Goodness. Apartment hunting may be fun for some people, but not me. I've called a lot of places so far this week, and gotten a few responses (not too many, but still, some), and I've only gone to look at 2 now. The very first one I fell in love with, even more so than that house I looked at a week or two ago (geez, I can't even remember!). The second was nice and big, but it absolutely reeked of cat urine smell. And this place was wall to wall carpeting. The only way to get that out completely is to replace the carpets and such, plus, I don't think it was cleaned at all since the last person moved their stuff out. Needless to say, I think that one's a no. It may be cheaper than the first one (sorta), but I have enough of animal smell in either of the houses I live in now, so I'm not dealin with that any-freakin-more!

The first one was in a complex type thing, and it's obviously only a one-bedroom, and it's just really nice for the price. The only thing is, I won't be able to save any money at all by living in that one. I don't believe I'll get into debt; after all, I'm not getting a phone hooked up right away since I've got my cell phone, and I don't even own a tv, so cable's out right now. So the extra expense after rent is electric, which the woman taking care of all this told me averages out to about $35 a month. I make enough that I can afford it, but do I really want to not be able to save anything?? If I rented it with someone else, it would be a heck of a lot easier.

Anyway, I'm still gonna try to look around more at other apartments around here, but I just like that one apartment so much, I'll be comparing everything to it. I also have yet to do an application and such, so I shouldn't get my hopes up too high. I think if I don't/can't find anything by next week, I should call back and try for that one definately. I'm really trying to get in touch with other places, but no one is calling me back. And if the people advertising an apartment would actually put the right phone number, that'd be helpful too. But I do have some time yet, and at least I did find something already, just in case I hate everything else. The way I am, that's how it will turn out.

Sorry about being so depressed on Tuesday that I couldn't even post any kind of a decent message, but I was just not in the mood, and I felt so bad that I thought it would last for a few days. I was still bummed yesterday, but not quite as bad as Tuesday, so I at least posted a quiz result for ya.

I just went to look at a house that is for rent very close by to my house. It is a nice little place, and it's just been redone a few years ago, and I really, really like it, but it's soooo out of my price range right now. If Josh would move in with me, I still think it would be out of our price range if either of us want to save any kind of money, plus between the 2 of us, we really don't have any appliances, so I don't think it'll happen. Oh well. I'm going to call about a few other apartments tonight that are in my price range, and hopefully they won't turn out to be total crapholes. Eh, who knows? I will just have to wait and see. I have at least a month before I have to definately be out of here, so I have a little bit of time. With everything on my mind last week and the beginning of this week, it's been hard to even look for anything. I got the chance to read the paper this morning at work, tho, and found a few I was interested in. So, I shall be pursuing this more now.

I'm still working with Roseann at the end of the day, but I'm past being so pissed off and wanting to scream. I just think, 'Not that much longer....' And I try not to be too rude or anything. I just try not to care anymore.

I gotta get goin now. I have yet to shower and get dressed for my Joshie. Aw, I just want to give him a big hug right now. So I better get my ass movin, right? Right.

Well, have a mah-velous night, guys!!!!

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There won't be any good posting for tonight, and maybe not for a couple of days. There's a lot of shit going on, and I don't have the heart for blogging right now. I know, it's pretty serious when Melissa doesn't have the heart for blogging. It is very serious. No one has died or anything, just so you're not worried about that, but it's bad enough.

I wanted to give you a quick warning tho before I just decided not to blog for awhile. I will try tomorrow night, but I just don't know right now.

Anyway, have a good night!!

Movable Type hasn't been rebuilding my blog when I post my entries, like it usually does. I tried to do post the last one about 12 times, and it didn't do it any time, so I just had a lot of the same post listed on here, but you still couldn't see any of them cause it was being a pain in the ass.

I will be patient. I will be patient. I will be patient...

(Maybe if I keep repeating that to myself, I will actually be patient)

The explanation for why my blog hasn't been cooperative and maybe a little fubar'ed is right here. I'm sorry if you were really looking forward to reading about my boring life, and weren't able to because of it, but it was beyond my control. Mel, I'm kinda getting frustrated with it too.

Well, I haven't really been having good days lately. Mostly cause I have been stuck with Roseann these past few days. I hope next week is different. It better be, dammit. I can't spend the week miserable like this. And that's all I've been since I've had to work with her.

I did get a break from her after lunch today (thank you Jason!!!!!!!), but all I ended up doing was standing there and watching other people do the work. Now, I don't necessarily think that's all that bad, but I was tired, and I would rather have been at least doing something so my legs didn't get so tired from standing still. Oh well. At least I wasn't with Roseann!!

Anyway, I think I'm done with my posting for the day. Don't forget to look at my other blog!!

Have a wonderful Friday night!! I know I will, even tho I will probably end up sleeping on the couch like normal. Bub bye!!

typed 5/12/04

I have a new blog!! It's just for the quotes that I normally post on here, but Sean showed me this, which is a lot better than my original blogging host, Blogger. It's free, so I just messed around with it a bit, and I actually really like it. I decided that would be my quotes blog from now on, so if you actually read my quotes and liked them for some reason, go to that site for them.

