaking song. And it's happened twice now. I already have to keep a list of the cds I want, I guess now I have to write the songs on there too. My memory is just getting worse and worse. Grrrr....

Anyway, I had a good day today. Not as warm out, so I felt a bit better at work. If I didn't feel like lying down for a nap now, I would go for a walk. Bleh. I hate being so tired after work, but that's what happens when you have a physical job, and never get the right amount of hours of sleep your body requires. I need 8 hours, and then I'll be fine. I haven't gotten 8 hours of sleep for work since January. It sucks. I get up at 4:30 in the fucking morning, and get into bed around 9:30. No matter how hard I try to get into bed earlier. I've tried. It may only happen that I get a few extra minutes, which is nice, but it never lasts. And being forced to drop the van off at the other house, and not having anyone there to drive me back screws me up as well. My sis and mom have not gotten home til after 7 for quite a long time, and I just don't even wanna deal with the damn thing. They're the ones staying there on their own time, not getting paid for overtime (they're supposed to be done at 5, and only live about 15 minutes from where they work), and I shouldn't have to keep stopping by the damn house when they could just stop here and pick the van up after they're done work. Or at least call or something when they get home. I didn't mind it so much when they got home on time, but like I said, it hasn't happened for a long time. Gah. Well, did I confuse anyone yet? Sorry if I did. Kinda confused myself there.

I think I'm gonna end this now. I'm so tired, I just wanna curl up and go to sleep right here. I don't think my sis would appreciate that. Not to mention, it'd be very uncomfortable.

"Tromping round inside my mind, I found your grave and fell upon it. The scream was silent, but piercing, nonetheless. I dug my fingers into the dirt and opened my mouth to the grass, which grew there, knowing all the while that no matter how deep I go, I can never dig my way back to you." --Jules of Dirty Feet and Lily White Intentions

I know that had absolutely nothing to do with anything I wrote about, but it just made my heart ache. I don't know exactly why, but it did. I guess I'm just in that mood for some reason.

Have a wonderful night!!!

Wow, I am actually sweating! It's nice out today, but I'm hot just sitting here. It's the hottest it's been since last summer. I think it's supposed to go back down to 60 something as the high tomorrow, so the weather's a bit screwed up right now, but I thoroughly enjoyed the nice weekend anyway. It was worse at work today, so at least it's not as bad as that was. Boy, I'm just looking so forward to spending my days hot as hell trying to vaccuum in that place. (sarcasm)

I just feel so blah right now. I wish I could be happier, but I'm just not. I dunno why.

I also may have to start looking for another job, which I really don't wanna do right now, but I think it may be time for that. I don't have a clue what to do with my life, and I'm so freakin lost right now. I wish I had a career in mind, but I'm not motivated enough to find something right now. Even though I'd like to move out of the house and in with Josh. But I just don't know what to do. I don't really have any skills that would give me an idea for a good career. So damn.

I think I may make this short since I don't really have a lot to say, and I just would like to go listen to cds or something for awhile.

"The hardest of all is learning to be a well of affection, and not a fountain; to show them we love them not when we feel like it, but when they do." -Nan Fairbrother

"For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul." -Judy Garland

Have a wonderful night guys!!

Sorry, I'm too uncreative to come up with a corny title tonight. I had a really good day, was all happy, and now I just am so freakin tired. Dunno why. I finally got ahold of Carol earlier tho! We talked for over an hour. I was online, so I called from my cell phone, and it was completely dead by the time we were done. Anyway, I was so happy to talk to her. She says she's doing well, and I'm happy for her. I'm glad everything's workin out for her there. I also have her home number, so I can call her on that phone, rather than on her cell phone. It's not free to call her, since she uses a different thingy, so I may as well call her house.

Oh, and I was very happy. My Joshie called me after I go home from work (he was still working), just because he was thinking of me. That made my night. And I finally got to answer my phone. No one has called me yet, except for Josh, so I haven't had that privelage so much yet.

Sorry, I'm boring you all, but I'm actually not much in the mood for blogging tonight. I was more in the mood last night, but I couldn't sign into MT for some reason, so I just gave up.

Damn am I tired! I didn't realize just how tired I was until I got on here to blog. Bleh. I really need to get to bed early!!

Okay, here are some quotes, and then I'll be off!

"Sympathy constitutes friendship; but in love there is a sort of antipathy, or opposing passion. Each strives to be the other, and both together make up one whole." --Samuel Taylor Coleridge

"You will find as you look back upon your life that the moments when you have truly lived are the moments when you have done things in the spirit of love." -Henry Drummond

Have a marvelous night!!!

I took this quiz about a week ago, and I forgot to post the result. So, this is my result: The Maid of Honor and this is the quiz.

That is all. I'm done now. I swear.

Poor health will result because of bad dietary habits and abuse.

Shit. It's when I read stuff like that, altho it's only a horoscope, I worry about how much I've eaten that day, and think about yesterday's consumption. Damn. Looks like I better stop with the candy for tonight.

No, not with reality. I think I may have done that years ago. I just tried calling one of my high school friends that I had just gotten together with a few months ago, and the dude who answered it said I had the wrong number. And I had emailed her, but the message came back because the "email account had been discontinued." So damn. I'm quite upset about that. Now that I'm really trying to get ahold of everyone, I can't. It makes me wish I had called earlier.

I know, I know, most of your friends from high school drift away, and you end up never talking to them again, or at least not before your reunion. So that just really sucks, because this was one friend I really would've liked to try to keep contact with. Grrrr...

Anyway, I really tried to get on blogging last week, but I was really busy doing other stuff, like playing with my new phone. Heh. I didn't think I'd like the phone they sent me, but I actually do. It's got a bunch of neat thingies on it, and you should all know by now that I am easily amused.

Plus, I signed up to be able to use the web browser and im and email function, so I should be having fun with that.

I hope everyone enjoyed their holiday. I probably would've, but I was just having a bad day, and nothing seemed to go right for me, so it wasn't as good as I had hoped. And I ate too much. Too much candy, too much food....that's the thing I hate about holidays. It sucks. And, for some reason, my voicemail password was not working yesterday, and I still don't know why, but I had to go online last night and just change the password completely, so it's ok now, but it really had me worried and pissed last night. Oh well. At least it works now.

Hmmm...what else did I want to say....I can't remember. Doesn't this happen in every one of my posts? I want to write about something, but I keep forgetting what it was I wanted to write about? That bugs the shit out of me. Not to mention, the second I sign off AOL, that's when I remember exactly what it was I wanted to write about. Gah.

Alrighty, it's now time to get going. Here's some quotes:

"Perfect love is rare indeed - for to be a lover will require that you continually have the subtlety of the very wise, the flexibility of the child, the sensitivity of the artist, the understanding of the philosopher, the acceptance of the saint, the tolerance of the scholar and the fortitude of the certain." --Leo Buscaglia

"A relationship is like a rose, How long it lasts, no one knows; Love can erase an awful past, Love can be yours, you'll see at last; To feel that love, it makes you sigh, To have it leave, you'd rather die; You hope you've found that special rose, 'Cause you love and care for the one you chose." --Rob Cella

Have a good night guys!! I hope to be back tomorrow!!

I was informed earlier that the Blogroll Me! link I have on the side of the page was linking to the old blog! I forgot to change the code. But now it's fixed, so if anyone actually *gasp* wants to blogroll me, then it will now show up as the new address. I know, I know, this wasn't really a big deal, but I figured I'd at least share my stupid moment of the day with ya.

I just went for a drive. I'm not normally the kind of person that wants to do that by herself, but I was gettin all claustrophobic here, with the kids runnin around, and all (my niece and nephew, not mine!!!). So that's what I did just now, and as I was driving, I realized it woulda been a better night to take a walk, since I haven't done that in awhile, but it's too late now. I have to go take my shower very soon, and I was just in the mood to write. My old blogging obsessed self is finally re-emerging!! I suppose that's good.

Oh, that post from last Tuesday mentioned I was getting claustrophobic, and someone wanted me to clarify that. Well, it's just like today's circumstances were: I was bored, it was nice out, I wanted to get out of the house (if only for 10 minutes), and I didn't have anywhere to go (couldn't think of anywhere to go is more like it). So that's my explanation for ya hun.

Oh, and I finally called about a cell phone! Actually, Carol had given an old cell phone of hers, so I wouldn't have to buy a new one, but as I was talking to the sales person, he said that the only way to activate that one would be to fax a paper to me, and then I sign and date it, and then fax it back. Seeing as how I have no fax machine, or any access to one at all, I decided to buy another phone, which was on sale from $69.99 to $19.99, which means it may very well suck ass, but then I can just call that one when I get it (which should be tomorrow or Thursday at the very least). He said that I could always activate the old one later on if I don't like the new one, so I will just wait and see about that. I don't really care that much. It's not like I have really many people to call or anything. But at least I have one now. So that's something to be happy about.

Well, I think I should wrap this up, since I had decided I was gonna take my shower at 7:30, and it's 7:43 now. Have a great night guys, and (hopefully) talk to ya tomorrow!!

I've finally gotten my taxes done!! Of course, I did it the easy way, so it didn't take me long, but still, I finally did them. They've been sitting in my room for over a month, and I've just been lazy with it since. So, I feel like I actually accomplished something! The way things have been lately, that's progress.

Anyway, I just really wanted to post a message here, and I wanted to write about something, but now I can't seem to remember it. Dammit. Oh well, I guess it wasn't all that important....well, I think it was, but if it really was that important, I'll remember it eventually. So....

I guess this is the end of a very short, sucky post. Just to make it a bit longer, I'll post some quotes:

"Love is the immortal flow of energy that nourishes, extends and preserves. Its eternal goal is life." --Smiley Blanton

"We perceive when love begins and when it declines by our embarrassment when alone together."
--La Bruyere

Alrighty, I probably will be back to posting regularly, if I can. So, have a good night guys!!