The url is http://speaktome.blogdrive.com

That is all. I am thoroughly exhausted after a sleepless night Monday, and not getting to bed at a decent time last night. My mind is not working today, and I've had to endure a full 2 hours with the annoying one, and lucky me will most likely get stuck with her again tomorrow and Friday. Gah. I think I'm going to go insane. Honestly, I had to fight the urge to scream the entire time. Not to mention, I am *supposed to* be doing extras. I am not doing that; she can't (meaning won't) think of extras to do, so she has me doing some of her regular shit. She said she dusted on Monday. Bullshit. I know that job, and I have dusted every other day, and that fucking dust cloth does not get like that after 2 days. Geez. I have such opinions about this, and yet it's only cleaning! I swear, I need to get back to my normal job. Being in "the dungeon" (aka the fabrication building, or the building I hardly ever even enter anymore) is quite depressing. Ah well, maybe only 2 more days. I hope. *crosses fingers* I want my other job back, with my people. The people in the fab. building are nice, and even somewhat nicer than those of the lubin persuasion (meaning those that work in the lubin building), at least until you get to know them, but I've come to know those in lubin, and I just miss them.

Plus, there is not one place that is not over-run by smokers. I don't mind being in the same area, but it is not as "breezy" and opened up as those of the lubin smoke areas, so the smoke just lingers a hell of a lot more. And I don't like everyone eavesdropping on my convo with my hunny, even if I don't say anything personal. I just don't like it, and I know they will do so if given the chance.

Alrighty, I'm gonna get goin now. I have blabbed on enough. Let's just hope I make it through this week without ripping my hair out or something even more drastic.

Okay, like I said in my comments for the last post, I would explain here why I'm an ass. When I read the bill for the minutes used, I also counted the minutes for the in network calling, which is free for me, and so I haven't really used as many as I thought I had. Josh uses the same provider as I do, so we don't have to pay for our phone calls, and for those 10 minutes I was freaking out on Sunday morning, as well as blogging about, I had forgotten that these calls were free.

That is why I'm an ass.

I just checked my unbilled cell phone minutes online, and I'm in trouble. I've already gone over my limit. I think I only have 3 more days left til the statement shows up, so I will have to wait to see how much it's gonna be. Damn. I might have to cut my calls to my hunny during my lunch break.

Nah, I don't think taking that time to talk to him away is worth the money I save.

Just won't do useless shit on the phone then. Hmmmm...this is not the way to save money if I'm gonna be going over my limits. *shakes head*

A song I can't stop listening to lately.

Beauty And The Beast

My beauty my beauty
My beautiful beautiful beautiful
Beautiful beast

Not much to say tonight. I'm tired. I just want a nap. I think I missed my chance, but I'm hoping to get to bed early. Anyway, after yesterday's incidents, I'm just glad I didn't have to do anything after work today. I woulda liked to go for a walk at Green Lane, but it's probably all muddy, and since I'm so tired, I don't think hiking those trails would help that. I really only want the walk to get out of the house.

Thinking back upon today, it seems like it happened so long ago. I dunno why. Maybe I'm just in a weird mood. I'm always in a weird mood, what the hell am I even questioning that for?

Anyway, I have begun to search for apartments, but I don't know if I will actually be able to move into one by the time I need to. I'll have to elaborate more on that later on, like tomorrow, if I can focus on it enough to write about that situation. If not, it's not very important to know about, just that I will have to be moving soon.

I think it's supposed to rain all freakin weekend. I hate that. It really sucks. I am so sick of freakin rain, I think I'm gonna scream! Gah!

I hope tomorrow goes very quickly...I felt like it was Friday all day today, so tomorrow is going to feel like an extra day to me. That damn training yesterday was what screwed time up for me this week. Oh well, at least I get paid tomorrow!! That's always something to be joyful about.

I also have been getting headaches today, and when I just got up to change the cd, I got all light-headed. Maybe I should go for a nap.

I'm trying to think of interesting happenings at work to talk about, and there just isn't any that I can think of at the moment. Except that every time I go outside and sit at the one picnic table, Harvey always comes over and talks to me during break. It's because Jason isn't coming over to our building anymore, so I guess Harvey's all lonely, so he comes over to me. Dammit, Jason, come back!! I don't mind Harvey that much, but I just wanna read my magazine dammit! This is half the damn reason I don't get to read all my magazines until we're in the next month. Right now, I still have 2 April issues of different magazines, plus the one I'm only halfway through. And that's just sad. I don't have that many subscriptions, I just don't get that chance to read it. I also have 2 library books that I've had to renew once already, and I haven't even started the one book! I'm only halfway through the other one, and you have 4 weeks til they need to be returned after checking them out! Well, I haven't been reading before bed, cause I'm so freakin tired that I can't read more than a page or two, so that's why I'm behind on the books.

Eh, I should go eat now. And then I think I'm gonna go read. Goodness knows I have a lot of it to do. And I will get to bed early, dammit. I don't think I'll be able to get up tomorrow morning if I don't.

Anyway, enjoy your night, folks. I hope everyone's Friday flies by as well.

"Most people would rather be certain they're miserable, than risk being happy." --Robert Anthony

"When you hate, the only one that suffers is you because most of the people you hate don't know it and the rest don't care." -- Whoopi Goldberg as Myrlie Evers in "Ghosts of Mississippi"

Okay, I must tell you about my day. Well, it started out really good, and the entire time at work was great! Which isn't always like that, so I was very happy about it. However, as soon as I started to leave, it just went to shit. In less than an hour.

Well first, I was walking out to my car and as I wasn't paying attention to what I was doing, I walked into one of the smokers' picnic tables, and banged my shin extremely hard on the seat, and now there is a big red lump where I hit the table. So that sucked, and people saw that, but I just brushed that off since I know I'm very clumsy and it was likely to happen someday. So, I go out to the car, all ready to stop by the bank, and to go get gas, since, at this point, I only had 1/8 of a tank left. So, I drive off, all relaxed cause I'm leaving work, and get to the bank. I pull into one of the spaces, and look into my purse to get my wallet out for my card (this bank is the closest one to work and the gas station, but has no drive-thru atm), and my wallet isn't there. A moment of complete and utter confusion passes when I realize I left it in my locker at work. I just about scream profanities, start the car up, and proceed back to work, all the while keeping an eye on the gas gauge since I have no idea when E really means empty (completely empty). I get back to work, go in and get my wallet, and run back outside.

I drive the 15 minutes back to that town, and go to the gas station first this time. Yes, I had enough gas that I made it. I begin to pull into the pump (which would be on my left side), and, this being my first time pulling into one of these pumps (the last time I had used the end pump so as to give myself room, and to avoid the situation that did happen because I'm not used to the long car yet), so I was going extremely slow, but what happened next really is what got me pissed off and upset and just really ultimately wanting to scream because my day is not going well at all. I didn't turn quite sharply enough, and my tire went over the lil curb that the pump is sitting on, and my bumper actually knocked the handle thingy off the damn pump. I was going very slow, like I said, and I didn't do much damage or anything, just a scratch on the pump itself, and a few scratches on my bumper (well, I don't really know if the scratch on the pump was from me or not, but I figured that it was). Not to mention quite the entrance. The old guy next to me was staring at me, along with probably everyone that saw that. Anyway, I was swearing to myself as I exited my car, went around the back, picked up the handle, placed it back on the pump for the moment, flipped down the license plate, and took the gas cap off, and proceeded to pump the gas. No, I didn't check the car, I knew it wasn't that damaged, and the pump, like I said only had a scratch on it, so I just got my gas. Anyway, I went up to $30, and thought, 'Maybe I should check how much money I have.' So, I stopped, went up front to the front seat, and looked in my wallet. $28. Fuck. Luckily, I have a million and one quarters, so I just gave the cashier 8 quarters along with the rest of my money, and all was well at that point.

No, I did not forget to put the gas cap back on, or anything else. Luckily nothing else bad happened there. I left to go to the bank, and everything went well there, altho I was quite dreading what the hell could happen next. I didn't even know what to expect at that point.

But luckily I made it home and now I'm here with a developing bruise on my shin and some scratches on my front bumper, but otherwise okay now. I still feel like an ass, but that will wear off with time. Just hoping no one from work was at that particular gas station, cause I will not be able to live that one down. Hell, I'm laughing about it now, but I wasn't back at the time it happened. Felt like crying from frustration at that point. I'll live.

I shall be leaving now. I hope my suckiness does not rub off on anyone else. I've hurt both me and my car. That was not a good hour.

Anyway, have a good night!!

Now, the whole point of me getting my own vehicle was so I would not have to be chauffeured anywhere much often, or to chauffeur anyone else around. Well, since I've gotten my car, I've already had to give my mom and my sis with kids a ride, and now I have to pick up my sis again today, and then go pick up the kids. All because my bro in law won't have time to do it all. He says he won't make it to work on time then. Well, guess what he's doing right this minute?? He's taking a nap. Yes, a fucking nap. Damn asshole, makin me have to waste my gas, which is down to 1/4 of a tank already, and making me have to do something that lazy ass can do himself....grrr.....

No, I'm not too thrilled right now. I was having a pretty decent day, altho nothing real interesting happened. We'll be learning tomorrow how to use this new chemical to clean with that they're replacing all of our other shit with. It's supposed to be good shit, and it'll supposedly work on everything: glass, floors, tables, stainless steel, etc, and there are 2 different strengths, but I will only be using the light duty one, but I'm anxious to see if this actually works. I'm a bit skeptical on how it works on stainless steel water fountains, since that's a big part of my morning (sad, I know), but we'll just have to wait and see. Also, I'd be happy to be only using one product for everything, and not worrying about accidentally filling one bottle that was for one chemical with another. I haven't done that one yet, but I'm sure it may very well have happened.

Ok, I will have to tell you about Roseann's stupidity later...I have to go get my sis. Have a good night!!